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2001.      What do you call hitting 2000 posts?!

          (Still an MB virgin at times LOL) Woohoo!

soniat-d (153 )    9:24 pm, 31 May


 2002.   Cool piccies new2u

          She's really into it isn't she!Like the look of your house too ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:26 pm, 31 May


 2003.      just about to say you hit the jackpot

          lol

bogeyi (482 )    9:26 pm, 31 May


 2004.      I know ;o)

          I thought I was posting 1998 ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:29 pm, 31 May


 2005.      So here's how much my parents care LOL

          Latest email, first in two weeks, verbatim... Dear Sonia, Brent, Lydia and Emily, Here is our latest news. The weather has gone mad. Yesterday, it was snowing in Munich in May. We have been watching the French Open and the spectators are wrapped up in furry coats. We have turned on the heating in our apartment and if it doesn’t warm up soon, I will have to buy some warm clothing because I took a minimum of winter clothes which I thought that I would only need in Canada. Last Thursday was Ascension Thursday – here it is a public holiday called Christ Himmelfahrt (literal translation is Christ travelling to Heaven) and so people try to make it a long weekend. There were 50 Km traffic snarls on all roads north, south and west out of Germany. They were probably trying to escape the cool, damp weather we’ve had for almost two weeks. We attended the High Mass at the Dom (cathedral). It was marvellous. There was the Archbishop, two Bishops, about 8 priests, about 30 altar boys/girls. The Cologne Cathedral choi

soniat-d (153 )    9:30 pm, 31 May


 2006.      ...

          Cathedral choir which had boy sopranos to men in it was just left of where we luckily were seated. They have a lot of religious holidays here. In the afternoon we visited the Muehlenhof Open-Air Museum near Aasee. It had examples of old timbered houses and workshops. It was cold and wet but there was a warm coffee house where we enjoyed plum tart, cream and coffee. Last weekend was Muenster’s Eurocityfest. The cobbled main shopping street was strung with Euro flags and was lined with stalls selling regional specialties, trinkets or travel information. The best part was the entertainment particularly the music. There was one band with 80 young musicians and a lovely vocalist. On Saturday we went on the English language guided tour of Muenster – it is always worth doing as they point out things that you would miss. On Sunday we went to the city museum to see how Muenster has developed (and been regularly wiped out by wars) since 805AD. It was most interesting. The remainder of both days was spent wandering aro

soniat-d (153 )    9:31 pm, 31 May


 2007.      ...

          ..around all the stalls and listening to the entertainment. We will talk to you soon. The timing is a bit tricky. Love Mum (and Dad).

soniat-d (153 )    9:31 pm, 31 May


 2008.   Sorry ;o)

          I just find it a bit amazing LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    9:33 pm, 31 May


 2009.      sonia are they on holiday or do they live

          overseas.

bogeyi (482 )    9:36 pm, 31 May


 2010.      Hi Paula

          Did you implode a bit at the weekend?! I did that recently too. Brent just went into his cave and hibernated for the rest of the night LOL. I've decided he needs another construction project to cheer him up again - got a plan ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:37 pm, 31 May


 2011.   They're on a 5 month holiday

          Left a week or so after I found out the big C was back (its in the first pages of this thread). I was all upset they decided to go anyway, Mum said she'd "Come back early if it all turns to custard" which was highly amusing in a bizarre way at the time! It's turned out OK, appointment times are now good, causing minimal disruption for us and others, so glad they went (would be feeling guilty if they'd stayed). They go overseas a lot though, so could have done all this better. But I'm lucky they helped out as much as they did before they left. Not everyone has such good support, I know. I just love the absence of "How are you?"s when they do make contact LOL

soniat-d (153 )    9:41 pm, 31 May


2012.      our house is a 1900 resited villa.

          In regards to the e-mail from your parents, I can understand how disappointing the lack of support will be. Without going into details here, I remember my sister being devastated at the lack of support our mother gave during a crisis in her life and the same day hearing Dr Phil (oh wise one) saying 'there will be times when people we expect will support us, and who we need close, let us down. Its certainly not a good feeling, especially when it seems they have forgotton our plight and left us to cope while they carry on having a ball. Dr Phil's advise was that we need to take a firm hold onto the people who are being supportive and focus on the encouragement we are receiving from others to get us through. I know you have a loving and supportive husband with you and hope you also have friends and others who are there for you during this difficult time.

new2_u (45 )    9:43 pm, 31 May


 2013.      well nite nite ladies have a early start

          and a big day tomorrow...have a good nite.

bogeyi (482 )    9:46 pm, 31 May


 2014.      Nite nogeyi

          Thanks new2you. Thats true. I have a few gems around me - today actually I came home to find a bag of mealtime goodies hanging in a bag of our back door, including some gorgeous gingerbread men for the girls. Made my day!

soniat-d (153 )    9:49 pm, 31 May


 2015.   Hi sonia

          Can understand how you feel. Reading your parents email, I must admit I thought it was strange as well. I guess maybe (?) they're in denial and don't really want to face or think about your illness and this may be their way of coping with it by not mentioning it and hoping that it will just go away and you'll be well. People react differently and maybe this is their coping mechanism - not acknowledging. They may not be able to express how they feel?? I read your thread and all the other ladies posts every day and have nothing but admiration, best wishes and hope or you all.XXX

zebidi (282 )    9:50 pm, 31 May


 2016.   Whoops LOL!

          That's Goodnight Bogeyi LOL (Typo city tonight LOL). Think I'd better depart soon too. Still stunned at the length of this thread :o) Nitey night all you lovely ladies ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:51 pm, 31 May


 2017.      Well I am off also.

          Will try and make sure I get back every few days but if you don't hear from me you will know I am snowed under with work, but am thinking of you and will pop back when I can to catch up. Bye for now.

new2_u (45 )    9:52 pm, 31 May


 2018.   Thanks Zebidi :o)

          Yep I think you're right ;o) At the departure gate my mums parting words of wisdom were "Eat fruit!" LOL If only it were that simple! LOL (We eat a tonne of fruit in this house BTW) LOL

soniat-d (153 )    9:53 pm, 31 May


 2019.   Fruit!! - LOL

          Good on you for having a great sense of humour - keeps those positive fibes going!!

zebidi (282 )    9:57 pm, 31 May


 2020.      Sonia I really feel for you

          We had a terrible thing happen in our family and the one I thought would help me through it turned his back. I am still shattered by it but try to focus on the good people in my life. Hugs for you and Brent. Good luck to you bogey for tomorrow. Paula ,I hope you get up to meet the girls it would be so good for all of you. Twinkie for some reason I can't get in to Briyanna Kates site. What a beautiful name my mum was Kate. Landylass you are a ball of muscle with all that lined up , enjoy every minute of it.Hi to everyone as you say this is such a warm, caring place to be.

boop2 (106 )    10:43 pm, 31 May


 2021.      good morning ladies

          got up at 6am this morning couldnt sleep, tossed and turned all night feel like my eyes are hanging out of my head.

bogeyi (482 )    6:29 am, 1 Jun


 2022.      Morning all... Sonia

          I think its your mums way of coping!!!! Don't mention it, it might go away! Off for chemo and grr we have been told to boil all water as of Monday afternoon but I only found out Wed lunchtime and drunk heaps in those 2 days! Got to go buy some bottle water for this morning. Joystik if you know anyone that gets the Aussie Womans Weekly see if you can get hold of Oct 05 issue. There is an interesting article about 4 generation of one family with it and research being done in Australia. I was reading it at the hospital and was going to ask the xray receptionist to copy it for me but she looked a bit grumpy!!!! Also did anyone hear on breakfast this morning about uk research in giving woman 13 big doses of radiation instead of 25 smaller ones. Grr next hurdle is radiation and junior Drs both threatening strike action about when I am due to start radiation. Have a good day everyone.

landylass (47 )    8:37 am, 1 Jun


 2023.   Grrrr

          I was happy busily typing away last night and the bleeping server went down again and I couldnt get back on till just now. Xtra had another major outage. I had withdrawals all night. Anyway goodmorning. Hope you all had a good sleep and have a nice day.

paulaxx (75 )    9:39 am, 1 Jun


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paulaxx (75 )    9:44 am, 1 Jun


 2025.      Not pretty

          Oh well, it was building and mmmmm. Anyway sweet, I think about you all the time and can appreciate that really the first line in the letter you needed to hear was How are You? Have a good day, I snuck in here quickly in the middle of cleaning the darling oven. So better get back but you take care. xx

paulaxx (75 )    9:46 am, 1 Jun


 2026.   p.s

          Sonia - do hope you've had your fruit today. xx

paulaxx (75 )    9:49 am, 1 Jun


 2027.   bogeyi

          Sorry you had an awful nights sleep. Thinking of you today with your meeting. Hope it positive!!

paulaxx (75 )    10:33 am, 1 Jun


 2028.      Hi everyone :o)

          Thinking of you Bogeyi - hope the appointment went well (((((hugs))))) Its a pain how the mind can play havoc with your sleep. Its funny, I've been noticing recently that I've been having these incredibly vivid, real and extreme dreams (I'm not usually much of a dreamer LOL) and only just twigged that its the melatonin I'm taking thats causing it. It's bizarre that something that is a celebrated natural sleeping pill, has this as a possible side-effect!?! (It is a documented side effect). Now not sure whether that means I'm taking too much (only taking one pill), don't really need it or if this is actually a good thing?! More googling required ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:13 pm, 1 Jun


 2029.   Hi Paula

          Yes she's a lady who totally lives in denial - I could go on but actually I'm not bothered by it these days - just intrigued by it really! (We're total polar opposites as people - sometimes thats a good thing ;o) But right now - Well, its certainly not what I'd do if either of my girls were in this situation. But that said, she may well just be burnt out - she helped out a LOT during chemo, did all my ironing, picked up the girls for me at the drop of a hat, etc etc. I was very very lucky to have that - think I got a bit spoilt actually ;o) Anyway, I find it funny how the insensitive stuff like that will only happen on one of my very very few down days - what's with that?! Feeling much better today and, wouldn't you know it, can't feel lumps now - they come and go, so think I'll brave it alone with Dr Benji and just ask lots more questions ;o) Must be scar tissue, hopefully ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:20 pm, 1 Jun


 2030.      Hi Landylass :o)

          What's wrong with the water??? Don't you hate that, I can understand what you're feeling - fingers crossed eh? Cant help out with that article sorry - you should have just borrowed the mag - that's what everyone else does! I'm a major magazine reader at the mo, and when I finish them I leave them all in the waiting rooms, so others can enjoy nice recent ones. Anyway, realised this morning that they've ALL disappeared!?! Not a single one left in the rooms! I did permanently borrow one from there at the beginning as I was actually featured in it LOL (was in hospital when it came out so never managed to get a copy), but that was one 6 month old copy and I've replaced with about 15 new mags so figured that was OK?! Hope so! ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:27 pm, 1 Jun


 2031.      These strikes are a major pain eh?!

          Will be finding out tomorrow what this means for me. I was all fired up to write in and complain, but then thought yikes what if it annoys my therapists that I did it? (They're being so great to me, giving me great times and taking me in early when I arrive early etc) My name is too distictive unfortunately - don't think the Herald accepts false names, do they?

soniat-d (153 )    1:30 pm, 1 Jun


 2032.   Hi Sonia & all the other

          lovely ladies in this thread. Haven't been in for a few days and WOW!!!! over 2000 posts. Congratulations one and all for an absolutely fantastic thread!!!!! Keep it going and keep strong. Best Wishes to all XOXOXOXOXO

cole2 (360 )    1:44 pm, 1 Jun


 2033.      Hi there everyone......I had such a good sleep....

          last night and in my own bed again, with no drains to get in the way. Woke up bright eyed and bushy taied at 5.30am and got up and got Lauren sorted for her school trip to Arrowtown, to learn all about the Chinese people and their Gold Prospecting. She left at 6.30 and will be home onight about 5.30. I went back to bed and slept til 9am!! The frost was fabulous at -7 deg, and looked just like snow!! The day is stunning. Nurse has been, and I am doing a bit of house work and trying to get sorted for my contact assessment for Real Estate. So if you don't see me on here much, you will know I am bogged down into a bit of final study. I SOOOoooo..... much want to get the Certificate before I start my Chemo. That was when I feel well enough, I can do a bit of work. Hope you are all having the best day ever.

joystik (281 )    2:00 pm, 1 Jun


 2034.   Thanks Cole2 :o)

          Cool eh?! Think I'm alone here today LOL - hopefully everyone's out enjoying the sunny day :o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:02 pm, 1 Jun


 2035.   Great to hear you sounding so great again Joystik!

          Well done! Hope U have a great day too ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:04 pm, 1 Jun


 2036.      Sonia,it is quite sad what people, especially

          family can do isnt it. But, in saying that, my Father, who I havn't spoken to for almost 10years, phoned me the night I got my histology results, and was genuinely sad about what is happening to me right now. And also my Oldest brother (I have 5) that I haven't had much to do with either, he rang too, so that was nice, really that they are concerned under that other front they all put up. Sometimes it peoples way of coping. But hey if Fruit did the trick, I wouldnt have got Cancer at all. We have fruit for africa in this house, in fact, thats usually all Lauren takes for her school lunch, raw fruit and vegiesHope your day is good...Hugs to you..

joystik (281 )    2:05 pm, 1 Jun


 2037.      hi Sonia

          no words can say how i feel. i dont undersatand and dont know but just to i am sending you lots of love and plenty of hugs..

tuffie (12 )    2:09 pm, 1 Jun


 2038.      Hi Paula and Josh, Bogeyi and Ryan, Boop.....

          Landylass, Cole, twinkies, and who have I forgotten??? Hope today is going well. Its Gypsy day when the farmers move about to start the new season. There are lots of trailers with 'stuff' on going in all directions. ope you 2 young fellas are on 'top of the world ' today. Is there a problem with the water storage Landylass? Bit of a pain you didnt know sooner. Saturday must have been melt down day Paula!! We had one here too!! Nothing major, but a meltdown all the same. Got a few more bottled up things out in the open, which is good. Hope you carry on and have a great day in the sunshine. I'm off to make a quick phone call and then a walk. see you all later...Hugs to everyone...

joystik (281 )    2:10 pm, 1 Jun


 2039.   Hi everyone

          Lovely to hear from you all. We are good thanks. Joshi off to school today, getting ready for our big week next week.I have been finishing off some paintings and trying to train my pup, what a joke. Perserverance!!! Yes gypsy day, we have mved so many times in the last 15 years I am looking forward to settling down in our own place. All the best for your study with real estate.Go hard and then you can be our agent and find us our dream place ;o) only if you feel well enough of course, no pressure!! We loved Arrowtown, hope Lauren is having a great time. Thining of you all xx

paulaxx (75 )    3:01 pm, 1 Jun


 2040.      LOL Thinking!!

          Not thining! I really should proof read before hitting that button! Just wonder where the moon was on Saturday for us to have all decided to have a vent??

paulaxx (75 )    3:02 pm, 1 Jun


2041.      Thanks Tuffie :o)

          Hello everyone, we're going out soon, me and the girls for the afternoon and evening. We 3 ladies are going to go have some fun ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:27 pm, 1 Jun


2042.   Thats great

          Sonia. Hope you have a wonderful time. xo

paulaxx (75 )    3:47 pm, 1 Jun


2043.      Re post #2024

          Just wondering if you have time to maybe remove this post I did. I am having a bit of guilt trip, as he is my dad after all and if anyone else saw this and it got back to him I would feel very bad.(My TM name is a bit of a giveaway) Should've thought of that when I typed it I know. Sorry its not like you all havent got enough to do without me :O( Wont do it again I promise. Thank you thank you thank you

paulaxx (75 )    4:47 pm, 1 Jun


 2044.      Hi Paula, I gave you a vote and by the way it

          was a new moon last Saturday 27th. Interesting?? I wonder if it had any part in the feelings thing. Going to be frosty tonight again.. Its such a beautiful still clear evening, and the sun just set about 5pm. Just waiting for Lauren to arrive home from Arrowtown now, bet she will be tired after a long day.

joystik (281 )    5:16 pm, 1 Jun


 2045.      done paula

          :)

bogeyi (482 )    5:21 pm, 1 Jun


 2046.      You guys

          are great. Thanks. Dont mean to be a drama queen. Bogeyi How was the meeting??

paulaxx (75 )    5:32 pm, 1 Jun


 2047.   Joystik

          it is a beautiful evening. You're right its going to be a frosty one. Hope Lauren had a fun day. Lots a love 2 you and your family

paulaxx (75 )    5:33 pm, 1 Jun


 2048.      CANCER SUX

          Hi Sonia, there is another angle to the off-hand treatment your parents are giving you at the moment. When I got cancer last year my mum didn't want to know anything about it. She was 91 and I have been her main (and only carer) for years, and I realised later that she was terrified that something would happen to me and she would have no one left. One day I told her that my skin had broken badly under my breast from radiotherapy, and she said "I've had a bad day too". I am not condoning your parents attitude, as Mum hurt me a lot with her indifference, but just suggesting there may be another side to it. Mum thought if she didn't talk about it, then it wasn't happening. She has passed away now, but my oncology specialist thought that caring for Mum had a lot to do with my stress levels and getting cancer.

dize5 (452 )    5:33 pm, 1 Jun


 2049.      well I'm off for my follow up mammo and us

          tomorrow. Last november the fna was negative, and the mammo and us showed what they 'thought' was bruising. The upshot is they decided on a 6 month repeat. Thing is, I have felt a heaviness and pulling in that breast ever since (and I have a sore armpit). I have been to the GP with it and he thought the armpit was inflammation. So, I'm glad the thinking is over and the doing is tomorrow. I'm nervous because of my fam history. But I'm glad the last 6 months is finally over and I can be retested.

cake4 (155 )    6:49 pm, 1 Jun


2050.      and sonia....

          I reckon you need a new mummy !!

cake4 (155 )    6:50 pm, 1 Jun


 2051.      Lots of Love

          I know how u must feel. Just had mastectomy 15th May after having lumpectomy 8 yrs ago and radiation treatment then. Waiting 2 c surgeon 12th 2 c what is next in store 4 me. I can really sympathise with you. All the VERY BEST and oh yes I found the lump myself, both times. Lots of Hugs and Kisses and Cuddles needed for all cancer patients. It is my caravan that has just been stolen from Rotorua (see Message) that's all I needed.

cburton1 (60 )    6:59 pm, 1 Jun


 2052.      glad to see you back joystik

          and that your drains are gone. horrible things they are. Did your daughter learn anything interesting?. My great great grand father was one of the original chinese gold prospecters there, altho the chinese has been well diluted over the years. He married a distant relative of my hubbys, so me & Jeff are something like 6th cousins or something stupid

sunbeamnz (72 )    7:07 pm, 1 Jun


 2053.      mothers

          Hello can I come in for a minute..I had to do a lot for my mum and dad before they passed away, sometimes my mum would not talk to me when I rang up, I didn't know why, but after she had gone I found a note written to me saying she was really sorry for the hurt she had caused and grateful for all I had done, I really treasure this little note. It says how she really felt.Sorry to get off the subject. You're all marvellous women and so courageous, heaps of hugs and xxxxxxx's

mitzi3 (2 )    7:07 pm, 1 Jun


 2054.      bogeyi

          Just wondering how today went. hows Ryan today?? Thinking of you

paulaxx (75 )    7:21 pm, 1 Jun


 2055.      I voted it off before paula

          Is Joshi looking forward to his trip? Hi bogeyi are you back? Hugs for sonia we are all with you is it this Friday or next you have your meeting? Hi joystick property has gone mad here every second house is on the market along the coast they want big dollars.Hi twinkie how is your wee soul today? Hi to all you other ladies and all the best. pomegal I hope you enjoy your holiday.

boop2 (106 )    9:04 pm, 1 Jun


 2056.      Hi Boop2

          Thank you for doing that for me xx. How are you today? Joshi is looking forward to Christchurch, his little sister keeps going on about how long it takes to get there so think thats putting him off a bit. But hopefully we will have some time to do some fun things too. i expect the two full days of assessment will tire him out though and of course the chemo in the middle of it all. Gonna be full on for him, he'll be exhausted. But we will have fun regardless! Love & hugs to you

paulaxx (75 )    9:10 pm, 1 Jun


2057.   By the way

          Its been confirmed we are coming to Auckland... 25th July. All sorts planned for us to do as a family as well as the fishing trip.We are going to be so spoilt.We are up for 3 nights. Yee Haa, shoudl be able to squeeze in a bit of retail therapy surely. Josh was thrilled. Hope you have had an awesome night Sonia - you deserve it. xx

paulaxx (75 )    9:13 pm, 1 Jun


 2058.      hi girls, appointment went ok

          she wants to wait and see the next 2 chromorism tests to see if there is any change, there are two options a full transplant with radition this time and a stronger chemo or what they call a top up where they use tylers lymphosytes and transplant little at a time.Both options are with very high risks especially the first one :(, in saying this our doctor is very positive in the way she explained the good and the bad.His neutrafils went up again to .67 so doc is pleased ans still says she dosent understand why these are going up but marrow hasnt moved. Randal was there today so that was good normally by the time i get home i have forgotten the info or its to complicated to repeat.I left there today feeling alot better about the situation. Ryan needed platelets again today as the reaction earlier in the week ate them up.

bogeyi (482 )    9:17 pm, 1 Jun


 2059.      Good luck to everyone waiting

          on test results. All the best tomorrow with your big meeting Sonia. And go for it Joystik on your Real Estate assignments. Good to have something to focus on. Few gypsys have been passing thru town today Paula. They are doing a $12 million upgrade on our town water supplies and contractors buggered something on Monday and it meant the chloronation plant got put out of action meaning the whole town has to boil water until today. Unforutunately I'm not a radio listener, there was nothing in the local rag on Tuesday and I eventually read about it on Wed lunchtime after having drunk gallons of the stuff! Had a dose of sitting on the loo today which made me nervous after chemo but I am on Metformin for diabetes and sometimes these pills upset the tummy so feeling better tonight and I think thats what it has been. Cut them out for rest of day and relied on insulin but have blood sugar of 26 tonight which should be about 7! Looks like the alarm will be set a couple of times tonight! Got 4 spare teens also s

landylass (47 )    9:23 pm, 1 Jun


 2060.      so hoping that

          they don't want to jump on singstar about midnight. Watching DVD's at moment and all is quiet. They have a teacher only day tomorrow and no one is looking for an early night!

landylass (47 )    9:24 pm, 1 Jun


 2061.      That's cool Paula :o)

          So what else is planned?? Will we have time to catch up?! Hope so ;o) Had a nice evening thanks - Brent's out for the evening on business. House looks like a tip LOL will have to go and sort that soon ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:25 pm, 1 Jun


 2062.      Hi bogeyi

          Man, what a lot to deal with - glad you're feeling better about it all. Positivity is everything ;o) ((((((hugs))))))

soniat-d (153 )    9:27 pm, 1 Jun


2063.   Hi cburton1

          Thanks for popping in, by all means join in if you wish, you're most welcome :o) Sorry to hear the monsters back with you too - how are you feeling now after the mastectomy? I was just thinking the other day how at the time I had the op I was horrified at how I looked, but now I'm more than happy with it! I used to wear a prosthesis religiously (as soon as I could) for ages until a month or two ago, and now, quite frankly can't be bothered putting it back in, except on special occasions ;o) Anyway, pop in anytime, vent or talk away. Good luck for the 12th ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:33 pm, 1 Jun


 2064.      thanks sonia

          :)

bogeyi (482 )    9:37 pm, 1 Jun


 2065.   Thanks Mitzi2

          I'm fine about my mum really, she's the way she is, getting upset about it won't change anything ;o) I voted your message off too Paula but (for the record!) I see nothing upsetting with what you said?! Perfectly fair and objective ;o) No-one's perfect, we all realise that, and love them anyway, as you clearly do Paula :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:38 pm, 1 Jun


 2066.   I just have my counselling session tomorrow ;o)

          Tuesday I see Dr Benjamin as per usual fortnightly check, and next Friday is the big Oncology meeting. Trying to forget about that ;o) Thanks all xx

soniat-d (153 )    9:41 pm, 1 Jun


 2067.      have all 3 kids home tomorrow

          they have teachers only day.

bogeyi (482 )    9:42 pm, 1 Jun


 2068.      Whoops week out there

          with your big meeting Sonia. How are the burns healing?

landylass (47 )    9:44 pm, 1 Jun


 2069.      Hi cburton1

          I feel sad for you my sister had the same about 6years ago a lumpectomy and I thought she was out of the woods now I guess hers could be back too can never be sure.So pleased for you and your family paula that is exciting.Hugs to landylass I hope you are feeling better tomorrow. Bogeyi that is good you understand what is happening now.I went up to the coal mine here today they run trips in a unimog you take lunch and it was a really good day.When I think what happens to the coal before I go and full the bucket it is facinating.

boop2 (106 )    9:45 pm, 1 Jun


 2070.   Hi Dize5

          Thanks for posting what you said ;o) As I just said earlier I'm fine about my mum really, she's the way she is, getting upset about it won't change anything ;o) Sorry to hear about your mum - hope you are well. Yes its interesting how many specialists attribute stress to BC - I certainly see that as the catalyst for mine too. So I trying v hard to chill... now ;o) How are things with you now? How long is it since radiation for you?

soniat-d (153 )    9:45 pm, 1 Jun


 2071.   Burns healing fab now Landylass

          No worries ;o) Skin has formed now over most of the wound - hopefully will be all covered when I wake tomorrow. Sweet as :o) And (touch wood) the area being treated now is still perfectly fine (touch wood) so no bandaging etc needed there. That bodes well for the party :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:49 pm, 1 Jun


 2072.   Bogeyi

          Im glad you were both there for the meeting. I know it always helps to remember things that were said later on, when all the info is going around and around in your head. So glad you are feeling positive!! Sending you lots a hugs and good thoughts. Luck having three home tomorrow ;o) Ryan is doing such a wonderful job!!! Tell him we think hes awesome!

paulaxx (75 )    9:49 pm, 1 Jun


 2073.   GOOD LUCK for tomorrow Cake4

          Fingers and toes crossed for you. Let us know how it goes ;o) Pop in anytime (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    9:51 pm, 1 Jun


2074.   Landylass

          Busy day here too with all the gypsy's and not one of them stopped to tell me what the future holds... maybe its best that way eh? You poor thing, yucky water, ooohhh. When we first moved here I was drinking the water heaps, then got a bucket to wash the steps and about four worms came out of the tap, then found out from a neighbour the lady who'd lived here got giardia. We instanty phoned for a filter and yes I too had a crook tum. Hope you get a peaceful night, sounds like there is a possibility you'll get seranaded later. Take care and hope your blood sugars come down soon.

paulaxx (75 )    9:53 pm, 1 Jun


 2075.   Sonia

          Glad you had a nice night. Dont you hate that when the pixies dont come and tidy the place when your out! They dont here either ;( I am going to make time to meet you and hopefully bogeyi too. Apparently they have us going to K'Ts as well, not sure what else yet but the guy said lots of fun things. Be so nice to catch up with you though face to face. Have a nice nights sleep. Have a good meeting with the counsellor. Does Brent go with you or is it just for you? Hugs to you and your darlings. So glad you had a nice time.xo

paulaxx (75 )    9:57 pm, 1 Jun


 2076.      Hey good night everyone....been so busy doing

          stuff today, no time to post but I still thought about you all during the course of the day. Hope you all have a good restful sleep and wake up to a really white frosty morning like we are going to here. Love and hugs to you all....ooooxxxxooooxxxx

joystik (281 )    10:11 pm, 1 Jun


2077.      Hi Paula no just me to counselling at the mo

          Will ask her whether she thinks Brent should come tomorrow. So glad MAW are putting together an extravaganza for Josh and you all - simply awesome :o) Looking forward to the get-together - anywhere will be fine ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:42 pm, 1 Jun


 2078.      Hugs to you too Joystik ;o)

          Nite all ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:42 pm, 1 Jun


 2079.   Bump for the morning...

          Gees is chilly. Hope everyone is rugged up nice and toastie. Have a good day one and all! Thinking of you all as usual(((hugs)))

cole2 (360 )    8:24 am, 2 Jun


 2080.   Good Morning

          Hope everyone is having a nice day so far. Another beautiful day here, just making muffins and went and got my eggs from under the chookie. Still warm, kids and I love doing that. Hope the session this morning went well for you Sonia. Bogeyi how are you all today? Thinking of you all with love

paulaxx (75 )    10:17 am, 2 Jun


 2081.      morning all

          paula that sounds nice I love those warm eggs too somehow they taste different. How's joshi today? sonia been thinking of you next Friday is a damn long time to wait I bet you will be busy as. Have you spent your vouchers yet bogey? hugs for Ryan . Hi joystick how are you today still walking?Hi to landylass and everyone.

boop2 (106 )    10:43 am, 2 Jun


 2082.   Hi Everyone - busy busy busy

          on this beautiful day ;o) Counselling was interesting, very constructive - I have two issues to address. been feeling a bit low since that but on the up now - tidying the house (still). Hope you're all having a lovely day.

soniat-d (153 )    2:22 pm, 2 Jun


2083.   Sonia

          Hope you are ok, thinking about you heaps today!!! Take care x

paulaxx (75 )    3:23 pm, 2 Jun


 2084.   Boop2

          Hi, how are you today? Joshi is good thanks. A bit emotional, but since his stroke, hes been like that. He got a certificate at school today for trying so hard at everything he does. Made us very proud :o)

paulaxx (75 )    3:25 pm, 2 Jun


 2085.      Landylass

          Just quickly wanted to say hi to you as well, hope your BSL's are ok. Take care

paulaxx (75 )    3:26 pm, 2 Jun


2086.      Hi Paula, been thinking about you guys too :o)

          I'm well thanks, got most of the house like a museum now finally LOL (M-I-L was popping by ;o) so that feels good - lets see how long it lasts LOL. Had a good talk with counsellor, discussed upcoming oncology meeting - all the feelings there and things at home (Brent etc). Picked up the dressups for tomorrow night - will be going out tomorrow morning to get some accessories to dress it up a bit LOL. Thank goodness its sale time at the mo ;o) Yesterday our curtains finally arrived for this study so put them up too. So plan this avo is to try and sort out this room some more, its like a project without an end this room, as soon as I get through one pile another "to do" pile appears! Just doing it when I feel motivated to - life's to short to spend all day tidying ;o) But feel like it today :o) Sorry to hear Josh is emotional at the mo - you can tell him I am too ;o) Must be the weather ;o) xx

soniat-d (153 )    3:35 pm, 2 Jun


 2087.      Hi 2 all and thanks for good wishes

          Your sister may be lucky and NOT get the monster back, heres good wishes to her. Masectomy not as bad as when I had lumpectomy and had lymph nodes removed, they cut nerves in armpit (does happen) that was like getting electric shocks down arm REAL BAD. All going well this time so far and healing well but just yesterday had to have some fluid drained off - not much tho. Kind regards and best wishes, lots of love and hugs to all

cburton1 (60 )    3:49 pm, 2 Jun


 2088.      Thats good its going well cburton

          I had the nodes as well as mastectomy, whatever thats called. I agree the nodes removal is the worst part - guess that'll be happening again, will find out in about 6 weeks... Good to hear you're healing well ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    4:01 pm, 2 Jun


 2089.      Any news on your caravan Cburton?

          Sorry, couldn't find your thread on that. Just what you needed eh?! Not!

soniat-d (153 )    4:02 pm, 2 Jun


 2090.   Cake4

          How'd you get on today???

soniat-d (153 )    4:05 pm, 2 Jun


 2091.      I'm off to local hospital overnight...

          bloodsugars should be 7 and have hit 29.1! Own fault as they were already high from steroids and I picked up bottle of ordinary lemonade instead of diet this afternoon and drunk wrong stuff so finished them off! They reckon I will be out tomorrow for the hen party so thats ok. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

landylass (47 )    5:15 pm, 2 Jun


 2092.   Sonia

          Been a busy day for you. Glad you had a chance to talk about all thats going on in your life. I dont know how you keep going some days, you're a legend. How exciting the party's tomorrow isnt it? I just went a picked up fish n chips and a yummy chocolate icecream for dessert. Am about to hope in the bath before the kids and get into my jarmies. Comfort food and an early night...mmm telling me somthing?? Take care. If we dont chat before Have a wonderful time tomorrow, bet we do though. This is addictive! Cant wait to see some pics xx

paulaxx (75 )    6:30 pm, 2 Jun


2093.   Landylass

          Hope you have a restful night. And the BSL's are ok for you to enjoy the weekend. Take Care x

paulaxx (75 )    6:33 pm, 2 Jun


 2094.   Sonia

          Just told Joshi and he said OOOHHH, he sends his love to you. We all do! x

paulaxx (75 )    6:34 pm, 2 Jun


 2095.      hehe I escaped admission again...

          treated me in A&E, hooked up on drip for couple of hours, gave me tea and got them down so sent me home!!! Yah, own bed again tonight. Just got to do some tests regular through the night now. Have a good weekend everyone.

landylass (47 )    8:02 pm, 2 Jun


 2096.   Thats great Landylass

          Enjoy your own bed ;o) We've got my brother here for the evening so must get back . Hi Paula and others more later ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:04 pm, 2 Jun


 2097.      Cburton good luck with your

          recovery. I had lumpectomy and nodes but was really lucky with the numbness and healing. Had to have mine drained with needle couple of times. Enjoy your big night out tomorrow night Sonia.

landylass (47 )    8:06 pm, 2 Jun


 2098.   Hi Paula - yes busy busy!

          Think I'm overdoing it a tad!?! My bro's gone home to study (exam time), Brent's watching Medium (yawn) so I'm in here getting a little more sorted. No longer living in a museum LOL amazing what 3 kids can do to a house in a few hours (neighbours 9yo daughter here also - we have her here every Friday afternoon after school - she's a great babysitter and she enjoys playing with the girls - while I get things done! Emily REFUSED to go toily before bed - oooh no - hopefully she's not regressing - she was doing so well?! Well off now to try on the outfit for tomorrow night - work out what I'm going to need accessories-wise ;o) Not plussed with the wig - it was Brent's preference, not mine!

soniat-d (153 )    9:28 pm, 2 Jun


 2099.   Sounds

          great. How do the curtains look? Make a difference to the whole look of the room? Your Emily sounds a bit like my Cass, she is so determined (dare I say a little stubborn) she is still in night naps. I'm not bothered cos I figure if I stress about it, not going to help her get out of them, just makes it worse. Most nights are dry - every time I say five dry nights in a row and we'll forget them she has a wet one or three???? Worries. She wont be wearing them on her wedding night.. hope you had a good night with your bro.My hairdresser just asked me to do some hair modelling for a photo comp. Should be good for a laugh. If I do it- I will post a photo of me to give you a giggle.

paulaxx (75 )    9:43 pm, 2 Jun


 2100.         Good evening all

          Just popped in to catch up. Sonia, you really are being 'put through the mill'. You are one amazing lady.Have a great night tomorrow. So pleased you have got back to your own bed Landylass. The chemo almost over for you. Relief!! Paula & Joshi, Bogeyi & Ryan, Twinkie & Briyanna...my thoughts are with you all. Paula I live just north of Chch but work in the city. I work not far from the hospital. If you would like me to call in to see you for support or whatever, my email is steampig at the xtra place. Would love to hear from you. Joystik, so glad things are on the up for you. Hugs to you all (and those I have missed).

maewest (75 )    9:46 pm, 2 Jun


2101.      Maewest

          What a lovely thought. Thanks so much. We are really hoping the visit to the hospital will be brief this time, a quick i.v push of the chemo and bloods etc. But if anything goes pear shaped I will take your details. Thanks it means a lot

paulaxx (75 )    9:59 pm, 2 Jun


 2102.      Sonia

          Just occured to me that whilst yours was watching Medium, I was doing bits whilst mine was watching Ghost. LOL.

paulaxx (75 )    10:00 pm, 2 Jun


 2103.         Maewest

          have you been pulling big hours again?

landylass (47 )    10:05 pm, 2 Jun


 2104.      Ok...

          Think Chris is sick of waiting to use this hes playing x box now behind me so I'm going to sneak off to bed.Nanite everyone. Thanks for being there xx

paulaxx (75 )    10:13 pm, 2 Jun


 2105.         Hi sonia

          I just hope you have a real good night tomorrow you deserve some relief.I wish I was near to help you.hugs to wee emily tonight as well.Hi paula and joshi, tell joshi I am proud of him too he done well.That was a lucky escape landylass nothing like your own bed. Hi joystick are you busy selling houses? I wished my husband happy birthday this morning gave him his present cooked him what he likes for tea and then while I was reading the tv guide realised I was a day too soon! I won't be doing it again tomorrow that's for sure.He thought it was a great joke. (senior moment's)

boop2 (106 )    11:03 pm, 2 Jun


 2106.         Hee hee Nitey night Paula ;o)

          I've been busy trying on the dress and working out how to accessorise it ;o) Have to say its pretty tragic LOL - will have to do a fantastic makeup job or piccies may not be released for public viewing LOL. Glad I got my lovely brown boots - they make it, And my new brownish faux fur 1/2 length coat looks fabulous over the loan dress - may wear that all night LOL. Had to pop out to emergency chemist tonight for some meths stuff for my ears - new earrings have made them angry - sure hope it fixes b4 tomorrow night?! Mind you with this wig Brent chose for me ( :o/!) may not need them LOL (very thick longer than shoulder length number with terribly thick fringe!). Yikes - what WAS he thinking insisting I take that one?! LOL

soniat-d (153 )    11:09 pm, 2 Jun


 2107.      Hee hee Boop2

          Thanks for that ;o) Yep it'll be a super party - birthday boy is a work HARD play HARD guy, lots of fun and knows how to throw a party. Excellent! Its almost here ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:12 pm, 2 Jun


 2108.      Thanks Maewest

          Yep its been a ride alright. Not to worry, skin GREAT now - only a small area still to heal now (maybe 1.5cm square, which is nothing!) :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:14 pm, 2 Jun


 2109.         sonia hope you have a great time

          not long been home have been at my nieces 16th birthday party.

bogeyi (482 )    11:17 pm, 2 Jun


 2110.      Oh Paula - the curtains!

          Not sure what I think of them, they weren't my preference but Brent thought he knew better - now he's saying "hmmmm, maybe you were right!" Too late now buddy! Nice finally having curtains back in here though, we'll get used to them. They're nice, but just a bit busy and dark for my taste - I wanted a bit more colour, and smaller pattern... Oh well, hopefully this means I get to win whichever next point of difference we come upon (pretty rare for us usually ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:18 pm, 2 Jun


2111.      Hope you had fun Bogeyi ;o)

          Well, I'm beat! Off to beddy byes for me, done too much today, and nothing much to show for it now LOL Guess thats what kids are all about... gotta love 'em ;o) Nite all.

soniat-d (153 )    11:21 pm, 2 Jun


 2112.         Beating Cancer By Accessing Your Own Immune System

          A few years ago I came across a method to get control of your own immune system by using a kinesiology technique called "Finger Testing" and making a simple statement either in your mind or audibly. The site has had about 30,000 "cures" so far since June 2004. The link below will take you to the site so you can decide for yourselves whether it is worth the couple minutes it takes to learn the method. http://www.immunics.org/00open/contents/the_cure_show.htm#C I sincerely hope this helps some of you. It also eliminates flu and common cold. Best regards, John

mystx (3 )    12:07 am, 3 Jun


 2113.         Hello.

          Just had a quick read through, you all sound so busy! Briyanna has had a busy few days. Tonight she's tube free though! Yay! She had a full bone scan earlier today. She's come out clear, so that's one less thinking worrying me. She'll be staying in the surgical ward over the weekend and on to oncology early Monday morning. thanks for the entries into the guest book, feels good to know we're though of :o)

twinkies_pn (0)    12:42 am, 3 Jun


 2114.         Hi Sonia

          Thanks for your wishes. By the way, I'm 60 with no children, and no hubby, so feel so sorry for you at your young age - at least (if it's any consolation) you have a lot to fight for so you go for it girl! Havn't heard anything about caravan yet, my friend (Bob) and I have both put adverts in local papers and Bob has posters out for it in Rotorua too, so here's hoping. LOL

cburton1 (60 )    1:11 am, 3 Jun


 2115.         Sonia and Landylass

          Hopefully you'll not have to have anymore nodes removed, I did'nt cause they were removed with lumpectomy op but apparently we have lots of them and they have got all the monster this time too. My monster was ductal (in milk ducts) but I believe there's different sorts of the monster.

cburton1 (60 )    2:22 am, 3 Jun


2116.      Hi cburton

          Mine was ductal too, but had spread to either 1 or 3 nodes (depending one which specialist reads the results?!). This time though most lumps are in remaining nodes, so... node removal looks highly likely. Personally, at this stage, I don't care what they do as long as it stops the monster dead in its tracks - they can chop out part of my ribcage if they want to! Its funny how different my mentality is about it all now - when first lump found, all I was concerned about was losing my boob, I thought that was a disaster! Guess I'm just climbing up the ladder of acceptance LOL Yes I have a lot to fight for, so on with the boxing gloves and off I go ;o) Good luck to you too with everything :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:47 am, 3 Jun


 2117.         Hi Twinkies

          Glad to hear some good news from you, thats great :o) Hoping for fantastic news in the near future ;o) (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    8:48 am, 3 Jun


 2118.      Thanks John

          Sounds interesting!? Will have a squiz later, off to sort the girls, thanks for posting :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:51 am, 3 Jun


 2119.         morning sonia,paula,landylass,joystik,twinkies

          boop, and anyone else i have missed.Twinkies great to hear shes doing well, do you have alot of support i know you said you moved back here and your mum is here(i think) but do you have extended family for support as well. Sonia have a blast tonight wont you.Might shoot up to algies bay today and spend the night with my parents kids been hounding me to take them up there. Rain has started here this morning. Paula how are you and josh today.

bogeyi (482 )    8:55 am, 3 Jun


 2120.         morning everyone

          Its another ripper of a frost, at present its -1. Brrr. At least its sunny. A good day for taking the cows off the farm. We walk them up the road. My job is too alert traffic and slow them down. Have a fantastic day everyone. SONIA - I will be thinking of you today with your big night. Hope you get it sorted and feel absolutely gorgeous with the end result! (Your comments about the wig etc had me raofl) xx Have a great day BOGEYI - Hi, we are all good thanks. Sleep is a great thing. how was your day yesterday with all 3 home??How are your and Ryan today? If you do go to the bay have a fantastic time. Take care

paulaxx (75 )    9:28 am, 3 Jun


 2121.      Twinies

          Glad to hear things are as going as well as can be at the moment. You are never far from our thoughts.

paulaxx (75 )    9:29 am, 3 Jun


 2122.      Boop2 - Birthdays...

          That is funny.My Step mother did that for my father once for his 50th had a huge party the works such a drama, then surprise - dad had to tell her it was next year! Thanks for your kind words for Joshi, he was stoked. have a great one

paulaxx (75 )    9:32 am, 3 Jun


 2123.      Be positive

          My mum had her problems and had a breast removed way back in 1977,but she was okay for another 19yrs.So be positive it is a very very horrible thing and only people that have been close to this will no what it is like.Goodluck.

pizzamike (2398 )    9:46 am, 3 Jun


 2124.         morning

          well the big day sonia it sounds exciting go to it. Hi paula and joshi have fun with the cows. Twinkie glad briyanna is doing okay. Hugs to bogeyi and ryan anymore photo's? Hi landylass how are you today ? I am going to take a walk everyday like you joystick getting too heavy need to do something.

boop2 (106 )    9:59 am, 3 Jun


 2125.         Hi all

          Done all the shopping - horray for Queens Birthday specials! Am pretty happy with my getup now ;o) Fingers crossed I can pull it off LOL Beautiful day here, Emily's being returned soon so will go put her down, get things sorted, and probably have a lie-down so I can go out tonight with all cylinders firing ;o) Hope you're all having a nice Saturday everyone :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:00 pm, 3 Jun


 2126.      Just found out there's going to be 300 people

          at this party!!! This cousin of Brents certainly doesn't do things by halves! OMG!!! Enjoy the rest of your day all ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:01 pm, 3 Jun


 2127.      Hi Sonia

          I do miss the shops in Auckland - look out when I come up in July. Glad you've sussed your outfit. Its a grotty day here now, drizzling and its got up to @4 degrees. Off to shift next lot of cows. Enjoy your lie down Sonia, I hope you have a fantastic time tonight if I miss you later. Will be thinking about you tonight groovin the night away. xx

paulaxx (75 )    2:02 pm, 3 Jun


 2128.         Racing again

          I'm just in from work. Yes Landylass, still doing the hours. Trying to cut them back..it works sometimes, but not often. Have taken tomorrow off. Packing in a mo and heading into the mountains for the night (or two). Paula my cell is 0274372908 if you want to contact me when you are here. Have a great weekend everyone. Sonia, I'm sure you will look just great. Have fun. XX

maewest (75 )    3:48 pm, 3 Jun


 2129.      Thanks maewest

          Have noted your cell number. Thanks so much. hope you have a great weekend.

paulaxx (75 )    4:10 pm, 3 Jun


 2130.      I have just joined us up

          to Caringbridge too. Here is Joshis website and on there you will be able to get my email address etc for future arrangements - like coming to Auckland. Thinking of you all with loads a love xxx http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/joshuar

paulaxx (75 )    4:13 pm, 3 Jun


 2131.      Sonia

          Not long now. YAY. Have a great night x

paulaxx (75 )    4:13 pm, 3 Jun


 2132.         hey sonia have a great time dont forget to

          show us pics when you can, Paula just signed his guestbook I was first yahooooooooooooooooooo.

bogeyi (482 )    4:28 pm, 3 Jun


 2133.      bogeyi

          I was just here saying Yahooooooooo toooooo xxxxxx

paulaxx (75 )    4:36 pm, 3 Jun


 2134.         no worries paula.....he will be the talk of the

          town when he asks to check his website and then people are gobsmacked that he has his own site, by the way you would be looked upon as crazy if you asked for me by that name, will explain when we meet call me Janine sounds better.

bogeyi (482 )    4:41 pm, 3 Jun


 2135.      bog whoops Janine

          LOL. Look forward to it ;O)

paulaxx (75 )    4:47 pm, 3 Jun


 2136.         Hi ladies, sounds like everyone is happy here....

          I missed you all and just haven't really been here at all. Had my friend from Nelson made a special trip down to see me. She and her new partner arrived last nite and it was so ,lovely to see her again, and especially to see her so happy with the new man in her life. We hadn't met him before either, and he seems lovely. She stayed in Riverton the night and arrived back this morning and we spent the day together here just catching up.. It was quite cold and cloudy until about 2pm and then it cleared away and was beautiful and sunny, but is cloudy again now. I think rain is on its way for tomorrow. Hope you got all your cows moved Paula. I had a look at Josh's new site and its lovely. I will have to go back there cos I couldn't leave a message for whatever reason. Hugs to you guys....keep warm wont you.

joystik (281 )    5:05 pm, 3 Jun


 2137.         Hi Sonia...sounds like a big night for you....

          hope you have a really great time. Gee 300 is a lot of people aye..should be a good night for all. Hope you are going to post a pic in your party outfits tomorrow so we can all see. Hugs to you all up there..

joystik (281 )    5:08 pm, 3 Jun


 2138.         Hi Boop....how far did you walk?? Was it nice and

          sunny there today too? I try to go every day for at least 2 km, or more if the day is nice..Its really nice to get out in the fresh air, and I walk like I mean it too so it doesn't take me long to cover 2km!! Have Sherri and Ray arrived over there at the bach this weekend?? She was getting rather bored with CHCH and its weather.. Hugs to you Boop2. ....

joystik (281 )    5:10 pm, 3 Jun


 2139.         Hi bogeyi and Ryan...hope the rain has stopped

          for your trip to the beach. We used to live at the beach at Charteris Bay on Banks Penensula, and it was great there. My Lauren is a bit of a beachcomber still actually, and will spend hours wandering along gathering things up to bring home. When she was much younger it was crabs and live things, now thankfully she goes more for shells and pretty things!! I've been thinking about you guys and sending you hugs......

joystik (281 )    5:19 pm, 3 Jun


 2140.      Joystik

          Lovely to hear from you. Glad you had some nice time with your friends. Yes thanks got the cows moved. Dear old girls cruising up the road. Hope you have a nice night - it is really cold here at the mo. Lots a love and hugs

paulaxx (75 )    5:24 pm, 3 Jun


2141.         hi joystik......boys had a great time

          found some crabs but it was really cold, wind was whipping into the beach so grandad didnt keep them out to long as we dont want ryan getting sick.

bogeyi (482 )    5:34 pm, 3 Jun


 2142.         Hello maewest, good to see you again...

          havent been on here so much for a few days. Got busy once I got out of hospital, and then had visitors last night and all day today. I see you are busy working. Dont over do it will you. Leave some for the next fella. Is it a nice night in CHCH?? It is as clear as out here tonight, but the forecast for tomorrow is for rain and snow to 400m, and for you too I think. Keep well and warm wont you.

joystik (281 )    10:05 pm, 3 Jun


 2143.         Landylass, you will be pleased to escape the

          night in the hospital. You dont get any sleep in there do you. I was in and out of bed all night wandering about, not able to sleep, and helping the other patients in the room!! So, I was pleased to get back in my own bed and off that sweaty plastic mattress! Hope your home is bug free again and your ankle is feeling much better. Is it Chemo for you this week? Did you have 6 months worth?? Does it go quite quickly? I will now after tuesday what my treatment will involve. Hugs to you too....

joystik (281 )    10:09 pm, 3 Jun


 2144.         Hi joystick

          no, they haven't come but friends of their's arrived last night. I haven't been for a walk yet I did think about it and I will. You would love our beach out here it is really quite ruggeg I love it. Malc goes over everyday and looks at the sea to see if he can fish or not he has caught quite a few cod this week and they were lovely.We are only 150 met. from the sea here.

boop2 (106 )    10:17 pm, 3 Jun


 2145.         Hi twinkies, I 'm pleased to see wee Briyanna

          is doing so well. Little people seem to bouce back from operations and things so quickly dont they. Pleased you got some clear results back too. Waiting for stuff like that is just awful, I know. I think about you and your family often now that you have posted on here and send you big hugs too.

joystik (281 )    10:18 pm, 3 Jun


 2146.         hi paula and joshi

          I will go and see your site soon I couldn't get on twinkies the other night. Do you have to fill all that data in?

boop2 (106 )    10:18 pm, 3 Jun


 2147.         I did it

          I couldn't get it to accept my phone no. so I just left it off and it worked. Lovely photo's and your wee daughter is so cute without her teeth.

boop2 (106 )    10:49 pm, 3 Jun


 2148.      Hi all

          Had a fab time thanks all! Here are some piccies :o) Me and Brent... http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party1.jpg Our family with birthday boy (left) and his brother (right) in front... http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party2.jpg Band and dance floor action http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party3.jpg Cool dancing lights http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party4.jpg Great night - had Ewan Gilmour the comedian do a great act - he knows the birthday boy ;o) great live band, wine, food... Only got home half an hour ago - now off to bed. Girls are at nanny's house for the night, so we can sleep in ;o) Nite all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:02 am, 4 Jun


 2149.         omg you to rock love the outfits sonia

          looks like a great party, some awesome costumes in that big picture.

bogeyi (482 )    8:51 am, 4 Jun


 2150.      Sonia

          I hope while I write this you are still in the land of nod. The photos look amazing!!! You look gorgeous! OOOHHHH those boots. YUM! So glad you look like your having the best time! Joshi met Ewan Gilmour at hospital in March, so thats cool. Anyway thanks for sharing and hope you have a nice restful day. Lots a love to you xxx

paulaxx (75 )    8:51 am, 4 Jun


2151.      boop2

          Thanks for your lovely entry in our guest book. And also for your kind words. Hope you are ok and having a great day. We will pack lots a warm clothes - thanks.

paulaxx (75 )    8:56 am, 4 Jun


 2152.   bogeyi

          on here should I stick to your alias??? LOL. Hope you are having a nice time up there. Did the kids find any crabs? Are they eadible or just for the thrill of the search? Have a good one. Gotta pack for the week soon - yuk!

paulaxx (75 )    8:58 am, 4 Jun


 2153.      morning paula

          not for eating just for the fun beach is 2mins walk down the road and the love looking under the rocks for the biggest crab, not my favourite past time but hey as a mother you do these things.lol.How are you and your family today.

bogeyi (482 )    9:00 am, 4 Jun


 2154.   Bogeyi

          Hi. we are ok thanks. Chris has gone off to feed the cows so I am packing and sorting for the week in Christchurch. Everytime I walk into a room I think about 6 things at once and walk out again. Last time I had to pack for Chch was when Josh was 1st diagnosed. Its a weird feeling. BUT got a bag to use for 1 of the kids and found $100 petrol vouchers and $100 pak n save vouchers from Oct from CCF. They had slipped under the bottom part of the bag and I forgot about them when unpacking when we got home. YAY! What a bonus. Hope you are good and Ryan too. Do you have 3 boys?? Cant remember if you said before. Hope the others are good too!!!

paulaxx (75 )    10:44 am, 4 Jun


 2155.      Great news Twinkie...

          will be a big relief to you. Great night had by all Sonia! Does you good to have a blow out occassionally! You looked wow! We had a good night with the hen party too. Bridesmaid had all the food done and came out and decorated the place. I didn't get to bed until 1.30am either but hey does you good! They started at 6pm and went to town about midnight to pub and nightclub. Would have loved to have gone too but had another night of 2-3 hourly blood testing so was better at home! Just done a bit of minor cleanup and got another night out tonight. Might need a nana nap today expecting more visitors. Will be having a few quite days and catch prior to that last dose of chemo on Thursday!

landylass (47 )    11:11 am, 4 Jun


 2156.      sonia

          you look really neat. Have a good rest today I don't know how you keep going you fit so much into a day. Love to you and yours.

boop2 (106 )    11:43 am, 4 Jun


 2157.      Hi paula

          which way do you travel to Ch Ch ?That was good finding those coupons gives you a lift. Hi Joshi it is pouring here today I hope you are tucked up warm.

boop2 (106 )    11:46 am, 4 Jun


 2158.      paula

          Hi there I live in chch too and have been following all you brave people and your children on this thread just havent posted as done really know what to say to you all youre all so brave and positive.I have a young friend battling her monster lukaemia(sp) for the second time in a year so can understand a little of whats happening. Lots of positive vibes and hugs to you all. Paula if you need anything whilst here in chch please ask if I can be of any help say so I do work during the day but can duck away in the arvos if need be. Take care all

patra (2136 )    12:03 pm, 4 Jun


 2159.      landylass hope you get some rest to re

          energise yourself, Paula what a nice find i know what you mean we went in hospital with enough stuff but came out with piles of stuff as they get given lots of goodies, my eldest is Kirsty 10, Ryan 8, Tyler 5.

bogeyi (482 )    12:19 pm, 4 Jun


 2160.   patra

          What a lovely offer. Thank you so much. I will let you know. Best wishes to you and your friend. :0)

paulaxx (75 )    1:23 pm, 4 Jun


 2161.   Boop2

          Tomorrow we will be coming up via Dunedin, Oamaru, Timaru,Temuka, Ashburton, Christchurch. It takes about 6 or so hours. Will be having a few stops for the kidlets sake so may take longer. I have told the motel we will be there afternoon. Oh and we are taking pup too so can you imagine the trip :0/ Should be interesting.

paulaxx (75 )    1:29 pm, 4 Jun


 2162.      Paula do you have a computer up there

          you can use, so you can keep us updated.

bogeyi (482 )    1:32 pm, 4 Jun


 2163.   bogeyi

          Think you are amazing handling everything you do with two other darlings as well. Love and hugs to you all

paulaxx (75 )    1:34 pm, 4 Jun


 2164.      Boop2

          Forgot to say - it is pouring here and feels very cold. So yes we are snuggly inside, fire going. thinking of you x

paulaxx (75 )    1:38 pm, 4 Jun


 2165.      paula

          all the best and do call me perhaps is there somewhere I can text my number to you?

patra (2136 )    1:39 pm, 4 Jun


 2166.      Patra

          Your very kind if you visit our Josh's website my email address is on there. Thanks so much. :0) http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/joshuar

paulaxx (75 )    1:41 pm, 4 Jun


 2167.   You are right Cancer Sux

          Diagnosed Sept 2004 with Ovarian Cancer on Wednesday went to Onocology to usual 6th month appointment Now I have secondaries. Not good but I am going to fight all the way and you must too. Yesterday two extremely nice young men from a well known church came to my door and offered to do my garden for free. It is becoming overgrown and it is one of my passions. Confirmed my faith in human nature. We must all fight and fight and fight. Best of luck. Maybe you could give me an email and we can help one another.

icarus1989 (468 )    1:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2168.   Hi everyone :o)

          Thanks, yes we had an awesome night - can't believe how the time flew - it was great! There were some awesome getups there - silly us left renting ours till the last week, so, with 300 people raiding all the dressups places before us - there was very little left! Did a big sleep-in this morning, then went and collected the girls. Girls were angels apparently but they've had very short fuses in last hour so packed off to bed. Must have been overexcited from it all. Oh well! Think I'd better lie down again now, all that dancing and late night has me feeling a bit washed out! Will catch up with the thread later. Have a great day all ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 4 Jun


 2169.      matie

          iv just joined in on your journey, take my best wishes and love and do what you will with them... xxx best of luck

rubberturkey (28 )    1:55 pm, 4 Jun


 2170.      Thanks Icarus ;o)

          THanks for posting :o) Sorry to hear you're in the wars too. My specialist told me localised secondaries are a whole other thing to metastatic (spread) so I focus on that. Hope thats where you're at too ;o) If you'd like to talk offline, see post #177 on page 4, goto website and into my diary (pink band) and go down the bottom ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:57 pm, 4 Jun


 2171.   Thanks Rubberturkey ;o)

          Thanks quite a TM name you have LOL! Wish I'd been more creative with mine - didn't realise how addictive this place would be! ;o) Thanks everyone, I just love the support I get in here! When I was getting people to take our pictures last night I was saying "I need them to show my friends on the MB" LOL! Thanks again, must really lie down now ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2172.      Sonia, your pics are gorgeous! That 70's ......

          orange really is something isnt it. Looks like a fabulous night, enjoyed by loads of fun loving people. I bet you will be tired after all that dancing and partying. You go girl!! Hope you all feel better after a wee sleep. Hugs to you all.

joystik (281 )    2:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2173.      Hows the packing going Paula.....hope you're

          getting all the right stuff in the bags. I usually get away without stuff I need and end up having to buy more when I arrive at places. It will be quite a trip up there with the puppy as well. We used to go from Oamaru to Nelson in a day no problem, but we travel a lot anyway. Hope it all goes well for you up there and Joshi gets good results. Its been lovely and sunny here during the morning and early afternoon but its packed it in a bit now I'm afraid and got a bit cooler. Love and hugs to you all...xxxxooooxxxxoooo

joystik (281 )    2:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2174.      well boys have just come back from fishing

          grandad took them down to the wharf and they bought back 2 sprats..lol

bogeyi (482 )    3:41 pm, 4 Jun


2175.   Hi Paula and bogeyi

          I've just visited Joshi's website and left a message - now I know how to contact you hee hee. Looking forward to July ;o) Now I'm just hoping that's not when my operation will be - that would be cruel! Hee hee about the sprats bogeyi ;o) Yes Paula, had a great big sleep-in thanks - we just had to see how the pics turned out before going to bed ha ha! The night out was great for Brent and I - must get out more often, whenever we can! Hope all is well in your families xxoo

soniat-d (153 )    4:25 pm, 4 Jun


 2176.      sonia glad you had a fab time

          i know what you mean nights out are very few and far between in our house first of all it was because of young kids and now with one sick randal and i dont go out alot.

bogeyi (482 )    4:29 pm, 4 Jun


 2177.   Hi Boop and Landylass :o)

          Yep, we're taking it real easy today! Sounds like you need a bit of a break too Landylass! Glad the party went well for you too! Emily's still out of sorts this afternoon, so must get back to her soon (Brent's cuddling her). Alicia from next door is over playing with Lydia, they get on so well even though Alicia is almost 4 years older than her! The two are sleeping over at Alicia's tonight - that may be opportune if somethings up with Emily :o/! Hope not... ((((((Hugs to you both))))))

soniat-d (153 )    4:31 pm, 4 Jun


 2178.   Sonia

          Firstly thank you for leaving such a lovely message in Joshi's guest book. I now have your number too so will definately be putting it in my cell phone. We also know what its like not gettin out and last Tues (Davinci Code) was the 1st time Chris and I have been out for so long. Afterwards I thought - just have to try to do that more often. Anyway love to you and your gorgeous family xoxo (p.s if your op is in July, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.) I spent ages today sitting reading your entries on your website, wiping away the odd tear, just think the world of you - your amazing!!!!

paulaxx (75 )    4:40 pm, 4 Jun


2179.   Patra

          Got your number - thanks so much. The whole family is coming this time so if I dont get in touch with you, please dont think I dont appreciate the offer, or want to - it is just going to be a very busy time. Take care Paula

paulaxx (75 )    4:42 pm, 4 Jun


 2180.      Sounds like partying was the order of the night

          last night, and everyone was out except me!! Glad you had a great time too landylass and got in to the party spirit. It is good to have a bit of a blow out once in a while and get rid of the cob webs. Not much of a day for doing very much today. I've hardly done a thing except talk on the phone and on the computer. Should really do some study, but theres tomorrow for that. Oncology appointment is tuesday, and surgeon wants to see me wednesday, so the week is filling up fast. Hugs to you landylass....

joystik (281 )    4:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2181.   Hi joystik

          Oh the packing. MMMM well I think I've got it sussed now. Its always the way, wont know till we are too far to turn back or there. Ive got so much stuff to take you'd think I was going for a year. I just had this feeling all week what if we end up having to stay. Chris would drive back with Cass and Josh and I could fly back. I just took his temp and it was up a bit and he's feeling a bit grotty? Oh well, we are going to the best place. Still yucky day here. Cold and wet. Hope you have a lovely week love and hugs to you - look after yourself.

paulaxx (75 )    4:47 pm, 4 Jun


 2182.   bogeyi

          So is it fish for tea. Just kidding. Will be thinking of you this week, hope everything goes well for you and Ryan. Take care lots a love to you guys xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    4:49 pm, 4 Jun


 2183.      Hi sonia, hope wee Emily is just out of sorts

          for a while and nt got a bug coming on. You can do without bugs right now I think. Well, actually we all can. Hope you're having a restfull day...its turned quite cold and yuk here now, so we will snuggle in for the night. Love and hugs to you all up there.

joystik (281 )    4:49 pm, 4 Jun


 2184.   Sonia

          Knowing me I will sneak on here in the morning before we hit the road, but I was just thinking I wanted to wish you well for all your appointments this week. Not sure if you have one tomorrow (stat day) or Tuesd. Then Fri isnt it? Thats apart from your treatment I mean. Anyway you will be on my mind constantly and I hope all goes well. xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    4:51 pm, 4 Jun


2185.      Paula,are you heading off early in the morning??

          I think the forecast is much better for the next few days isn't it. Just some snow for today, so hopefully it will be over with before you go tomorrow and the roads are all good. I will be thinking of you all while you are away up there. Seeyou when you get back....Hugs for your kids, ohhh.. and you too....

joystik (281 )    4:52 pm, 4 Jun


 2186.   Thanks Joystik

          Hugs right back at ya ;0) xoxo Not sure what time as those darling cows need feeding before we go

paulaxx (75 )    4:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2187.   OOOhhhh

          Joystik, what a lovely message to our Josh. Thanks it means so much xoxox (We are going to meet one day - promise)

paulaxx (75 )    5:05 pm, 4 Jun


 2188.   To the people

          who have read about us on here and left a message for Josh. Thanks so much - your kind thoughts and wishes mean more than words can say. Thank you

paulaxx (75 )    5:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2189.   I just

          noticed while I was doing the dishes its snowing. Is it at your place Joystik?

paulaxx (75 )    7:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2190.   Wow - snowing! Thats so neat :o)

          It never snows here - when I lived in Germany snow was a pain (but a big novelty for us Aucklanders LOL). Is snow a good or bad thing in Gore?! Hoping you're having a nice evening Paula. Hugs to Josh xx

soniat-d (153 )    8:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2191.   Hi Joystik :o)

          Emily is fine now thanks - box of fluffies. Think she was overtired or something, although they say she slept in! Lydia's now all settled next door - she loves sleepovers - this is only her second at a friends house - I'm thinking this is the beginning of many more!

soniat-d (153 )    8:03 pm, 4 Jun


 2192.      No Paula its not snowing here......I just went out

          side and it is the most crystal clear night with a lovely bright moon, but not really cold. Yes, I watched the weather on tv1 and commented to my husband that 'my friends' from Gore might encounter some snow tomorrow on the way to Christchurch. We officially only get snow once a year here, but haven't had a fall on the ground for 3 years now I believe. We have only been here 1 year and last winter was very mild. I love snow, but Kevin's not so keen. He drove log trucks in Cnaterbury for years and the snow was such a pain up there in the winter. You will get up there OK tomorrow but take it easy, and drive really carefully wont you. I will be thinking of you. How much is settling on the ground??

joystik (281 )    8:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2193.   Oh BTW Paula thanks for thinking of me

          with the appointments - I can't find my appointment card LOL but it must be Tuesday - 9.30ish ;o) Think it'll be fine - not feeling lumps anymore. Woohoo (touch wood!) I just realised why I looked so huge in the party pics - I was standing with my fake booby side poking out and its too big with all the gauze coverings on my burns underneath! Looked passable front-on, but not at that angle! LOL! Anyway, I digress ;o) Have a safe trip tomorrow - wishing Josh all the very very best. Big cyber (((((hugs))))) to take with you on your trip xx

soniat-d (153 )    8:14 pm, 4 Jun


 2194.      My Lauren just loves sleep overs too.....and alway

          has done since she was really small. She went on her first holiday without Mummy when she was one!! I cried - she had a ball!! Now she like to have 3 or 4 girls at a time to sleepover. I dont mind, you get that when you only have 1 child. But there are bonus's too. Are you feeling rested now too?? You looked fabulous in your Orange gear. It reminded me of a dress my Auntie in Wellington had made and sent to me for an end of year school social/dance when I was at high school. It was long,in tiers, bright orange print (quite pretty) and she sent bright orange platform shoes and huge big beads to match. It probably wouldnt have been out of place in Wellington at the time, but it certainly was in Collingwood!! Bless her though, it was very kind of her to go to all the trouble, and she did it becaise our family home had burned down and we had lost absolutely everything, only a few weeks before.

joystik (281 )    8:16 pm, 4 Jun


 2195.      Hi Joystik ;o)

          Yep nice and relaxed now - we've taken it easy today! Even the girls wanted to play quietly for a change! Yes we're thinking through how we can have sleepovers here - we were originally going to put a second bed in Lydia's room but I'm having second thoughts. May just have to put together mattress-only beds - what do you do with 4 girls over?!

soniat-d (153 )    8:31 pm, 4 Jun


 2196.   Thanks about the orange dress!

          I certainly wouldn't have chosen it if there had been an alternative LOL! But it looked pretty good - The wig was riding up in the pics, I realised shortly after and fixed it up! You'd think I'd have been onto it, being used to wigs now and all, but nooo! A lot of family commented on how much sympathy they have for me now that they had to wear a wig for one night - I thought that was quite amusing! Man, what a disaster that must have been with your house burning down back then, a house burned down up the road from us about 6 months ago and I just so felt for the family. Does that mean there are no childhood pics of you etc? Hope you're comfortable and happy this evening. Must go put Em to bed now!

soniat-d (153 )    8:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2197.      Lauren actually has a king size bed in her room

          so often 1 will sleep in a sleeping bag on her bed and the other 2 on matresses on the floor. Probably better to start off with one extra at a time, cos girls can be a bit scrappy as you may have found already!! They have such a great time though.

joystik (281 )    8:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2198.   I'd definately only do 1 at a time LOL!

          The thought of more than one scares me! Guess I'll toughen up with time LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    8:50 pm, 4 Jun


 2199.      Oh ladies be brave

          we had 8-9 here one night for a 10th birthday party. NEVER again! We had a sleep walker. Some got to sleep then she started and woke them all up again. They went to sleep at 2am and were all awake again at 4pm. Hubby got 2 hours sleep and left for Chch at 4.30am. He stopped en route and had a kip on side of the road. When I asked how he knew he would wake up and still get to his meeting on time his reply was he only snoozed for 1/2 hour, it was so cold!!!! That slumber party is still talked about. Much sooner have boys to them! They will get tired and go to sleep!

landylass (47 )    8:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2200.      No we have very few photos and things.....

          from back then, only have what other people had and have copied given back to us. Absolutely everything was lost, and sadly the stress of it was too much for Mum and her health quickly went down hill and sadly the dreaded cancer returned, and she died a couple of years after. It was just devastating for my Mum to see her whole lifes work go up in flames in a few minutes. She was always a homebody, (not like me) and just lived for her home and family. And she was only 48, which made it even more tragic.

joystik (281 )    8:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2201.      Whoops that should be

          4am!

landylass (47 )    8:55 pm, 4 Jun


 2202.      Joystik that is so sad

          comes back to what we have been saying about stressful periods in your life before cancer rears its head.

landylass (47 )    8:56 pm, 4 Jun


 2203.      On the bright side

          My husband who was now a year ago given 3 - 6 months without treatment and 6 - 12 with is still going strong and is at present almost cancer free ... positive thinking and alot of herbs alongside the radiation and chemo it al counts for something. Selenium was oneof the most valuable. Good luck all those out there fighting it... just be positive and set yourself small goals to make it to.

jonnoww (207 )    9:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2204.      Gee landylass, you are very brave to have.......

          that many girls all at once. Lauren is a kid that needs her sleep, which i kinda like, cos she only has kids to stay that are like her and will go to sleep by about 11pm at the latest. That I can cope with. In Oamaru we had down stairs so we let them sleep down there, but one decided to call up her boyfriend and hed off out the back door and meet him, which really upset Lauren. She hadn't gone far when I was alerted, and she was only 13 at the time, so I thought she was a bit young for all that stuff anyway. Girls can get quite catty in groups I have found.

joystik (281 )    9:02 pm, 4 Jun


 2205.      Thats why I prefer

          having the boys to stay. Once they get over pubity the girls seem to settle down! Miss16 got a good bunch of friends now and no cattiness now. But it was there about 10 -12 age group.

landylass (47 )    9:06 pm, 4 Jun


 2206.      Yes Landylass I quite agree...Lauren has much.....

          nicer friends now and that cattiness has long since disappeared, thank goodness. She almost has someone here every weekend, but it doesn't bother me. They keep them selves entertained and feed themselves too, so theres no extra work. And they just go for walks, sing, and watch movies, and theres no harm in any of that. Hope it stays like that for some time yet too.

joystik (281 )    9:14 pm, 4 Jun


 2207.   Wow another hundy done and dusted

          Yes its so interesting about cancer and stress. The two are definitely intertwined! To that end I saw a cd in the supermarket this evening (Electric Dreams) and saw it has heaps of oldies I still just LOVE to hear and sing along to (Title song, plus Ultravox Vienna, etc etc etc), so bought it, put both disks straight in the car. Now I have lots of lovely music to sing away to on my way to radiation each day. Can't wait to play them all... Yippee! Thats the ticket ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:15 pm, 4 Jun


 2208.      What kind of monster did your husband have

          jonnoww? Good to hear its on the retreat :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:16 pm, 4 Jun


 2209.      Hey Landylass

          What movie did you watch the other night? Which new releases would you recommend? How's the theatre going?

soniat-d (153 )    9:17 pm, 4 Jun


 2210.      Just in case Paula pops

          back in.... have sent you a email with where you can find me if you want to give kids a break tomorrow or have hassles with the weather. Hope you get past Dunedin as its snowing there. Take care.

landylass (47 )    9:20 pm, 4 Jun


 2211.      Thats great news jonnoww.......its always good

          to hear stories of people that have had success with their treatment. I am yet to start on my chemo so I have a long way to go yet, but like you we have been taking supplements, and have changed the diet in a few areas. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain by just making changes sometimes.I'm right into trying anything that may benefit my situation. Good luck to you both and hugs too.....

joystik (281 )    9:21 pm, 4 Jun


 2212.      lol Sonia

          I am always going to the ones we are pulling. Never seem to find the time to go! Half the time they have been and gone before I even realise they are here.

landylass (47 )    9:23 pm, 4 Jun


 2213.   LOL Landylass

          I thought you guys would be the first to know! Have you seen the Davinci Code yet? Everyone seems to have a different opinion on that one!?!

soniat-d (153 )    9:40 pm, 4 Jun


 2214.      Well ladies, I'm off to bed for a little more ....

          beauty sleep!! Hope you all have a restful sleep tonight and a nice day off tomorrow courtesy of the Queen. Looks like a fine day for us here. Hope theres not too much snow for Paula for travelling to CHCH. It has been snowing in Dunedin and Christchurch tonight but it could be gone quite quickly. I'll be thinking of you Paula.... Good night everyone and hugs to you all....

joystik (281 )    10:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2215.      everyone has been busy on here today

          Paula hope you have a safe trip and miss most of the snow it is along way to drive. I find that trip from Timaru to CH CH boring as the road is so straight. Good luck and all the best for Joshi.

boop2 (106 )    10:37 pm, 4 Jun


 2216.      Sonia

          so pleased you had a goodnight I hope Emily comes right they recover pretty quickly ,kids.I am a country music fan so that is all I play in my car.

boop2 (106 )    10:39 pm, 4 Jun


 2217.      paula I forgot to ask

          The country music awards are in Gore this weekend I think are you interested in them your town will be swinging this week.

boop2 (106 )    10:41 pm, 4 Jun


 2218.      Hi joystick

          that is real sad about your mum it would be heart breaking to lose everything. How are you feeling now?

boop2 (106 )    10:43 pm, 4 Jun


 2219.      landylass i think you are brave too.

          Are you feeling better now. Quite often when our boys slept over we would get a ring about 10 or 11 to come and get them because they were upset especially our oldest son. They weren't very good at it.

boop2 (106 )    10:45 pm, 4 Jun


 2220.   Hi everyone

          There is a little snow on the ground this morning. Nothing too drastic. It really is a still a novelty to me too. Our first season here was a wicked one and I think Josh had about 4 days off (not in a row) school as snow days. Very popular you can imagine. kids next door get towed around on their taboggan by their dad on the quad. Cool fun! We made snow angels in the lawn. Anyway I love that music too Sonia - hope we can have the sounds on today to help with the trip. Bogeyi I will try and find a computer cos I dont know if I can go 5 days off here lol. Thanks landylass, have got your details.We'll have to see how we got for time,Chris is still up at grazing block feeding the girls.So wont be leaving till after 10 I imagine :0\ Thanks everyone for thinking of us. The feeling is mutual. I will miss you.Joystik i like you refer to you all as my friends around the country now - nice isnt it. K better go and clean up the cats mess (rat) today of all days. Take care all of you. love and hugs from us here xoxoxo

paulaxx (75 )    8:58 am, 5 Jun


 2221.   Boop2

          I would have loved to have gone to as many nights of the Country music gold guitars, but with Josh we just couldnt risk it. Maybe next year. Bye xo

paulaxx (75 )    9:04 am, 5 Jun


 2222.   Bye Paula

          Wishing you a safe trip :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:22 am, 5 Jun


 2223.      Good morning ladies

          Have a safe trip Paula. It's very cold but clear (for now) up here (Tuahiwi,North Canterbury) this morning. There will be heaps of traffic on the roads today too, I would imagine. Keep an eye out for free coffees for drivers on the way. Always good for a break. Hope to see you while you are here. I came home from the mountains last night as the weather was closing in. Just as well too, looking at the view from my window. Have to work today. Im sure they would have been rapt if i had got snowbound up there!!

maewest (75 )    9:44 am, 5 Jun


 2224.      Joystik

          All the best for you appointment tomorrow. It brings back memories. Once your treatment is underway, it's easier somehow. You just focus on getting through it and out the other side. It's acutally worse thinking about losing your hair. Paul (my bloke) shaved mine off just before it was due to start falling out. A good decision for me as I guess I felt it was me that was in control and not the drugs!! We had fun doing it though..had all sorts of different hair styles. Always wondered what I would look like with a mohawk! Nope not a good look!! lol

maewest (75 )    9:52 am, 5 Jun


 2225.      wishing paula a safe trip

          it is cold here today and it blew so hard in the night didn't think anything would be left standing. Have a nice day everyone

boop2 (106 )    10:16 am, 5 Jun


 2226.      Hi Paula, hope you have a good safe trip to

          Christchurch and dont encounter too many stops for snow etc. Hope everyone else is keeping warm. It is actually quite a nice day here, not sizzling hot by any means but the sun is out and shining brightly, which always makes you feel much better. I dont intend to do much today either. Thanks for thinking of me maewest, I think your comments about the hair are very true. And like I keep on telling my self everyday, the sooner it starts, the sooner it will be over. Hugs to you all and have a great day.....

joystik (281 )    11:29 am, 5 Jun


 2227.      Sun is shining here today

          too. Grr was cold last night, I even went to bed with my beanie on to start with!!!! My lot are all working today so I'm away to get the knitting out.

landylass (47 )    1:27 pm, 5 Jun


 2228.   Just a quickie

          as i am on the mil puter, got my results as i was travelling down here on thursday and all is good yeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaa its fibrocystic cysts i am so relieved and was smiling silly all day while driving down here lol sorry havent had time to read all posts but will when i get home speak soon, hugs to all you lovely ladies xxx

pomegal (91 )    1:37 pm, 5 Jun


 2229.      Wow great news pomegal

          now you can really enjoy the rest of your holiday! Good one!

landylass (47 )    1:38 pm, 5 Jun


 2230.      Wow just meet joshi

          when they called in passing thru town. What a lovely fella he is and his family. Hope you get to meet up with them in Auckland Sonia and others in Chch. All the best Joshi this week... and that wonderful big smile is for real!!!!!

landylass (47 )    3:39 pm, 5 Jun


 2231.      Wow that's cool Landylass

          I'm so pleased they called in to see you. I laughed at the description of your ten pin bowling technique...can't be worse than mine!!! I was just leaving for lunch and work when work rang. Everyone there sick and I am now doing the dogwatch 10pm til 8am!! Yuck!! Still went into town for lunch. Just home and will try and get some shuteye. Fat chance of that...I'm wide awake!!

maewest (75 )    4:24 pm, 5 Jun


 2232.      Landylass

          Did Paula say what time their appointment is at the hospital? I will be in town for my mammogram and if it fits in I could call in there afterwards.Or do you know which motel they are staying at?

maewest (75 )    4:30 pm, 5 Jun


 2233.      Sorry no he has

          a couple of days assessment Tue/Wed but don't know where they are staying. They left here about 4pm. Oh I hope you get the chance to see them, they are soooo lovely and that grin of his!

landylass (47 )    7:01 pm, 5 Jun


 2234.      Never mind

          Thanks anyway Landylass. Just hope Paula gets in touch. May even try contacting the hospital..see if I can find out what time his appointments are. Where there's a will, there's a way!!

maewest (75 )    7:11 pm, 5 Jun


 2235.      Off to work now

          Hours changed yet again. Now 8pm til 6am. No sleep Hmmmm......

maewest (75 )    7:13 pm, 5 Jun


 

2236.      Maewest try contacting

          her email as in the website address at post 2116. She might be checking them daily. Thats how I got her.

landylass (47 )    7:17 pm, 5 Jun


 2237.      Gee Maewest, they are awful hours to work

          and especially if you havent been sleeping. Hope you last the night out ok in the cold. Bet its cold in CHCH tonight. Did you get any snow. Hope you get to meet Paula and Joshi tomorrow. Have a good night, I'll be thinking about you.....

joystik (281 )    9:33 pm, 5 Jun


 2238.      Pomegal..thats just the best news ever.....

          I'm so pleased for you. Happy endings are what we like to hear on here and thanks so much for yours. Hugs to you...

joystik (281 )    9:35 pm, 5 Jun


 2239.      Hi Boop and sonia...have you 2 had a busy day??

          I moved all the plants around in my lounge and gave them a trim up, so food and water, and moved the china cabinet. That was about my lot. The district nurse even came and changes the wee dressing. The sun was shining for most of the day but it is a bit chilly tonight. I should think there will be a frost to greet us in the morning. But then that should mean a lovely sunny day too. Better go to bed now. Got my big oncology appointment tomorrow, so I'll let you know what Dr Perez has to say later tomorrow night. Hugs to you all....

joystik (281 )    9:40 pm, 5 Jun


 2240.      Good luck tomorrow Joystik....

          I am sure they will give you heaps of information but make sure you get all the printouts on the different drugs and expected side effects.... and don't freak when you read them.... they don't all happen! Be thinking of you.

landylass (47 )    10:03 pm, 5 Jun


 2241.      Whoops Maewest

          Chemo brain not working... that is post 2166. I have been trying to get on his guestbook tonight but can't get in for some reason.

landylass (47 )    10:19 pm, 5 Jun


 2242.      Hi joystick

          I have had a real busy day washing drapes and curtains for this house we have just bought it is so dirty it is going to take day's to clean it. The bowling girls have offered to help me which I really appreciate because I think it will be the bowling season before I finish. It is a nice house and can be made really homely. How are you good luck for tomorrow will be thinking of you.

boop2 (106 )    10:59 pm, 5 Jun


 2243.      I can't get into Joshi's site either

          That was lovely you met them landylass they do sound like such a nice family . Hope you are feeling better.

boop2 (106 )    11:03 pm, 5 Jun


 

2244.      What good news for pomegal

          That would have been a load off your mind what are they going to do with you now?

boop2 (106 )    11:04 pm, 5 Jun


 2245.      maewest if you see Joshi

          Please give him a big hug from me and his mum too.

boop2 (106 )    11:06 pm, 5 Jun


2246.      Hugs for sonia where ever

          she is. I hope it is resting up after her busy weekend. Well night everyone stay snug and warm.

boop2 (106 )    11:09 pm, 5 Jun


 2247.      Morning ladies....hope you are all having a ......

          good day. It is lovely and sunny here so that makes all the difference to the way you feel I think. Must get the washing onto the line and do a bit of house work and then study this Sale and Purchase agreement. I should know how to do one off by heart for the amount of properety we have bought and sold in the past few years. However study would be a good thing I think. Hope all is well with you boop, sonia, landy, kelsall, bogeyi, and of course paula and josh in ChCh. And of course everyone else I have missed by name. Thinking of you all and wishing you all sunshine and sweet things today. Hugs for everyone.....

joystik (281 )    9:03 am, 6 Jun


 2248.   Hi all, sorry I've been away - busy busy busy!

          I spent a lot of yesterday gardening, repotting plants, weeding etc etc and rest of time catching up on chores, washing etc etc. Was so tired last night I just crashed in front of the TV (Not something I do often!) watching The Good Life (we just bought the DVD at the sales). Anyway.... my skin is healing up beautifully, doesn't look at all angry anymore - technicians were most surprised this morning saying WOW its healing well, so thats good :o) Downside, stupid public system... yes my appointment with Dr Benji was yesterday but because it was a public holiday it didn't happen and we all simply miss out for 2 weeks?! What a load of garbage - why'd they make an appointment on a Public Holiday in the first place, and as he's only there on Mondays we all get bumped a week or something?!? Then, on top of that, I realised that my last treatment should be this Friday (first day of strike) so end of treatment will be delayed 6 days for me to get just one more zap. Nope, not on peoples!!!! Sorry, venting :o/!!! Will

soniat-d (153 )    12:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2249.      Cont'd...

          ...Will call Breast Surgeon nurse after all today, she called to say my surgeon is on holiday, but I'm hoping shes back today. I think I'll demand that the end of treatment is dated from this Friday, for the 4 week wait till CT scan, not after the tsupid week later last blast. Thats the best I can demand really...

soniat-d (153 )    12:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2250.   Oooh Landylass

          I'm so jealous you got to meet them! Thats so great that you caught up, can't wait to see that infectious smile either, and Paula of course and the rest of her lovely family :o)

soniat-d (153 )    12:50 pm, 6 Jun


 2251.   Hi boop2

          Yep it was a busy weekend all right - resting yesterday afternoon before doing dinner, then again after putting girls to bed. We all slept in chronically this morning (8am!). Anyone who has preschoolers/5 year olds will know how impossible it is to speed them up by 3/4 of an hour in the morning!?! They just ended up in tears :o/ Of course I had an earlier-than-usual appointment this morning, can't believe I made it (just!). Phew!!! OK gotta put Emily down to bed soon ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    12:55 pm, 6 Jun


 2252.   Hi Joystik ;o)

          Good luck for your Oncology meeting today - hope it goes OK. Now you've already gone I can say that mine was a shock to me, thought my picture was a lot rosier than it was, and he certainly let me know that!? I have the same feeling going into this Fridays one, nervous as #shrugs#. As Landylass said, don't fret about the chemo, all those printouts look really scary but its really not that bad, they just have to cover themselves by putting down every possible side-effect, but only a few of all those happen really, its just that different people react to it in very different ways. For me the actual treatment was a pleasant surprise - not bad at all, actually I had fun ;o) (((((hugs))))) xx

soniat-d (153 )    1:01 pm, 6 Jun


 2253.      Wow Sonia you make me tired

          just thinking about what you got up to over the weekend! Grr fancy missing out on your very last blast because of strikes. Boy that would make me really mad. Glad to hear you are healing so well though. I got a letter from DHB on Sat too about the strikes but then there is still the junior drs threatening too. This round of strikes won't effect me unless it pushes all the appointments back. I was originally told 4 week break after chemo so won't worry me if they want to delay start to radiation for a couple of weeks. Joshsi is such a coooooool kid. The way Paula was talking she is intending to try to meet some of Auckland ones while there. I am on a mission today to get some answers re these blood sugars as last dose of chemo on Thursday and this one will be the one that will knock me and I don't want another visit to A&E! I am getting conflicting advice so on a mission for some answers but can't get hold of the people I need to talk to! And Sonia no I haven't been to da Vinci code yet!

landylass (47 )    1:04 pm, 6 Jun


 2254.      Good luck on your mission Landylass

          So frustrating when you can't get your questions answered. Yes you do need to get it sorted before Thursday. Sonia, welcome back. We all wondered where you were. What a busy time you have had. I cannot believe your appointment was made for a Public Holiday. Unbelievable. To them just a mistake, to you another stress you can be doing without. Not good enough!! Wonder how Joystik is feeling?

maewest (75 )    2:08 pm, 6 Jun


 2255.      Hi Maewest...

          hope you haven't got heaps of hours to work this week after your big stint! You should be getting out of the stress zone not back into the thick of it. Good luck tomorrow for your mammagram. Hope you manage to see Joshi.

landylass (47 )    2:30 pm, 6 Jun


 2256.   Hi ladies

          Good luck from me too Maewest ;o) Wishing you all the best :o) Hey Landylass, thats funny coming from you - you're the one who makes me feel like a slacker at times LOL! The weathers just so great here I HAVE to be outside, was doing some more gardening just now. Tomorrow I plan to get back to the painting, weather permitting ;o) OK off to collect Lydia now - I have a nice treat this afternoon, going for a facial (brother's treat) :o) Nanny's coming early. OK must go!

soniat-d (153 )    2:39 pm, 6 Jun


 2257.      Haha. I agree Sonia

          Landylass I think we would all come 2nd to you in the busy stakes!! I have a couple of days off but then on 11 days (nights)straight...someone's on leave. Oh joy. Oh well it will look good in the pay packet! I'm not complaining really tho, because I enjoy what I do. It sure helped me through the rough times.

maewest (75 )    3:12 pm, 6 Jun


 2258.   Yep, Maewest

          Distraction is the key ;o) I found it amazing during chemo how much better I felt on the nautious days if I was doing something, anything really, that took my mind off it. I did lots of painting then LOL (not the outdoors kind I'm doing now of course, rather the quiet sit-down kind ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:35 pm, 6 Jun


 2259.   i am so over this roller coaster we are riding

          feel like you get some good/ok/hopeful news then next time its turned to custard.Sonia hope you enjoyed your facial, Paula and Josh hope your appointment went ok, hello landylass,joystik,boop,twinkies,and everyone else i have forgotten.

bogeyi (482 )    4:52 pm, 6 Jun


 2260.   Hey Bogeyi

          Are you OK? You're not sounding very happy today - hope all is OK with Ryan :o) Had an awesome facial thanks - the rest of the day has been a shambles - traffic jams, I've even lost my keys (all of them!) and can't find them ANYWHERE?! Had to use spare car keys to get to appointment - guess what I'll be doing tonight! :o/!!!! Feeling very glam though, even got my eybrows (what there are of them LOL) trimmed and tinted ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    6:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2261.      im fine sonia

          just frustrated im sure you know what i am talking about.

bogeyi (482 )    6:54 pm, 6 Jun


 2262.   Yes I sure do Bogeyi

          At the party on Saturday my brother-in-law asked how I was feeling and I said "Well, I just wish I was anyone else but me these days". Sums it up really ;o) Feeling fine now, found the keys #phew#, girls are good, so all is well in the world. Will stir the couldron tomorrow, had no time to make those calls today. Hope you're all having a nice evening :o)

soniat-d (153 )    7:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2263.      Hi Joystik ;o)

          Hope all went OK today - thinking of you xxx

soniat-d (153 )    7:51 pm, 6 Jun


 2264.      Hi sonia,landylass, boop, meawest, and everyone...

          well I had the meeting with Dr Perez the Oncologist from Dunedin today. After a long wait in the waiting room we finally got in there. He explained why I should have Chemo, because I had a high grade Tumor, and because I had 10 of 16 lymph nodes involved. He said that Chemo is no guarantee, but could improve my rate of cure by 65% or a little more, but that it was up to me if I had it or not! Of course I am going to, I need all the help I can get to beat this thing.

joystik (281 )    8:24 pm, 6 Jun


 2265.      OK so thats the same odds I was given with

          standard chemo Joystik (ie first time around with only 1 large lump and 1 or 3 nodes affected). I reckon that stuff worked for me - otherwise I'd be riddled with cancer, not just local recurrance as it is. Hope that helps? Did he mention other pay chemo options above that? I'm guessing not?

soniat-d (153 )    8:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2266.      Wow that anyone would even

          think you might consider not having it!!!! Stay positive Joystik and treat chemo as your friend that is going to help you beat the monster. I have to get off here and might be gone for a few days. Got a virus and got to pull the plug until we get it sorted. Just clicked over to a new months account today and used a whole months broadband in less than one day! {{{{big hugs]]]]]

landylass (47 )    8:54 pm, 6 Jun


 2267.      Wow, you guys are amazing..

          I don't know anyone that is untouched by this monster whether it is experiencing it or witnessing a battle. Reading your posts has brought tears to my eyes. It is so wonderful to read your fantastic support for each other. Stay strong and wishing you all the best ***Hugs to you all***

teejay54 (53 )    9:08 pm, 6 Jun


 2268.      So I will be starting my Chemo next Thursday....

          It is FEC, I will be having 6 treatments at 3 week intervals, that is assuming all is ok with bloods etc, so much what you have all had I guess. He told me that the most distressing thing about the chemo is the hair loss, but it does grow back. I got a prescription for 5 different anti nausea drugs, so i'm ready to go. I wont have my port in when I start but should by the second treatment.

joystik (281 )    9:26 pm, 6 Jun


 2269.      After that I have to go to Dunedin for 3 weeks....

          for radiotherapy, and the probably hormone therapy for 5 years. So there is a bit too do yet, but all this treatment is going to be my friend at the end of the day. I can beat this and I WILL!!!!

joystik (281 )    9:36 pm, 6 Jun


 2270.      hi joystik......just wanted to say goodluck

          Ryan found that the hardest part when i had to shave it short (hes always loved his hair would spike it)as it was starting to fall out he thought i was shaving it all off he was crying, even the nurse had to walk out as she couldnt bear him crying.He wouldnt look in the mirror kept saying im ugly, took a few days before he came to like his bald look, i loved it really suited him bought out his gorgeous eyes.

bogeyi (482 )    9:36 pm, 6 Jun


 2271.      Thanks bogeyi, for that. Its just all a bit.....

          daunting all at once, getting all the information, and you have to lose you hair too??? Its almost like adding insult to injury. But hey, there are worse things in life. Hugs to you and Ryan too...

joystik (281 )    9:50 pm, 6 Jun


 2272.      joystick you have along journey ahead of you

          so for the next 5years I will have to report in here daily to follow your progress. Just to hear mthe other girls talking about it must help heaps. Hugs to you. We had another lovely day in the Buller.

boop2 (106 )    9:52 pm, 6 Jun


 2273.      Ohhh..... how could I have forgotten to give you

          the best part of the information??? The CT scan I had last wednesday, was totally CLEAR. So that was the good news of the day, and I just about jumped up and kissed the poor man when he told me, I was so relieved. That is one less thing to worry about. Oh well, I'm off to bed now, so I will see you again tomorrow. Hope you are all warm and cosy like we are here. Good night everyone, hugs to you all....xxxxxxxx

joystik (281 )    9:53 pm, 6 Jun


 2274.      Lost my Mum to cancer 20 july 2004........

          big gap in my life that will never be filled sadly....

mjrh (83 )    9:56 pm, 6 Jun


 2275.      sonia I still think you are amazing with

          everything you do. Is Emily okay now?That would be terrible if you had to wait another week for the final treatment. Just doesn't seem fair. Glad everything is healing well that is one plus. Hugs to you.I am just so proud of you and your attitude I don't know you but I sure as hell would like too.

boop2 (106 )    9:57 pm, 6 Jun


 2276.      would like to share this with you all

          GOD MAKES VERY FEW PERFECT HEADS, THE REST HE PUTS HAIR ON..... this is a crosstitch that hangs on a wall in our ward.

bogeyi (482 )    10:00 pm, 6 Jun


2277.      Hi landylass,maewest, bogeyi and Ryan

          Hi ryan I hope you are doing okay waiting for your mum to put some more photo's on of you.Love to all you other ladies. Good for you landylass I hope your blood sugar settles down does it make you tired ?

boop2 (106 )    10:01 pm, 6 Jun


 2278.      Ah well Joystik

          FEC is different to what I had (I had AC) so thats cool ;o) Sooo glad about the CT results - woohoo! Doesn't it feel great to know there's no visible cancer ANYWHERE inside you?! I loved that! Looking forward to hopefully seeing that again soon ;o) Glad you can use hormone therapy too - the more weapons you have the better ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:22 pm, 6 Jun


 2279.   Awww Boop2 #smootches# :o)

          Thanks! me too! Emily is fine and dandy thanks! It finally dawned on me tonight to dig up the warm teddies (hotties inside) for the girls to go to bed with, wow what a difference for Emily - out like a light. Awww poor wee mite, its a warm house but shes a skinny thing - think I'll pop up and check she's still all snuggled in. Man I love that wee dot :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:28 pm, 6 Jun


 2280.   Love them both of course ;o)

          Sooo much :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:30 pm, 6 Jun


 2281.   Hi Teejay

          Thanks very much for your lovely post. What a sweetie :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2282.   Good Morning All

          on this beautiful crisp morning. Wishing all a fantastic day & sending strength to all that need it. Thinking of you all constantly!

cole2 (360 )    8:18 am, 7 Jun


 2283.      Good morning everyone

          Beautiful crisp morning here too. Joystik so pleased the CT Scan was all clear. Seems they treat everyone differently with chemo. I was on the CAF recipe. Did they give you a voucher to go and sort out a wig? I had a couple of fun days doing that. Take a friend with you to help make the decision.My friend took photos of me with different wigs on. That was fun. I didn't wear mine that much, but it was great when you went out wanting to look 'normal'.

maewest (75 )    9:34 am, 7 Jun


 2284.      good morning all

          just got back from greenlane hospital with kirsty seems if its not one kid its the other.

bogeyi (482 )    9:39 am, 7 Jun


 2285.      Bogeyi I love the

          quote you posted earlier...how true. Hope you are feeling better today. Tomorrow I am going for lunch with my new friend who is going throught the same. Also 2 others joining us who I have not met before. One of them has ovarian cancer and has not been given any hope by the medical profession and the other has just found out she has to have a mastectomy next week. Hope I can handle it.'My mammogram this afternon. Will be glad when that is over...it is going to HURT!!!Lol. Have a lovely day everyone.

maewest (75 )    9:42 am, 7 Jun


 2286.      thanks maewest

          have a lovely lunch....

bogeyi (482 )    9:45 am, 7 Jun


 2287.      Oh Bogeyi

          You poor wee sausage. It's not fair. What is wrong with Kirsty? Wouldn't it be great if we could all meet up for a coffee to vent our frustrations? Nothing like a good vent to make you feel better.

maewest (75 )    9:46 am, 7 Jun


 2288.      mmmmmmmmmm coffee

          she needed to go to the dental department she is a doctors nightmare she is so frightened of docs,dentist,anything medical she gets hysterical so they refer her there so they can give her some happy gas to relax her, have no idea where this has come from as she has never been hurt (other than a filling hurt) wonder if it comes from all the treatment ryan has had???????if you say needle she almost crumbles.

bogeyi (482 )    9:54 am, 7 Jun


 2289.      hope she is alright now bogeyi

          enough is enough. Hi sonia glad about emily. Great news for joystick I bet that was a load off your mind.Hi maewest enjoy lunch . Have a nice day everyone

boop2 (106 )    9:55 am, 7 Jun


 2290.      My younger son was like that

          bogeyi. Fortunately he has grown out of it (he's 21 now). Just what you need on top of everything else. The laughing gas does the trick though. How is it on the Coast boop2? Must get back over there one day. One of my favourite places in the country.

maewest (75 )    10:05 am, 7 Jun


 2291.      Hi ladies, having a busy morning catching up on

          stuff around here. Thanks for all your continued support. Thanks bogeyi for the quotation atbou the heads and hair...too true. Have to take the cat to the vet when I can find him. He has an abcess on his ear. I noticed it a couple of days ago and put iodine on it but it needs more than that now. I phoned the vet to book him in and he heard me on the phone and disappeared!! Usual story...I should have been spelling instead of talking. Hope you allhave a great day. Thats a bummer about the radiotherapy sonia. Strikes ae...who needs them. Enjoy your lunch out maewest, thats always fun. Off to look at wigs on friday I think, so that should be fun. Think I will probably stay much the same as I look now.Hi Boop, have you a nice day at Hector?? Its warm as here but cloudy now.

joystik (281 )    11:13 am, 7 Jun


2292.      Hi everyone

          I haven't had a chance to read the whole thread but I am so inspired by your stories. I have been diagnosed with bladder cancer will be going into hosp in a couple of weeks to have it removed. The outlook is good for me and after a dose of chemo I should be fine. I take my hat off to all you brave people who are going through a very hard time and able to stay positive through this.

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mattymouse1 (6 )    11:43 am, 7 Jun


2294.      thanks

          for that mattymouse, yes bladder cancer does have a high success rate which is why I feel lucky compared to what other people on here have suffered. The doc told me I had one in a million chance of getting this type of cancer as I have no risk factors ie I am reasonably young at 38, I am female and I don't smoke. Why can't I be the one in a million who wins lotto! lol. How was your Mum after surgery? did she get up and about fairly quickly?

fantail501 (116 )    11:49 am, 7 Jun


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mattymouse1 (6 )    12:06 pm, 7 Jun


 2296.      it must

          be very hard for you being so far away, they do regular cycostopys (sp) to check it hasn't grown back so I'm sure she'll be well monitered. Hopefully the chemo will get at what they couldn't remove.

fantail501 (116 )    12:25 pm, 7 Jun


 2297.      Hi Fantail (and Mattymouse!)

          Sorry to hear about the bladder cancer - yep we drew the short odds (I'm the same - fit no risk factors whatsoever - go figure!). Glad your outcome expectations are so good - I've decided I don't want to know mine now! I'll be telling my oncologist that in no uncertain terms before he blurts it out! LOL ;o) Wishing you all the best. Must go make those phonecalls now!

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 7 Jun


 2298.      A big, big hug for sonia

          Lovely day here joystick I am so busy don't get time to be out in it.Hi Fantail and mattymouse life can be damn cruel can't it? I haven't cancer but have had other heartaches that test your faith at times. Wonder how paula and joshi are? My Josh(grandson) IS 20 tomorrow, alovely lad 8-6-86 good date.

boop2 (106 )    2:45 pm, 7 Jun


 2299.      big hugs to all

          and thanks to all for your great support in my hours of need, it was really funny as i set off to napier at 9am on thursday and at about 12pm i got a ph call from the mr, i had asked him to phone if results came so when i saw his number come up i got very nervous (which isnt good while you are driving lol) so he told me exactly as the letter said that it was fibrocystic cysts and that it wasnt serious, thats what the letter said (it was from my doc) well from then on all the way there i had this stupid grin on my face everyone must of thought i was nutty but i wanted to wave to the world and let them all know about it, i hope all you brave ladies get good news about whatever it is you need, and hugs to you all, you have been a tower of strenghth when i needed it, hugs hugs and more hugs

pomegal (91 )    3:05 pm, 7 Jun


 2100.         Good evening all

          Just popped in to catch up. Sonia, you really are being 'put through the mill'. You are one amazing lady.Have a great night tomorrow. So pleased you have got back to your own bed Landylass. The chemo almost over for you. Relief!! Paula & Joshi, Bogeyi & Ryan, Twinkie & Briyanna...my thoughts are with you all. Paula I live just north of Chch but work in the city. I work not far from the hospital. If you would like me to call in to see you for support or whatever, my email is steampig at the xtra place. Would love to hear from you. Joystik, so glad things are on the up for you. Hugs to you all (and those I have missed).

maewest (75 )    9:46 pm, 2 Jun


2101.      Maewest

          What a lovely thought. Thanks so much. We are really hoping the visit to the hospital will be brief this time, a quick i.v push of the chemo and bloods etc. But if anything goes pear shaped I will take your details. Thanks it means a lot

paulaxx (75 )    9:59 pm, 2 Jun


 2102.      Sonia

          Just occured to me that whilst yours was watching Medium, I was doing bits whilst mine was watching Ghost. LOL.

paulaxx (75 )    10:00 pm, 2 Jun


 2103.         Maewest

          have you been pulling big hours again?

landylass (47 )    10:05 pm, 2 Jun


 2104.      Ok...

          Think Chris is sick of waiting to use this hes playing x box now behind me so I'm going to sneak off to bed.Nanite everyone. Thanks for being there xx

paulaxx (75 )    10:13 pm, 2 Jun


 2105.         Hi sonia

          I just hope you have a real good night tomorrow you deserve some relief.I wish I was near to help you.hugs to wee emily tonight as well.Hi paula and joshi, tell joshi I am proud of him too he done well.That was a lucky escape landylass nothing like your own bed. Hi joystick are you busy selling houses? I wished my husband happy birthday this morning gave him his present cooked him what he likes for tea and then while I was reading the tv guide realised I was a day too soon! I won't be doing it again tomorrow that's for sure.He thought it was a great joke. (senior moment's)

boop2 (106 )    11:03 pm, 2 Jun


 2106.         Hee hee Nitey night Paula ;o)

          I've been busy trying on the dress and working out how to accessorise it ;o) Have to say its pretty tragic LOL - will have to do a fantastic makeup job or piccies may not be released for public viewing LOL. Glad I got my lovely brown boots - they make it, And my new brownish faux fur 1/2 length coat looks fabulous over the loan dress - may wear that all night LOL. Had to pop out to emergency chemist tonight for some meths stuff for my ears - new earrings have made them angry - sure hope it fixes b4 tomorrow night?! Mind you with this wig Brent chose for me ( :o/!) may not need them LOL (very thick longer than shoulder length number with terribly thick fringe!). Yikes - what WAS he thinking insisting I take that one?! LOL

soniat-d (153 )    11:09 pm, 2 Jun


 2107.      Hee hee Boop2

          Thanks for that ;o) Yep it'll be a super party - birthday boy is a work HARD play HARD guy, lots of fun and knows how to throw a party. Excellent! Its almost here ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:12 pm, 2 Jun


 2108.      Thanks Maewest

          Yep its been a ride alright. Not to worry, skin GREAT now - only a small area still to heal now (maybe 1.5cm square, which is nothing!) :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:14 pm, 2 Jun


 2109.         sonia hope you have a great time

          not long been home have been at my nieces 16th birthday party.

bogeyi (482 )    11:17 pm, 2 Jun


 2110.      Oh Paula - the curtains!

          Not sure what I think of them, they weren't my preference but Brent thought he knew better - now he's saying "hmmmm, maybe you were right!" Too late now buddy! Nice finally having curtains back in here though, we'll get used to them. They're nice, but just a bit busy and dark for my taste - I wanted a bit more colour, and smaller pattern... Oh well, hopefully this means I get to win whichever next point of difference we come upon (pretty rare for us usually ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:18 pm, 2 Jun


 2111.      Hope you had fun Bogeyi ;o)

          Well, I'm beat! Off to beddy byes for me, done too much today, and nothing much to show for it now LOL Guess thats what kids are all about... gotta love 'em ;o) Nite all.

soniat-d (153 )    11:21 pm, 2 Jun


 2112.         Beating Cancer By Accessing Your Own Immune System

          A few years ago I came across a method to get control of your own immune system by using a kinesiology technique called "Finger Testing" and making a simple statement either in your mind or audibly. The site has had about 30,000 "cures" so far since June 2004. The link below will take you to the site so you can decide for yourselves whether it is worth the couple minutes it takes to learn the method. http://www.immunics.org/00open/contents/the_cure_show.htm#C I sincerely hope this helps some of you. It also eliminates flu and common cold. Best regards, John

mystx (3 )    12:07 am, 3 Jun


 2113.         Hello.

          Just had a quick read through, you all sound so busy! Briyanna has had a busy few days. Tonight she's tube free though! Yay! She had a full bone scan earlier today. She's come out clear, so that's one less thinking worrying me. She'll be staying in the surgical ward over the weekend and on to oncology early Monday morning. thanks for the entries into the guest book, feels good to know we're though of :o)

twinkies_pn (0)    12:42 am, 3 Jun


 2114.         Hi Sonia

          Thanks for your wishes. By the way, I'm 60 with no children, and no hubby, so feel so sorry for you at your young age - at least (if it's any consolation) you have a lot to fight for so you go for it girl! Havn't heard anything about caravan yet, my friend (Bob) and I have both put adverts in local papers and Bob has posters out for it in Rotorua too, so here's hoping. LOL

cburton1 (60 )    1:11 am, 3 Jun


 2115.         Sonia and Landylass

          Hopefully you'll not have to have anymore nodes removed, I did'nt cause they were removed with lumpectomy op but apparently we have lots of them and they have got all the monster this time too. My monster was ductal (in milk ducts) but I believe there's different sorts of the monster.

cburton1 (60 )    2:22 am, 3 Jun


 2116.      Hi cburton

          Mine was ductal too, but had spread to either 1 or 3 nodes (depending one which specialist reads the results?!). This time though most lumps are in remaining nodes, so... node removal looks highly likely. Personally, at this stage, I don't care what they do as long as it stops the monster dead in its tracks - they can chop out part of my ribcage if they want to! Its funny how different my mentality is about it all now - when first lump found, all I was concerned about was losing my boob, I thought that was a disaster! Guess I'm just climbing up the ladder of acceptance LOL Yes I have a lot to fight for, so on with the boxing gloves and off I go ;o) Good luck to you too with everything :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:47 am, 3 Jun


 2117.         Hi Twinkies

          Glad to hear some good news from you, thats great :o) Hoping for fantastic news in the near future ;o) (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    8:48 am, 3 Jun


 2118.      Thanks John

          Sounds interesting!? Will have a squiz later, off to sort the girls, thanks for posting :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:51 am, 3 Jun


 2119.         morning sonia,paula,landylass,joystik,twinkies

          boop, and anyone else i have missed.Twinkies great to hear shes doing well, do you have alot of support i know you said you moved back here and your mum is here(i think) but do you have extended family for support as well. Sonia have a blast tonight wont you.Might shoot up to algies bay today and spend the night with my parents kids been hounding me to take them up there. Rain has started here this morning. Paula how are you and josh today.

bogeyi (482 )    8:55 am, 3 Jun


 2120.         morning everyone

          Its another ripper of a frost, at present its -1. Brrr. At least its sunny. A good day for taking the cows off the farm. We walk them up the road. My job is too alert traffic and slow them down. Have a fantastic day everyone. SONIA - I will be thinking of you today with your big night. Hope you get it sorted and feel absolutely gorgeous with the end result! (Your comments about the wig etc had me raofl) xx Have a great day BOGEYI - Hi, we are all good thanks. Sleep is a great thing. how was your day yesterday with all 3 home??How are your and Ryan today? If you do go to the bay have a fantastic time. Take care

paulaxx (75 )    9:28 am, 3 Jun


 2121.      Twinies

          Glad to hear things are as going as well as can be at the moment. You are never far from our thoughts.

paulaxx (75 )    9:29 am, 3 Jun


 2122.      Boop2 - Birthdays...

          That is funny.My Step mother did that for my father once for his 50th had a huge party the works such a drama, then surprise - dad had to tell her it was next year! Thanks for your kind words for Joshi, he was stoked. have a great one

paulaxx (75 )    9:32 am, 3 Jun


 2123.      Be positive

          My mum had her problems and had a breast removed way back in 1977,but she was okay for another 19yrs.So be positive it is a very very horrible thing and only people that have been close to this will no what it is like.Goodluck.

pizzamike (2398 )    9:46 am, 3 Jun


 2124.         morning

          well the big day sonia it sounds exciting go to it. Hi paula and joshi have fun with the cows. Twinkie glad briyanna is doing okay. Hugs to bogeyi and ryan anymore photo's? Hi landylass how are you today ? I am going to take a walk everyday like you joystick getting too heavy need to do something.

boop2 (106 )    9:59 am, 3 Jun


 2125.         Hi all

          Done all the shopping - horray for Queens Birthday specials! Am pretty happy with my getup now ;o) Fingers crossed I can pull it off LOL Beautiful day here, Emily's being returned soon so will go put her down, get things sorted, and probably have a lie-down so I can go out tonight with all cylinders firing ;o) Hope you're all having a nice Saturday everyone :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:00 pm, 3 Jun


 2126.      Just found out there's going to be 300 people

          at this party!!! This cousin of Brents certainly doesn't do things by halves! OMG!!! Enjoy the rest of your day all ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:01 pm, 3 Jun


 2127.      Hi Sonia

          I do miss the shops in Auckland - look out when I come up in July. Glad you've sussed your outfit. Its a grotty day here now, drizzling and its got up to @4 degrees. Off to shift next lot of cows. Enjoy your lie down Sonia, I hope you have a fantastic time tonight if I miss you later. Will be thinking about you tonight groovin the night away. xx

paulaxx (75 )    2:02 pm, 3 Jun


 2128.         Racing again

          I'm just in from work. Yes Landylass, still doing the hours. Trying to cut them back..it works sometimes, but not often. Have taken tomorrow off. Packing in a mo and heading into the mountains for the night (or two). Paula my cell is 0274372908 if you want to contact me when you are here. Have a great weekend everyone. Sonia, I'm sure you will look just great. Have fun. XX

maewest (75 )    3:48 pm, 3 Jun


 2129.      Thanks maewest

          Have noted your cell number. Thanks so much. hope you have a great weekend.

paulaxx (75 )    4:10 pm, 3 Jun


 2130.      I have just joined us up

          to Caringbridge too. Here is Joshis website and on there you will be able to get my email address etc for future arrangements - like coming to Auckland. Thinking of you all with loads a love xxx http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/joshuar

paulaxx (75 )    4:13 pm, 3 Jun


 2131.      Sonia

          Not long now. YAY. Have a great night x

paulaxx (75 )    4:13 pm, 3 Jun


 2132.         hey sonia have a great time dont forget to

          show us pics when you can, Paula just signed his guestbook I was first yahooooooooooooooooooo.

bogeyi (482 )    4:28 pm, 3 Jun


 2133.      bogeyi

          I was just here saying Yahooooooooo toooooo xxxxxx

paulaxx (75 )    4:36 pm, 3 Jun


 2134.         no worries paula.....he will be the talk of the

          town when he asks to check his website and then people are gobsmacked that he has his own site, by the way you would be looked upon as crazy if you asked for me by that name, will explain when we meet call me Janine sounds better.

bogeyi (482 )    4:41 pm, 3 Jun


 2135.      bog whoops Janine

          LOL. Look forward to it ;O)

paulaxx (75 )    4:47 pm, 3 Jun


 2136.         Hi ladies, sounds like everyone is happy here....

          I missed you all and just haven't really been here at all. Had my friend from Nelson made a special trip down to see me. She and her new partner arrived last nite and it was so ,lovely to see her again, and especially to see her so happy with the new man in her life. We hadn't met him before either, and he seems lovely. She stayed in Riverton the night and arrived back this morning and we spent the day together here just catching up.. It was quite cold and cloudy until about 2pm and then it cleared away and was beautiful and sunny, but is cloudy again now. I think rain is on its way for tomorrow. Hope you got all your cows moved Paula. I had a look at Josh's new site and its lovely. I will have to go back there cos I couldn't leave a message for whatever reason. Hugs to you guys....keep warm wont you.

joystik (281 )    5:05 pm, 3 Jun


 2137.         Hi Sonia...sounds like a big night for you....

          hope you have a really great time. Gee 300 is a lot of people aye..should be a good night for all. Hope you are going to post a pic in your party outfits tomorrow so we can all see. Hugs to you all up there..

joystik (281 )    5:08 pm, 3 Jun


 2138.         Hi Boop....how far did you walk?? Was it nice and

          sunny there today too? I try to go every day for at least 2 km, or more if the day is nice..Its really nice to get out in the fresh air, and I walk like I mean it too so it doesn't take me long to cover 2km!! Have Sherri and Ray arrived over there at the bach this weekend?? She was getting rather bored with CHCH and its weather.. Hugs to you Boop2. ....

joystik (281 )    5:10 pm, 3 Jun


 2139.         Hi bogeyi and Ryan...hope the rain has stopped

          for your trip to the beach. We used to live at the beach at Charteris Bay on Banks Penensula, and it was great there. My Lauren is a bit of a beachcomber still actually, and will spend hours wandering along gathering things up to bring home. When she was much younger it was crabs and live things, now thankfully she goes more for shells and pretty things!! I've been thinking about you guys and sending you hugs......

joystik (281 )    5:19 pm, 3 Jun


2140.      Joystik

          Lovely to hear from you. Glad you had some nice time with your friends. Yes thanks got the cows moved. Dear old girls cruising up the road. Hope you have a nice night - it is really cold here at the mo. Lots a love and hugs

paulaxx (75 )    5:24 pm, 3 Jun


 2141.         hi joystik......boys had a great time

          found some crabs but it was really cold, wind was whipping into the beach so grandad didnt keep them out to long as we dont want ryan getting sick.

bogeyi (482 )    5:34 pm, 3 Jun


 2142.         Hello maewest, good to see you again...

          havent been on here so much for a few days. Got busy once I got out of hospital, and then had visitors last night and all day today. I see you are busy working. Dont over do it will you. Leave some for the next fella. Is it a nice night in CHCH?? It is as clear as out here tonight, but the forecast for tomorrow is for rain and snow to 400m, and for you too I think. Keep well and warm wont you.

joystik (281 )    10:05 pm, 3 Jun


 2143.         Landylass, you will be pleased to escape the

          night in the hospital. You dont get any sleep in there do you. I was in and out of bed all night wandering about, not able to sleep, and helping the other patients in the room!! So, I was pleased to get back in my own bed and off that sweaty plastic mattress! Hope your home is bug free again and your ankle is feeling much better. Is it Chemo for you this week? Did you have 6 months worth?? Does it go quite quickly? I will now after tuesday what my treatment will involve. Hugs to you too....

joystik (281 )    10:09 pm, 3 Jun


 2144.         Hi joystick

          no, they haven't come but friends of their's arrived last night. I haven't been for a walk yet I did think about it and I will. You would love our beach out here it is really quite ruggeg I love it. Malc goes over everyday and looks at the sea to see if he can fish or not he has caught quite a few cod this week and they were lovely.We are only 150 met. from the sea here.

boop2 (106 )    10:17 pm, 3 Jun


 2145.         Hi twinkies, I 'm pleased to see wee Briyanna

          is doing so well. Little people seem to bouce back from operations and things so quickly dont they. Pleased you got some clear results back too. Waiting for stuff like that is just awful, I know. I think about you and your family often now that you have posted on here and send you big hugs too.

joystik (281 )    10:18 pm, 3 Jun


 2146.         hi paula and joshi

          I will go and see your site soon I couldn't get on twinkies the other night. Do you have to fill all that data in?

boop2 (106 )    10:18 pm, 3 Jun


 2147.         I did it

          I couldn't get it to accept my phone no. so I just left it off and it worked. Lovely photo's and your wee daughter is so cute without her teeth.

boop2 (106 )    10:49 pm, 3 Jun


 2148.      Hi all

          Had a fab time thanks all! Here are some piccies :o) Me and Brent... http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party1.jpg Our family with birthday boy (left) and his brother (right) in front... http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party2.jpg Band and dance floor action http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party3.jpg Cool dancing lights http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0607July/Party4.jpg Great night - had Ewan Gilmour the comedian do a great act - he knows the birthday boy ;o) great live band, wine, food... Only got home half an hour ago - now off to bed. Girls are at nanny's house for the night, so we can sleep in ;o) Nite all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:02 am, 4 Jun


 2149.         omg you to rock love the outfits sonia

          looks like a great party, some awesome costumes in that big picture.

bogeyi (482 )    8:51 am, 4 Jun


 2150.      Sonia

          I hope while I write this you are still in the land of nod. The photos look amazing!!! You look gorgeous! OOOHHHH those boots. YUM! So glad you look like your having the best time! Joshi met Ewan Gilmour at hospital in March, so thats cool. Anyway thanks for sharing and hope you have a nice restful day. Lots a love to you xxx

paulaxx (75 )    8:51 am, 4 Jun


2151.      boop2

          Thanks for your lovely entry in our guest book. And also for your kind words. Hope you are ok and having a great day. We will pack lots a warm clothes - thanks.

paulaxx (75 )    8:56 am, 4 Jun


 2152.   bogeyi

          on here should I stick to your alias??? LOL. Hope you are having a nice time up there. Did the kids find any crabs? Are they eadible or just for the thrill of the search? Have a good one. Gotta pack for the week soon - yuk!

paulaxx (75 )    8:58 am, 4 Jun


 2153.      morning paula

          not for eating just for the fun beach is 2mins walk down the road and the love looking under the rocks for the biggest crab, not my favourite past time but hey as a mother you do these things.lol.How are you and your family today.

bogeyi (482 )    9:00 am, 4 Jun


 2154.   Bogeyi

          Hi. we are ok thanks. Chris has gone off to feed the cows so I am packing and sorting for the week in Christchurch. Everytime I walk into a room I think about 6 things at once and walk out again. Last time I had to pack for Chch was when Josh was 1st diagnosed. Its a weird feeling. BUT got a bag to use for 1 of the kids and found $100 petrol vouchers and $100 pak n save vouchers from Oct from CCF. They had slipped under the bottom part of the bag and I forgot about them when unpacking when we got home. YAY! What a bonus. Hope you are good and Ryan too. Do you have 3 boys?? Cant remember if you said before. Hope the others are good too!!!

paulaxx (75 )    10:44 am, 4 Jun


 2155.      Great news Twinkie...

          will be a big relief to you. Great night had by all Sonia! Does you good to have a blow out occassionally! You looked wow! We had a good night with the hen party too. Bridesmaid had all the food done and came out and decorated the place. I didn't get to bed until 1.30am either but hey does you good! They started at 6pm and went to town about midnight to pub and nightclub. Would have loved to have gone too but had another night of 2-3 hourly blood testing so was better at home! Just done a bit of minor cleanup and got another night out tonight. Might need a nana nap today expecting more visitors. Will be having a few quite days and catch prior to that last dose of chemo on Thursday!

landylass (47 )    11:11 am, 4 Jun


 2156.      sonia

          you look really neat. Have a good rest today I don't know how you keep going you fit so much into a day. Love to you and yours.

boop2 (106 )    11:43 am, 4 Jun


 2157.      Hi paula

          which way do you travel to Ch Ch ?That was good finding those coupons gives you a lift. Hi Joshi it is pouring here today I hope you are tucked up warm.

boop2 (106 )    11:46 am, 4 Jun


 2158.      paula

          Hi there I live in chch too and have been following all you brave people and your children on this thread just havent posted as done really know what to say to you all youre all so brave and positive.I have a young friend battling her monster lukaemia(sp) for the second time in a year so can understand a little of whats happening. Lots of positive vibes and hugs to you all. Paula if you need anything whilst here in chch please ask if I can be of any help say so I do work during the day but can duck away in the arvos if need be. Take care all

patra (2136 )    12:03 pm, 4 Jun


 2159.      landylass hope you get some rest to re

          energise yourself, Paula what a nice find i know what you mean we went in hospital with enough stuff but came out with piles of stuff as they get given lots of goodies, my eldest is Kirsty 10, Ryan 8, Tyler 5.

bogeyi (482 )    12:19 pm, 4 Jun


 2160.   patra

          What a lovely offer. Thank you so much. I will let you know. Best wishes to you and your friend. :0)

paulaxx (75 )    1:23 pm, 4 Jun


 2161.   Boop2

          Tomorrow we will be coming up via Dunedin, Oamaru, Timaru,Temuka, Ashburton, Christchurch. It takes about 6 or so hours. Will be having a few stops for the kidlets sake so may take longer. I have told the motel we will be there afternoon. Oh and we are taking pup too so can you imagine the trip :0/ Should be interesting.

paulaxx (75 )    1:29 pm, 4 Jun


 2162.      Paula do you have a computer up there

          you can use, so you can keep us updated.

bogeyi (482 )    1:32 pm, 4 Jun


 2163.   bogeyi

          Think you are amazing handling everything you do with two other darlings as well. Love and hugs to you all

paulaxx (75 )    1:34 pm, 4 Jun


 2164.      Boop2

          Forgot to say - it is pouring here and feels very cold. So yes we are snuggly inside, fire going. thinking of you x

paulaxx (75 )    1:38 pm, 4 Jun


 2165.      paula

          all the best and do call me perhaps is there somewhere I can text my number to you?

patra (2136 )    1:39 pm, 4 Jun


 2166.      Patra

          Your very kind if you visit our Josh's website my email address is on there. Thanks so much. :0) http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/joshuar

paulaxx (75 )    1:41 pm, 4 Jun


 2167.   You are right Cancer Sux

          Diagnosed Sept 2004 with Ovarian Cancer on Wednesday went to Onocology to usual 6th month appointment Now I have secondaries. Not good but I am going to fight all the way and you must too. Yesterday two extremely nice young men from a well known church came to my door and offered to do my garden for free. It is becoming overgrown and it is one of my passions. Confirmed my faith in human nature. We must all fight and fight and fight. Best of luck. Maybe you could give me an email and we can help one another.

icarus1989 (468 )    1:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2168.   Hi everyone :o)

          Thanks, yes we had an awesome night - can't believe how the time flew - it was great! There were some awesome getups there - silly us left renting ours till the last week, so, with 300 people raiding all the dressups places before us - there was very little left! Did a big sleep-in this morning, then went and collected the girls. Girls were angels apparently but they've had very short fuses in last hour so packed off to bed. Must have been overexcited from it all. Oh well! Think I'd better lie down again now, all that dancing and late night has me feeling a bit washed out! Will catch up with the thread later. Have a great day all ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 4 Jun


 2169.      matie

          iv just joined in on your journey, take my best wishes and love and do what you will with them... xxx best of luck

rubberturkey (28 )    1:55 pm, 4 Jun


 2170.      Thanks Icarus ;o)

          THanks for posting :o) Sorry to hear you're in the wars too. My specialist told me localised secondaries are a whole other thing to metastatic (spread) so I focus on that. Hope thats where you're at too ;o) If you'd like to talk offline, see post #177 on page 4, goto website and into my diary (pink band) and go down the bottom ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:57 pm, 4 Jun


 2171.   Thanks Rubberturkey ;o)

          Thanks quite a TM name you have LOL! Wish I'd been more creative with mine - didn't realise how addictive this place would be! ;o) Thanks everyone, I just love the support I get in here! When I was getting people to take our pictures last night I was saying "I need them to show my friends on the MB" LOL! Thanks again, must really lie down now ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2172.      Sonia, your pics are gorgeous! That 70's ......

          orange really is something isnt it. Looks like a fabulous night, enjoyed by loads of fun loving people. I bet you will be tired after all that dancing and partying. You go girl!! Hope you all feel better after a wee sleep. Hugs to you all.

joystik (281 )    2:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2173.      Hows the packing going Paula.....hope you're

          getting all the right stuff in the bags. I usually get away without stuff I need and end up having to buy more when I arrive at places. It will be quite a trip up there with the puppy as well. We used to go from Oamaru to Nelson in a day no problem, but we travel a lot anyway. Hope it all goes well for you up there and Joshi gets good results. Its been lovely and sunny here during the morning and early afternoon but its packed it in a bit now I'm afraid and got a bit cooler. Love and hugs to you all...xxxxooooxxxxoooo

joystik (281 )    2:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2174.      well boys have just come back from fishing

          grandad took them down to the wharf and they bought back 2 sprats..lol

bogeyi (482 )    3:41 pm, 4 Jun


 2175.   Hi Paula and bogeyi

          I've just visited Joshi's website and left a message - now I know how to contact you hee hee. Looking forward to July ;o) Now I'm just hoping that's not when my operation will be - that would be cruel! Hee hee about the sprats bogeyi ;o) Yes Paula, had a great big sleep-in thanks - we just had to see how the pics turned out before going to bed ha ha! The night out was great for Brent and I - must get out more often, whenever we can! Hope all is well in your families xxoo

soniat-d (153 )    4:25 pm, 4 Jun


 2176.      sonia glad you had a fab time

          i know what you mean nights out are very few and far between in our house first of all it was because of young kids and now with one sick randal and i dont go out alot.

bogeyi (482 )    4:29 pm, 4 Jun


 2177.   Hi Boop and Landylass :o)

          Yep, we're taking it real easy today! Sounds like you need a bit of a break too Landylass! Glad the party went well for you too! Emily's still out of sorts this afternoon, so must get back to her soon (Brent's cuddling her). Alicia from next door is over playing with Lydia, they get on so well even though Alicia is almost 4 years older than her! The two are sleeping over at Alicia's tonight - that may be opportune if somethings up with Emily :o/! Hope not... ((((((Hugs to you both))))))

soniat-d (153 )    4:31 pm, 4 Jun


 2178.   Sonia

          Firstly thank you for leaving such a lovely message in Joshi's guest book. I now have your number too so will definately be putting it in my cell phone. We also know what its like not gettin out and last Tues (Davinci Code) was the 1st time Chris and I have been out for so long. Afterwards I thought - just have to try to do that more often. Anyway love to you and your gorgeous family xoxo (p.s if your op is in July, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.) I spent ages today sitting reading your entries on your website, wiping away the odd tear, just think the world of you - your amazing!!!!

paulaxx (75 )    4:40 pm, 4 Jun


 2179.   Patra

          Got your number - thanks so much. The whole family is coming this time so if I dont get in touch with you, please dont think I dont appreciate the offer, or want to - it is just going to be a very busy time. Take care Paula

paulaxx (75 )    4:42 pm, 4 Jun


 2180.      Sounds like partying was the order of the night

          last night, and everyone was out except me!! Glad you had a great time too landylass and got in to the party spirit. It is good to have a bit of a blow out once in a while and get rid of the cob webs. Not much of a day for doing very much today. I've hardly done a thing except talk on the phone and on the computer. Should really do some study, but theres tomorrow for that. Oncology appointment is tuesday, and surgeon wants to see me wednesday, so the week is filling up fast. Hugs to you landylass....

joystik (281 )    4:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2181.   Hi joystik

          Oh the packing. MMMM well I think I've got it sussed now. Its always the way, wont know till we are too far to turn back or there. Ive got so much stuff to take you'd think I was going for a year. I just had this feeling all week what if we end up having to stay. Chris would drive back with Cass and Josh and I could fly back. I just took his temp and it was up a bit and he's feeling a bit grotty? Oh well, we are going to the best place. Still yucky day here. Cold and wet. Hope you have a lovely week love and hugs to you - look after yourself.

paulaxx (75 )    4:47 pm, 4 Jun


 2182.   bogeyi

          So is it fish for tea. Just kidding. Will be thinking of you this week, hope everything goes well for you and Ryan. Take care lots a love to you guys xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    4:49 pm, 4 Jun


 2183.      Hi sonia, hope wee Emily is just out of sorts

          for a while and nt got a bug coming on. You can do without bugs right now I think. Well, actually we all can. Hope you're having a restfull day...its turned quite cold and yuk here now, so we will snuggle in for the night. Love and hugs to you all up there.

joystik (281 )    4:49 pm, 4 Jun


 2184.   Sonia

          Knowing me I will sneak on here in the morning before we hit the road, but I was just thinking I wanted to wish you well for all your appointments this week. Not sure if you have one tomorrow (stat day) or Tuesd. Then Fri isnt it? Thats apart from your treatment I mean. Anyway you will be on my mind constantly and I hope all goes well. xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    4:51 pm, 4 Jun


2185.      Paula,are you heading off early in the morning??

          I think the forecast is much better for the next few days isn't it. Just some snow for today, so hopefully it will be over with before you go tomorrow and the roads are all good. I will be thinking of you all while you are away up there. Seeyou when you get back....Hugs for your kids, ohhh.. and you too....

joystik (281 )    4:52 pm, 4 Jun


2186.   Thanks Joystik

          Hugs right back at ya ;0) xoxo Not sure what time as those darling cows need feeding before we go

paulaxx (75 )    4:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2187.   OOOhhhh

          Joystik, what a lovely message to our Josh. Thanks it means so much xoxox (We are going to meet one day - promise)

paulaxx (75 )    5:05 pm, 4 Jun


 2188.   To the people

          who have read about us on here and left a message for Josh. Thanks so much - your kind thoughts and wishes mean more than words can say. Thank you

paulaxx (75 )    5:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2189.   I just

          noticed while I was doing the dishes its snowing. Is it at your place Joystik?

paulaxx (75 )    7:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2190.   Wow - snowing! Thats so neat :o)

          It never snows here - when I lived in Germany snow was a pain (but a big novelty for us Aucklanders LOL). Is snow a good or bad thing in Gore?! Hoping you're having a nice evening Paula. Hugs to Josh xx

soniat-d (153 )    8:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2191.   Hi Joystik :o)

          Emily is fine now thanks - box of fluffies. Think she was overtired or something, although they say she slept in! Lydia's now all settled next door - she loves sleepovers - this is only her second at a friends house - I'm thinking this is the beginning of many more!

soniat-d (153 )    8:03 pm, 4 Jun


 2192.      No Paula its not snowing here......I just went out

          side and it is the most crystal clear night with a lovely bright moon, but not really cold. Yes, I watched the weather on tv1 and commented to my husband that 'my friends' from Gore might encounter some snow tomorrow on the way to Christchurch. We officially only get snow once a year here, but haven't had a fall on the ground for 3 years now I believe. We have only been here 1 year and last winter was very mild. I love snow, but Kevin's not so keen. He drove log trucks in Cnaterbury for years and the snow was such a pain up there in the winter. You will get up there OK tomorrow but take it easy, and drive really carefully wont you. I will be thinking of you. How much is settling on the ground??

joystik (281 )    8:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2193.   Oh BTW Paula thanks for thinking of me

          with the appointments - I can't find my appointment card LOL but it must be Tuesday - 9.30ish ;o) Think it'll be fine - not feeling lumps anymore. Woohoo (touch wood!) I just realised why I looked so huge in the party pics - I was standing with my fake booby side poking out and its too big with all the gauze coverings on my burns underneath! Looked passable front-on, but not at that angle! LOL! Anyway, I digress ;o) Have a safe trip tomorrow - wishing Josh all the very very best. Big cyber (((((hugs))))) to take with you on your trip xx

soniat-d (153 )    8:14 pm, 4 Jun


 2194.      My Lauren just loves sleep overs too.....and alway

          has done since she was really small. She went on her first holiday without Mummy when she was one!! I cried - she had a ball!! Now she like to have 3 or 4 girls at a time to sleepover. I dont mind, you get that when you only have 1 child. But there are bonus's too. Are you feeling rested now too?? You looked fabulous in your Orange gear. It reminded me of a dress my Auntie in Wellington had made and sent to me for an end of year school social/dance when I was at high school. It was long,in tiers, bright orange print (quite pretty) and she sent bright orange platform shoes and huge big beads to match. It probably wouldnt have been out of place in Wellington at the time, but it certainly was in Collingwood!! Bless her though, it was very kind of her to go to all the trouble, and she did it becaise our family home had burned down and we had lost absolutely everything, only a few weeks before.

joystik (281 )    8:16 pm, 4 Jun


 2195.      Hi Joystik ;o)

          Yep nice and relaxed now - we've taken it easy today! Even the girls wanted to play quietly for a change! Yes we're thinking through how we can have sleepovers here - we were originally going to put a second bed in Lydia's room but I'm having second thoughts. May just have to put together mattress-only beds - what do you do with 4 girls over?!

soniat-d (153 )    8:31 pm, 4 Jun


 2196.   Thanks about the orange dress!

          I certainly wouldn't have chosen it if there had been an alternative LOL! But it looked pretty good - The wig was riding up in the pics, I realised shortly after and fixed it up! You'd think I'd have been onto it, being used to wigs now and all, but nooo! A lot of family commented on how much sympathy they have for me now that they had to wear a wig for one night - I thought that was quite amusing! Man, what a disaster that must have been with your house burning down back then, a house burned down up the road from us about 6 months ago and I just so felt for the family. Does that mean there are no childhood pics of you etc? Hope you're comfortable and happy this evening. Must go put Em to bed now!

soniat-d (153 )    8:36 pm, 4 Jun


 2197.      Lauren actually has a king size bed in her room

          so often 1 will sleep in a sleeping bag on her bed and the other 2 on matresses on the floor. Probably better to start off with one extra at a time, cos girls can be a bit scrappy as you may have found already!! They have such a great time though.

joystik (281 )    8:46 pm, 4 Jun


 2198.   I'd definately only do 1 at a time LOL!

          The thought of more than one scares me! Guess I'll toughen up with time LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    8:50 pm, 4 Jun


 2199.      Oh ladies be brave

          we had 8-9 here one night for a 10th birthday party. NEVER again! We had a sleep walker. Some got to sleep then she started and woke them all up again. They went to sleep at 2am and were all awake again at 4pm. Hubby got 2 hours sleep and left for Chch at 4.30am. He stopped en route and had a kip on side of the road. When I asked how he knew he would wake up and still get to his meeting on time his reply was he only snoozed for 1/2 hour, it was so cold!!!! That slumber party is still talked about. Much sooner have boys to them! They will get tired and go to sleep!

landylass (47 )    8:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2200.      No we have very few photos and things.....

          from back then, only have what other people had and have copied given back to us. Absolutely everything was lost, and sadly the stress of it was too much for Mum and her health quickly went down hill and sadly the dreaded cancer returned, and she died a couple of years after. It was just devastating for my Mum to see her whole lifes work go up in flames in a few minutes. She was always a homebody, (not like me) and just lived for her home and family. And she was only 48, which made it even more tragic.

joystik (281 )    8:54 pm, 4 Jun


 2201.      Whoops that should be

          4am!

landylass (47 )    8:55 pm, 4 Jun


 2202.      Joystik that is so sad

          comes back to what we have been saying about stressful periods in your life before cancer rears its head.

landylass (47 )    8:56 pm, 4 Jun


 2203.      On the bright side

          My husband who was now a year ago given 3 - 6 months without treatment and 6 - 12 with is still going strong and is at present almost cancer free ... positive thinking and alot of herbs alongside the radiation and chemo it al counts for something. Selenium was oneof the most valuable. Good luck all those out there fighting it... just be positive and set yourself small goals to make it to.

jonnoww (207 )    9:00 pm, 4 Jun


 2204.      Gee landylass, you are very brave to have.......

          that many girls all at once. Lauren is a kid that needs her sleep, which i kinda like, cos she only has kids to stay that are like her and will go to sleep by about 11pm at the latest. That I can cope with. In Oamaru we had down stairs so we let them sleep down there, but one decided to call up her boyfriend and hed off out the back door and meet him, which really upset Lauren. She hadn't gone far when I was alerted, and she was only 13 at the time, so I thought she was a bit young for all that stuff anyway. Girls can get quite catty in groups I have found.

joystik (281 )    9:02 pm, 4 Jun


 2205.      Thats why I prefer

          having the boys to stay. Once they get over pubity the girls seem to settle down! Miss16 got a good bunch of friends now and no cattiness now. But it was there about 10 -12 age group.

landylass (47 )    9:06 pm, 4 Jun


 2206.      Yes Landylass I quite agree...Lauren has much.....

          nicer friends now and that cattiness has long since disappeared, thank goodness. She almost has someone here every weekend, but it doesn't bother me. They keep them selves entertained and feed themselves too, so theres no extra work. And they just go for walks, sing, and watch movies, and theres no harm in any of that. Hope it stays like that for some time yet too.

joystik (281 )    9:14 pm, 4 Jun


 2207.   Wow another hundy done and dusted

          Yes its so interesting about cancer and stress. The two are definitely intertwined! To that end I saw a cd in the supermarket this evening (Electric Dreams) and saw it has heaps of oldies I still just LOVE to hear and sing along to (Title song, plus Ultravox Vienna, etc etc etc), so bought it, put both disks straight in the car. Now I have lots of lovely music to sing away to on my way to radiation each day. Can't wait to play them all... Yippee! Thats the ticket ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:15 pm, 4 Jun


 2208.      What kind of monster did your husband have

          jonnoww? Good to hear its on the retreat :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:16 pm, 4 Jun


 2209.      Hey Landylass

          What movie did you watch the other night? Which new releases would you recommend? How's the theatre going?

soniat-d (153 )    9:17 pm, 4 Jun


 2210.      Just in case Paula pops

          back in.... have sent you a email with where you can find me if you want to give kids a break tomorrow or have hassles with the weather. Hope you get past Dunedin as its snowing there. Take care.

landylass (47 )    9:20 pm, 4 Jun


 2211.      Thats great news jonnoww.......its always good

          to hear stories of people that have had success with their treatment. I am yet to start on my chemo so I have a long way to go yet, but like you we have been taking supplements, and have changed the diet in a few areas. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain by just making changes sometimes.I'm right into trying anything that may benefit my situation. Good luck to you both and hugs too.....

joystik (281 )    9:21 pm, 4 Jun


 2212.      lol Sonia

          I am always going to the ones we are pulling. Never seem to find the time to go! Half the time they have been and gone before I even realise they are here.

landylass (47 )    9:23 pm, 4 Jun


 2213.   LOL Landylass

          I thought you guys would be the first to know! Have you seen the Davinci Code yet? Everyone seems to have a different opinion on that one!?!

soniat-d (153 )    9:40 pm, 4 Jun


 2214.      Well ladies, I'm off to bed for a little more ....

          beauty sleep!! Hope you all have a restful sleep tonight and a nice day off tomorrow courtesy of the Queen. Looks like a fine day for us here. Hope theres not too much snow for Paula for travelling to CHCH. It has been snowing in Dunedin and Christchurch tonight but it could be gone quite quickly. I'll be thinking of you Paula.... Good night everyone and hugs to you all....

joystik (281 )    10:07 pm, 4 Jun


 2215.      everyone has been busy on here today

          Paula hope you have a safe trip and miss most of the snow it is along way to drive. I find that trip from Timaru to CH CH boring as the road is so straight. Good luck and all the best for Joshi.

boop2 (106 )    10:37 pm, 4 Jun


 2216.      Sonia

          so pleased you had a goodnight I hope Emily comes right they recover pretty quickly ,kids.I am a country music fan so that is all I play in my car.

boop2 (106 )    10:39 pm, 4 Jun


 2217.      paula I forgot to ask

          The country music awards are in Gore this weekend I think are you interested in them your town will be swinging this week.

boop2 (106 )    10:41 pm, 4 Jun


 2218.      Hi joystick

          that is real sad about your mum it would be heart breaking to lose everything. How are you feeling now?

boop2 (106 )    10:43 pm, 4 Jun


 2219.      landylass i think you are brave too.

          Are you feeling better now. Quite often when our boys slept over we would get a ring about 10 or 11 to come and get them because they were upset especially our oldest son. They weren't very good at it.

boop2 (106 )    10:45 pm, 4 Jun


 2220.   Hi everyone

          There is a little snow on the ground this morning. Nothing too drastic. It really is a still a novelty to me too. Our first season here was a wicked one and I think Josh had about 4 days off (not in a row) school as snow days. Very popular you can imagine. kids next door get towed around on their taboggan by their dad on the quad. Cool fun! We made snow angels in the lawn. Anyway I love that music too Sonia - hope we can have the sounds on today to help with the trip. Bogeyi I will try and find a computer cos I dont know if I can go 5 days off here lol. Thanks landylass, have got your details.We'll have to see how we got for time,Chris is still up at grazing block feeding the girls.So wont be leaving till after 10 I imagine :0\ Thanks everyone for thinking of us. The feeling is mutual. I will miss you.Joystik i like you refer to you all as my friends around the country now - nice isnt it. K better go and clean up the cats mess (rat) today of all days. Take care all of you. love and hugs from us here xoxoxo

paulaxx (75 )    8:58 am, 5 Jun


 2221.   Boop2

          I would have loved to have gone to as many nights of the Country music gold guitars, but with Josh we just couldnt risk it. Maybe next year. Bye xo

paulaxx (75 )    9:04 am, 5 Jun


 2222.   Bye Paula

          Wishing you a safe trip :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:22 am, 5 Jun


 2223.      Good morning ladies

          Have a safe trip Paula. It's very cold but clear (for now) up here (Tuahiwi,North Canterbury) this morning. There will be heaps of traffic on the roads today too, I would imagine. Keep an eye out for free coffees for drivers on the way. Always good for a break. Hope to see you while you are here. I came home from the mountains last night as the weather was closing in. Just as well too, looking at the view from my window. Have to work today. Im sure they would have been rapt if i had got snowbound up there!!

maewest (75 )    9:44 am, 5 Jun


 2224.      Joystik

          All the best for you appointment tomorrow. It brings back memories. Once your treatment is underway, it's easier somehow. You just focus on getting through it and out the other side. It's acutally worse thinking about losing your hair. Paul (my bloke) shaved mine off just before it was due to start falling out. A good decision for me as I guess I felt it was me that was in control and not the drugs!! We had fun doing it though..had all sorts of different hair styles. Always wondered what I would look like with a mohawk! Nope not a good look!! lol

maewest (75 )    9:52 am, 5 Jun


 2225.      wishing paula a safe trip

          it is cold here today and it blew so hard in the night didn't think anything would be left standing. Have a nice day everyone

boop2 (106 )    10:16 am, 5 Jun


 2226.      Hi Paula, hope you have a good safe trip to

          Christchurch and dont encounter too many stops for snow etc. Hope everyone else is keeping warm. It is actually quite a nice day here, not sizzling hot by any means but the sun is out and shining brightly, which always makes you feel much better. I dont intend to do much today either. Thanks for thinking of me maewest, I think your comments about the hair are very true. And like I keep on telling my self everyday, the sooner it starts, the sooner it will be over. Hugs to you all and have a great day.....

joystik (281 )    11:29 am, 5 Jun


 2227.      Sun is shining here today

          too. Grr was cold last night, I even went to bed with my beanie on to start with!!!! My lot are all working today so I'm away to get the knitting out.

landylass (47 )    1:27 pm, 5 Jun


 2228.   Just a quickie

          as i am on the mil puter, got my results as i was travelling down here on thursday and all is good yeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaa its fibrocystic cysts i am so relieved and was smiling silly all day while driving down here lol sorry havent had time to read all posts but will when i get home speak soon, hugs to all you lovely ladies xxx

pomegal (91 )    1:37 pm, 5 Jun


 2229.      Wow great news pomegal

          now you can really enjoy the rest of your holiday! Good one!

landylass (47 )    1:38 pm, 5 Jun


 2230.      Wow just meet joshi

          when they called in passing thru town. What a lovely fella he is and his family. Hope you get to meet up with them in Auckland Sonia and others in Chch. All the best Joshi this week... and that wonderful big smile is for real!!!!!

landylass (47 )    3:39 pm, 5 Jun


 2231.      Wow that's cool Landylass

          I'm so pleased they called in to see you. I laughed at the description of your ten pin bowling technique...can't be worse than mine!!! I was just leaving for lunch and work when work rang. Everyone there sick and I am now doing the dogwatch 10pm til 8am!! Yuck!! Still went into town for lunch. Just home and will try and get some shuteye. Fat chance of that...I'm wide awake!!

maewest (75 )    4:24 pm, 5 Jun


 2232.      Landylass

          Did Paula say what time their appointment is at the hospital? I will be in town for my mammogram and if it fits in I could call in there afterwards.Or do you know which motel they are staying at?

maewest (75 )    4:30 pm, 5 Jun


 2233.      Sorry no he has

          a couple of days assessment Tue/Wed but don't know where they are staying. They left here about 4pm. Oh I hope you get the chance to see them, they are soooo lovely and that grin of his!

landylass (47 )    7:01 pm, 5 Jun


 2234.      Never mind

          Thanks anyway Landylass. Just hope Paula gets in touch. May even try contacting the hospital..see if I can find out what time his appointments are. Where there's a will, there's a way!!

maewest (75 )    7:11 pm, 5 Jun


 2235.      Off to work now

          Hours changed yet again. Now 8pm til 6am. No sleep Hmmmm......

maewest (75 )    7:13 pm, 5 Jun


 2236.      Maewest try contacting

          her email as in the website address at post 2116. She might be checking them daily. Thats how I got her.

landylass (47 )    7:17 pm, 5 Jun


 2237.      Gee Maewest, they are awful hours to work

          and especially if you havent been sleeping. Hope you last the night out ok in the cold. Bet its cold in CHCH tonight. Did you get any snow. Hope you get to meet Paula and Joshi tomorrow. Have a good night, I'll be thinking about you.....

joystik (281 )    9:33 pm, 5 Jun


 2238.      Pomegal..thats just the best news ever.....

          I'm so pleased for you. Happy endings are what we like to hear on here and thanks so much for yours. Hugs to you...

joystik (281 )    9:35 pm, 5 Jun


 2239.      Hi Boop and sonia...have you 2 had a busy day??

          I moved all the plants around in my lounge and gave them a trim up, so food and water, and moved the china cabinet. That was about my lot. The district nurse even came and changes the wee dressing. The sun was shining for most of the day but it is a bit chilly tonight. I should think there will be a frost to greet us in the morning. But then that should mean a lovely sunny day too. Better go to bed now. Got my big oncology appointment tomorrow, so I'll let you know what Dr Perez has to say later tomorrow night. Hugs to you all....

joystik (281 )    9:40 pm, 5 Jun


 2240.      Good luck tomorrow Joystik....

          I am sure they will give you heaps of information but make sure you get all the printouts on the different drugs and expected side effects.... and don't freak when you read them.... they don't all happen! Be thinking of you.

landylass (47 )    10:03 pm, 5 Jun


 2241.      Whoops Maewest

          Chemo brain not working... that is post 2166. I have been trying to get on his guestbook tonight but can't get in for some reason.

landylass (47 )    10:19 pm, 5 Jun


 2242.      Hi joystick

          I have had a real busy day washing drapes and curtains for this house we have just bought it is so dirty it is going to take day's to clean it. The bowling girls have offered to help me which I really appreciate because I think it will be the bowling season before I finish. It is a nice house and can be made really homely. How are you good luck for tomorrow will be thinking of you.

boop2 (106 )    10:59 pm, 5 Jun


 2243.      I can't get into Joshi's site either

          That was lovely you met them landylass they do sound like such a nice family . Hope you are feeling better.

boop2 (106 )    11:03 pm, 5 Jun


 2244.      What good news for pomegal

          That would have been a load off your mind what are they going to do with you now?

boop2 (106 )    11:04 pm, 5 Jun


 2245.      maewest if you see Joshi

          Please give him a big hug from me and his mum too.

boop2 (106 )    11:06 pm, 5 Jun


 2246.      Hugs for sonia where ever

          she is. I hope it is resting up after her busy weekend. Well night everyone stay snug and warm.

boop2 (106 )    11:09 pm, 5 Jun


 2247.      Morning ladies....hope you are all having a ......

          good day. It is lovely and sunny here so that makes all the difference to the way you feel I think. Must get the washing onto the line and do a bit of house work and then study this Sale and Purchase agreement. I should know how to do one off by heart for the amount of properety we have bought and sold in the past few years. However study would be a good thing I think. Hope all is well with you boop, sonia, landy, kelsall, bogeyi, and of course paula and josh in ChCh. And of course everyone else I have missed by name. Thinking of you all and wishing you all sunshine and sweet things today. Hugs for everyone.....

joystik (281 )    9:03 am, 6 Jun


 2248.   Hi all, sorry I've been away - busy busy busy!

          I spent a lot of yesterday gardening, repotting plants, weeding etc etc and rest of time catching up on chores, washing etc etc. Was so tired last night I just crashed in front of the TV (Not something I do often!) watching The Good Life (we just bought the DVD at the sales). Anyway.... my skin is healing up beautifully, doesn't look at all angry anymore - technicians were most surprised this morning saying WOW its healing well, so thats good :o) Downside, stupid public system... yes my appointment with Dr Benji was yesterday but because it was a public holiday it didn't happen and we all simply miss out for 2 weeks?! What a load of garbage - why'd they make an appointment on a Public Holiday in the first place, and as he's only there on Mondays we all get bumped a week or something?!? Then, on top of that, I realised that my last treatment should be this Friday (first day of strike) so end of treatment will be delayed 6 days for me to get just one more zap. Nope, not on peoples!!!! Sorry, venting :o/!!! Will

soniat-d (153 )    12:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2249.     Cont'd...

          ...Will call Breast Surgeon nurse after all today, she called to say my surgeon is on holiday, but I'm hoping shes back today. I think I'll demand that the end of treatment is dated from this Friday, for the 4 week wait till CT scan, not after the tsupid week later last blast. Thats the best I can demand really...

soniat-d (153 )    12:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2250.   Oooh Landylass

          I'm so jealous you got to meet them! Thats so great that you caught up, can't wait to see that infectious smile either, and Paula of course and the rest of her lovely family :o)

soniat-d (153 )    12:50 pm, 6 Jun


 2251.   Hi boop2

          Yep it was a busy weekend all right - resting yesterday afternoon before doing dinner, then again after putting girls to bed. We all slept in chronically this morning (8am!). Anyone who has preschoolers/5 year olds will know how impossible it is to speed them up by 3/4 of an hour in the morning!?! They just ended up in tears :o/ Of course I had an earlier-than-usual appointment this morning, can't believe I made it (just!). Phew!!! OK gotta put Emily down to bed soon ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    12:55 pm, 6 Jun


 2252.   Hi Joystik ;o)

          Good luck for your Oncology meeting today - hope it goes OK. Now you've already gone I can say that mine was a shock to me, thought my picture was a lot rosier than it was, and he certainly let me know that!? I have the same feeling going into this Fridays one, nervous as #shrugs#. As Landylass said, don't fret about the chemo, all those printouts look really scary but its really not that bad, they just have to cover themselves by putting down every possible side-effect, but only a few of all those happen really, its just that different people react to it in very different ways. For me the actual treatment was a pleasant surprise - not bad at all, actually I had fun ;o) (((((hugs))))) xx

soniat-d (153 )    1:01 pm, 6 Jun


 2253.      Wow Sonia you make me tired

          just thinking about what you got up to over the weekend! Grr fancy missing out on your very last blast because of strikes. Boy that would make me really mad. Glad to hear you are healing so well though. I got a letter from DHB on Sat too about the strikes but then there is still the junior drs threatening too. This round of strikes won't effect me unless it pushes all the appointments back. I was originally told 4 week break after chemo so won't worry me if they want to delay start to radiation for a couple of weeks. Joshsi is such a coooooool kid. The way Paula was talking she is intending to try to meet some of Auckland ones while there. I am on a mission today to get some answers re these blood sugars as last dose of chemo on Thursday and this one will be the one that will knock me and I don't want another visit to A&E! I am getting conflicting advice so on a mission for some answers but can't get hold of the people I need to talk to! And Sonia no I haven't been to da Vinci code yet!

landylass (47 )    1:04 pm, 6 Jun


 2254.      Good luck on your mission Landylass

          So frustrating when you can't get your questions answered. Yes you do need to get it sorted before Thursday. Sonia, welcome back. We all wondered where you were. What a busy time you have had. I cannot believe your appointment was made for a Public Holiday. Unbelievable. To them just a mistake, to you another stress you can be doing without. Not good enough!! Wonder how Joystik is feeling?

maewest (75 )    2:08 pm, 6 Jun


2255.      Hi Maewest...

          hope you haven't got heaps of hours to work this week after your big stint! You should be getting out of the stress zone not back into the thick of it. Good luck tomorrow for your mammagram. Hope you manage to see Joshi.

landylass (47 )    2:30 pm, 6 Jun


 2256.   Hi ladies

          Good luck from me too Maewest ;o) Wishing you all the best :o) Hey Landylass, thats funny coming from you - you're the one who makes me feel like a slacker at times LOL! The weathers just so great here I HAVE to be outside, was doing some more gardening just now. Tomorrow I plan to get back to the painting, weather permitting ;o) OK off to collect Lydia now - I have a nice treat this afternoon, going for a facial (brother's treat) :o) Nanny's coming early. OK must go!

soniat-d (153 )    2:39 pm, 6 Jun


 2257.      Haha. I agree Sonia

          Landylass I think we would all come 2nd to you in the busy stakes!! I have a couple of days off but then on 11 days (nights)straight...someone's on leave. Oh joy. Oh well it will look good in the pay packet! I'm not complaining really tho, because I enjoy what I do. It sure helped me through the rough times.

maewest (75 )    3:12 pm, 6 Jun


 2258.   Yep, Maewest

          Distraction is the key ;o) I found it amazing during chemo how much better I felt on the nautious days if I was doing something, anything really, that took my mind off it. I did lots of painting then LOL (not the outdoors kind I'm doing now of course, rather the quiet sit-down kind ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:35 pm, 6 Jun


 2259.   i am so over this roller coaster we are riding

          feel like you get some good/ok/hopeful news then next time its turned to custard.Sonia hope you enjoyed your facial, Paula and Josh hope your appointment went ok, hello landylass,joystik,boop,twinkies,and everyone else i have forgotten.

bogeyi (482 )    4:52 pm, 6 Jun


 2260.   Hey Bogeyi

          Are you OK? You're not sounding very happy today - hope all is OK with Ryan :o) Had an awesome facial thanks - the rest of the day has been a shambles - traffic jams, I've even lost my keys (all of them!) and can't find them ANYWHERE?! Had to use spare car keys to get to appointment - guess what I'll be doing tonight! :o/!!!! Feeling very glam though, even got my eybrows (what there are of them LOL) trimmed and tinted ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    6:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2261.      im fine sonia

          just frustrated im sure you know what i am talking about.

bogeyi (482 )    6:54 pm, 6 Jun


 2262.   Yes I sure do Bogeyi

          At the party on Saturday my brother-in-law asked how I was feeling and I said "Well, I just wish I was anyone else but me these days". Sums it up really ;o) Feeling fine now, found the keys #phew#, girls are good, so all is well in the world. Will stir the couldron tomorrow, had no time to make those calls today. Hope you're all having a nice evening :o)

soniat-d (153 )    7:48 pm, 6 Jun


 2263.      Hi Joystik ;o)

          Hope all went OK today - thinking of you xxx

soniat-d (153 )    7:51 pm, 6 Jun


 2264.      Hi sonia,landylass, boop, meawest, and everyone...

          well I had the meeting with Dr Perez the Oncologist from Dunedin today. After a long wait in the waiting room we finally got in there. He explained why I should have Chemo, because I had a high grade Tumor, and because I had 10 of 16 lymph nodes involved. He said that Chemo is no guarantee, but could improve my rate of cure by 65% or a little more, but that it was up to me if I had it or not! Of course I am going to, I need all the help I can get to beat this thing.

joystik (281 )    8:24 pm, 6 Jun


 2265.      OK so thats the same odds I was given with

          standard chemo Joystik (ie first time around with only 1 large lump and 1 or 3 nodes affected). I reckon that stuff worked for me - otherwise I'd be riddled with cancer, not just local recurrance as it is. Hope that helps? Did he mention other pay chemo options above that? I'm guessing not?

soniat-d (153 )    8:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2266.      Wow that anyone would even

          think you might consider not having it!!!! Stay positive Joystik and treat chemo as your friend that is going to help you beat the monster. I have to get off here and might be gone for a few days. Got a virus and got to pull the plug until we get it sorted. Just clicked over to a new months account today and used a whole months broadband in less than one day! {{{{big hugs]]]]]

landylass (47 )    8:54 pm, 6 Jun


 2267.      Wow, you guys are amazing..

          I don't know anyone that is untouched by this monster whether it is experiencing it or witnessing a battle. Reading your posts has brought tears to my eyes. It is so wonderful to read your fantastic support for each other. Stay strong and wishing you all the best ***Hugs to you all***

teejay54 (53 )    9:08 pm, 6 Jun


 2268.      So I will be starting my Chemo next Thursday....

          It is FEC, I will be having 6 treatments at 3 week intervals, that is assuming all is ok with bloods etc, so much what you have all had I guess. He told me that the most distressing thing about the chemo is the hair loss, but it does grow back. I got a prescription for 5 different anti nausea drugs, so i'm ready to go. I wont have my port in when I start but should by the second treatment.

joystik (281 )    9:26 pm, 6 Jun


 2269.      After that I have to go to Dunedin for 3 weeks....

          for radiotherapy, and the probably hormone therapy for 5 years. So there is a bit too do yet, but all this treatment is going to be my friend at the end of the day. I can beat this and I WILL!!!!

joystik (281 )    9:36 pm, 6 Jun


 2270.      hi joystik......just wanted to say goodluck

          Ryan found that the hardest part when i had to shave it short (hes always loved his hair would spike it)as it was starting to fall out he thought i was shaving it all off he was crying, even the nurse had to walk out as she couldnt bear him crying.He wouldnt look in the mirror kept saying im ugly, took a few days before he came to like his bald look, i loved it really suited him bought out his gorgeous eyes.

bogeyi (482 )    9:36 pm, 6 Jun


 2271.      Thanks bogeyi, for that. Its just all a bit.....

          daunting all at once, getting all the information, and you have to lose you hair too??? Its almost like adding insult to injury. But hey, there are worse things in life. Hugs to you and Ryan too...

joystik (281 )    9:50 pm, 6 Jun


 2272.      joystick you have along journey ahead of you

          so for the next 5years I will have to report in here daily to follow your progress. Just to hear mthe other girls talking about it must help heaps. Hugs to you. We had another lovely day in the Buller.

boop2 (106 )    9:52 pm, 6 Jun


 2273.      Ohhh..... how could I have forgotten to give you

          the best part of the information??? The CT scan I had last wednesday, was totally CLEAR. So that was the good news of the day, and I just about jumped up and kissed the poor man when he told me, I was so relieved. That is one less thing to worry about. Oh well, I'm off to bed now, so I will see you again tomorrow. Hope you are all warm and cosy like we are here. Good night everyone, hugs to you all....xxxxxxxx

joystik (281 )    9:53 pm, 6 Jun


 2274.      Lost my Mum to cancer 20 july 2004........

          big gap in my life that will never be filled sadly....

mjrh (83 )    9:56 pm, 6 Jun


 2275.      sonia I still think you are amazing with

          everything you do. Is Emily okay now?That would be terrible if you had to wait another week for the final treatment. Just doesn't seem fair. Glad everything is healing well that is one plus. Hugs to you.I am just so proud of you and your attitude I don't know you but I sure as hell would like too.

boop2 (106 )    9:57 pm, 6 Jun


 2276.      would like to share this with you all

          GOD MAKES VERY FEW PERFECT HEADS, THE REST HE PUTS HAIR ON..... this is a crosstitch that hangs on a wall in our ward.

bogeyi (482 )    10:00 pm, 6 Jun


 2277.      Hi landylass,maewest, bogeyi and Ryan

          Hi ryan I hope you are doing okay waiting for your mum to put some more photo's on of you.Love to all you other ladies. Good for you landylass I hope your blood sugar settles down does it make you tired ?

boop2 (106 )    10:01 pm, 6 Jun


 2278.      Ah well Joystik

          FEC is different to what I had (I had AC) so thats cool ;o) Sooo glad about the CT results - woohoo! Doesn't it feel great to know there's no visible cancer ANYWHERE inside you?! I loved that! Looking forward to hopefully seeing that again soon ;o) Glad you can use hormone therapy too - the more weapons you have the better ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:22 pm, 6 Jun


 2279.   Awww Boop2 #smootches# :o)

          Thanks! me too! Emily is fine and dandy thanks! It finally dawned on me tonight to dig up the warm teddies (hotties inside) for the girls to go to bed with, wow what a difference for Emily - out like a light. Awww poor wee mite, its a warm house but shes a skinny thing - think I'll pop up and check she's still all snuggled in. Man I love that wee dot :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:28 pm, 6 Jun


 2280.   Love them both of course ;o)

          Sooo much :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:30 pm, 6 Jun


 2281.   Hi Teejay

          Thanks very much for your lovely post. What a sweetie :o)

soniat-d (153 )    11:32 pm, 6 Jun


 2282.   Good Morning All

          on this beautiful crisp morning. Wishing all a fantastic day & sending strength to all that need it. Thinking of you all constantly!

cole2 (360 )    8:18 am, 7 Jun


 2283.      Good morning everyone

          Beautiful crisp morning here too. Joystik so pleased the CT Scan was all clear. Seems they treat everyone differently with chemo. I was on the CAF recipe. Did they give you a voucher to go and sort out a wig? I had a couple of fun days doing that. Take a friend with you to help make the decision.My friend took photos of me with different wigs on. That was fun. I didn't wear mine that much, but it was great when you went out wanting to look 'normal'.

maewest (75 )    9:34 am, 7 Jun


 2284.      good morning all

          just got back from greenlane hospital with kirsty seems if its not one kid its the other.

bogeyi (482 )    9:39 am, 7 Jun


 2285.      Bogeyi I love the

          quote you posted earlier...how true. Hope you are feeling better today. Tomorrow I am going for lunch with my new friend who is going throught the same. Also 2 others joining us who I have not met before. One of them has ovarian cancer and has not been given any hope by the medical profession and the other has just found out she has to have a mastectomy next week. Hope I can handle it.'My mammogram this afternon. Will be glad when that is over...it is going to HURT!!!Lol. Have a lovely day everyone.

maewest (75 )    9:42 am, 7 Jun


 2286.      thanks maewest

          have a lovely lunch....

bogeyi (482 )    9:45 am, 7 Jun


 2287.      Oh Bogeyi

          You poor wee sausage. It's not fair. What is wrong with Kirsty? Wouldn't it be great if we could all meet up for a coffee to vent our frustrations? Nothing like a good vent to make you feel better.

maewest (75 )    9:46 am, 7 Jun


 2288.      mmmmmmmmmm coffee

          she needed to go to the dental department she is a doctors nightmare she is so frightened of docs,dentist,anything medical she gets hysterical so they refer her there so they can give her some happy gas to relax her, have no idea where this has come from as she has never been hurt (other than a filling hurt) wonder if it comes from all the treatment ryan has had???????if you say needle she almost crumbles.

bogeyi (482 )    9:54 am, 7 Jun


 2289.      hope she is alright now bogeyi

          enough is enough. Hi sonia glad about emily. Great news for joystick I bet that was a load off your mind.Hi maewest enjoy lunch . Have a nice day everyone

boop2 (106 )    9:55 am, 7 Jun


 2290.      My younger son was like that

          bogeyi. Fortunately he has grown out of it (he's 21 now). Just what you need on top of everything else. The laughing gas does the trick though. How is it on the Coast boop2? Must get back over there one day. One of my favourite places in the country.

maewest (75 )    10:05 am, 7 Jun


 2291.      Hi ladies, having a busy morning catching up on

          stuff around here. Thanks for all your continued support. Thanks bogeyi for the quotation atbou the heads and hair...too true. Have to take the cat to the vet when I can find him. He has an abcess on his ear. I noticed it a couple of days ago and put iodine on it but it needs more than that now. I phoned the vet to book him in and he heard me on the phone and disappeared!! Usual story...I should have been spelling instead of talking. Hope you allhave a great day. Thats a bummer about the radiotherapy sonia. Strikes ae...who needs them. Enjoy your lunch out maewest, thats always fun. Off to look at wigs on friday I think, so that should be fun. Think I will probably stay much the same as I look now.Hi Boop, have you a nice day at Hector?? Its warm as here but cloudy now.

joystik (281 )    11:13 am, 7 Jun


 2292.      Hi everyone

          I haven't had a chance to read the whole thread but I am so inspired by your stories. I have been diagnosed with bladder cancer will be going into hosp in a couple of weeks to have it removed. The outlook is good for me and after a dose of chemo I should be fine. I take my hat off to all you brave people who are going through a very hard time and able to stay positive through this.

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mattymouse1 (6 )    11:43 am, 7 Jun


 2294.      thanks

          for that mattymouse, yes bladder cancer does have a high success rate which is why I feel lucky compared to what other people on here have suffered. The doc told me I had one in a million chance of getting this type of cancer as I have no risk factors ie I am reasonably young at 38, I am female and I don't smoke. Why can't I be the one in a million who wins lotto! lol. How was your Mum after surgery? did she get up and about fairly quickly?

fantail501 (116 )    11:49 am, 7 Jun


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mattymouse1 (6 )    12:06 pm, 7 Jun


 2296.      it must

          be very hard for you being so far away, they do regular cycostopys (sp) to check it hasn't grown back so I'm sure she'll be well monitered. Hopefully the chemo will get at what they couldn't remove.

fantail501 (116 )    12:25 pm, 7 Jun


 2297.      Hi Fantail (and Mattymouse!)

          Sorry to hear about the bladder cancer - yep we drew the short odds (I'm the same - fit no risk factors whatsoever - go figure!). Glad your outcome expectations are so good - I've decided I don't want to know mine now! I'll be telling my oncologist that in no uncertain terms before he blurts it out! LOL ;o) Wishing you all the best. Must go make those phonecalls now!

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 7 Jun


 2298.      A big, big hug for sonia

          Lovely day here joystick I am so busy don't get time to be out in it.Hi Fantail and mattymouse life can be damn cruel can't it? I haven't cancer but have had other heartaches that test your faith at times. Wonder how paula and joshi are? My Josh(grandson) IS 20 tomorrow, alovely lad 8-6-86 good date.

boop2 (106 )    2:45 pm, 7 Jun


 2299.      big hugs to all

          and thanks to all for your great support in my hours of need, it was really funny as i set off to napier at 9am on thursday and at about 12pm i got a ph call from the mr, i had asked him to phone if results came so when i saw his number come up i got very nervous (which isnt good while you are driving lol) so he told me exactly as the letter said that it was fibrocystic cysts and that it wasnt serious, thats what the letter said (it was from my doc) well from then on all the way there i had this stupid grin on my face everyone must of thought i was nutty but i wanted to wave to the world and let them all know about it, i hope all you brave ladies get good news about whatever it is you need, and hugs to you all, you have been a tower of strenghth when i needed it, hugs hugs and more hugs

pomegal (91 )    3:05 pm, 7 Jun


 2300.      ohhhhhh and joystik

          great to see you are back we did miss you hugs to, ooops sorry but i am in such a huggy mood lately lol

pomegal (91 )    3:06 pm, 7 Jun


2301.      ooops and while i am

          at it i may as well turn the page

pomegal (91 )    3:19 pm, 7 Jun


 2302.         huh so much for my afternoon off

          took kirsty to greenlane this morning for her appointment and she was back at school by 9.30, so decided i would go to the shops and walk around as ryan had no appointments...HA HA HA...driving down to lynmall Ryan said oh yea Mum look at these spots, well i nearly crashed the car small red spots on his leg and a few on hios arm, a phone call to my nurse and we were heading into starship so they could have a look, not chickenpox PHEW not sure what they are just have to keep any eye on them.

bogeyi (482 )    3:19 pm, 7 Jun


 2303.         orrr bogeyi

          thats no good poor ryan hope he comes right soon hugs to the wee one

pomegal (91 )    3:25 pm, 7 Jun


 2304.         Oh my goodness Bogeyi

          What a fright that must have been - chickenpox would be the last thing he needed, so yay it wasn't that. Certainly complicated the day (again) for you. Hopefully the spots will have calmed down by now? Could they be allergy spots?

soniat-d (153 )    3:27 pm, 7 Jun


 2305.         hes fine not sick or anything

          was worried it was chickenpox as he has no immunity against these things since his chemo and cant have his immunisations until about a year down the track.

bogeyi (482 )    3:30 pm, 7 Jun


 2306.      Hey Pomegal :o)

          I'm soooooooooo happy for you! Woohoo! Bet you'll appreciate life a whole lot more after this scare - that aspect is certainly a blessing ;o) Thanks for the hugs ;o) Gratefully received! :o) So will they cut the cysts out at some point?

soniat-d (153 )    3:30 pm, 7 Jun


 2307.         I can relate to that worry Bogeyi

          I got our girls immunised (lucky me could do that) against the Pox to be safe while I was going through chemo. I got sick a few times with other bugs they brought home - they'd be down for 1 or 2 days and I'd be a writeoff for over a week! So I know how much badder it can be. Hopefully whatever-it-is will settle down soon, glad he's feeling OK - good sign ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:33 pm, 7 Jun


 2308.         Hey all.

          Havn't been on for a while so havn't had the chance to read through the thread so trusting you all are well. Briyanna started her 2nd round of chemo yesturday. All updates are on her website (www.caringbridge.com/visit/briyanna). I am extremely worn out. Briyanna's father turned up at the hospital today. More stress. Havn't seen him in 6 months. Hollie has got the chicken pox (thanks daycare!) Hopefully Caleb doesn't catch them. It's really the last thing we need as Briyanna is neutroplenic now, so she could catch anything. Apart from that, all is well (lol). Briyanna is doing well, tired but recovering well from the op (only last Tuesday!) and dealing with the chemo fine for now.

twinkies_pn (0)    3:39 pm, 7 Jun


 2309.         hi twinkies saw your other thread

          just want to make sure you ok, how did Briyanna cope with seeing her dad.

bogeyi (482 )    3:41 pm, 7 Jun


 2310.         Hi Twinkies

          Great to hear from you - sorry to hear all thats been going on - yep chickenpox is everywhere at present, why oh why don't parents keep their kids home long enough when they get them - I know some parents who think they're doing a "good thing" sharing the pox around - yeah, right?! Anyway, all I can offer is big (((((((((cyber hugs)))))))))) and hope thing improve ASAP for you and your family. Hope Dad behaved himself ((((((hugs))))))

soniat-d (153 )    3:45 pm, 7 Jun


 2311.         Hey.

          I have no idea why people don't keep them at home. It's a huge hassle for us obviously. I've come home for the night and left Briyanna with mum (Kids dad would be insane to turn up while she's there, be like putting a fly with a spider hehe). I'm a little cut up about seeing him. Had a whole wad of different feelings. As said theres nothing I can do about it unfortunately. Briyanna was thrilled to see her father, but she's 3, any 3 year old loves their dad. He wanted to see the other 2 kids, but doesn't know where I live, so will sort that out tonight. I'm so angry at him.

twinkies_pn (0)    3:59 pm, 7 Jun


 2312.         I felt the same while I was going thru chemo

          Thanks to mothers who brought sick kids in I had to keep my youngest here with me for two weeks at one point while I was terribly sick and needed huge doses of R&R. Got me fuming - and I don't fume that often ;o) Sorry to hear Dad's a problem. Guess it's good he wants to see the kids, I know dad's who just disappear forever - not nice for the kiddies long-term.Hope you can work something out and he behaves himself. (((((Hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    4:16 pm, 7 Jun


 2313.         Ohhh bogeyi, you're not having a very good run....

          are you. Hopefully his spots will be something and nothing all in one and he will be better before he knows it. I was reading through my Chemo stuff, but I think its pretty straight forward really. Got my prescription up to the pharmacy to have it filled, for the anti nausea drugs, so I am ready for what ever happens next week. He prescribed 3 different types, so surely something must work!! Hugs to you all...

joystik (281 )    4:31 pm, 7 Jun


 2314.         Yes well sonia, people with sick kids got turned..

          away at the door when I was caregiving for Barnados. Any sign of green snot or gunky eyes and they were back to the car quick. Not only for the sake of the other kids but for me as well. Because all but 1 of mine were working mums, it wasn't fair it the only one that wasn't turned up with her kids sick, and it was almost always that one that did. Same with nits - weren't allowed in the house. But I have seen themin childcare centres with all sorts wrong. No fair at all. Did you get all your phone calls made?? I been thinking about you today while thinking about this wig thing. I'm going on Friday to have a look I think.

joystik (281 )    4:35 pm, 7 Jun


 2315.         Hi twinkies, happy to hear that things are going..

          ok for wee Briyanna. I guess she would be happy to see her Dad, like they are. Shame when things like that happen out of our control isn't it. I just hope and pray that things keep on going well for her, shes a brave wee tot. Hope the chicken pox soon leave your home too. What a nuisance to have that as well. Hugs to you all.

joystik (281 )    4:38 pm, 7 Jun


 2316.         Hi pomegal, you happy wee thing.......

          that was such awesome news for you, and for us too actually. Its always a bot of a worry waiting for results etc. Bit like me with my CT scan yesterday. I jumped about 3 feet in the air when he said it was clear. Well not really but thats how it felt to me. I'm just so pleased for you....and you can never have too many hugs either....so I will send you some more....

joystik (281 )    4:42 pm, 7 Jun


 2317.         Hi Joystik :o)

          Just got off the phone actually! They just said its up to Dr Benjamin to address most of my concerns but I could discuss with Oncologist on Friday and if he agrees with me to do an ultrasound then they'll happily do it. And if I still want to see Shas thats OK too. But it was left to discuss with oncologist - given thats only 2 days away now.

soniat-d (153 )    5:23 pm, 7 Jun


 2318.         Re the wigs

          As you know, I'm all for them! Still wearing mine now, been wearing it all day ;o) I look all glam today for a change - all my jeans need washing so got the skirt, earrings, whole caboodle on LOL! Definately take a friend with you when trying the wigs on, and go with an open mind - its fun to try something new ;o) The thing with shoulder-length wigs is you really have to go the more pricey natural hair way, as synthetic wigs don't last long before fraying etc at the ends when rubbing on shoulders all the time as your current style would. My wig shop pointed that out to me. Remember you are entitled to a $400 subsidy. Up here that's what my wig cost, so it was free ;o) So make sure you get that - its arranged at time of sale, so they have to be set up for it. Have fun :o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:29 pm, 7 Jun


 2319.      Seems to be the night for things that "sux"

          So bumping this up to its apprpriate place ;o) Cancer sux man :o/ !!! ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    7:48 pm, 7 Jun


 2320.         wow....ryan and I have just come back

          from a night safari walk at the zoo it was so cool, the lions i have never seen them so active and noisy, for those who know the zoo there is a viewing glass area where you can see the lions well the lion was right on the other side looking straight at the kids (yum dinner) then it would stand on its hind legs and claw at the glass very cool.Then as we walked towards the elephant enclosusre the lion was stalking us all the way, very freaky.....what a cool knight...thanks CCF

bogeyi (482 )    8:16 pm, 7 Jun


 2321.         thanks sonia and joystik

          i havent been told anything joystik so dont think anything else is planned about the cysts just a letter from the doc saying it isnt serious lol which is all i needed to hear right now :-) joystik that is wonderful news too hugs again to all

pomegal (91 )    8:17 pm, 7 Jun


 2322.         That's great Pomegal

          Just keep in mind to query removal at some point just to be on the safe side ;o) Sometime in the future they may go bad (not anytime soon ;o) Possibly - doc would know. Would just pay to ask the question, get plans in the pipeline. I'm so happy for you :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:29 pm, 7 Jun


 2323.         Sounds AWESOME bogeyi :o)

          So glad Ryan had a great night! Excellent :o) Is he still spotty?

soniat-d (153 )    8:31 pm, 7 Jun


 2324.         hehas the same amount

          so good it hasnt spread anymore.

bogeyi (482 )    8:36 pm, 7 Jun


 2325.         That is good :o)

          Fingers crossed things calm down overnight maybe. Have a nice evening. My thoughts are with Ryan (and Joshi - thinking of Paula too). xxx

soniat-d (153 )    9:42 pm, 7 Jun


 2326.      Seems all are away tonight

          so we're off to watch the Apprentice (final Season 5 - very exciting ;o) Night all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:43 pm, 7 Jun


 2327.         Good Morning all

          its beautiful where I am and hope it is where you are too, went to see Poseiden at the movies the other night, real disaster flick, with Kurt Russel and Richard Dreyfuss as a nice gay guy, was an OK movie and nice to get out of the house, Friday tomorrow, short week, Kind regards and look after yourselves and keep warm!!!

solarouge (46 )    9:55 am, 8 Jun


 2328.         Oh I love these frosty mornings

          Good morning all. What a neat night you had bogeyi. Bet Rayn's wee face was like a moonbeam. Hope the spots are gone today. Sonia you sounded lonely on here last night!! It was quiet aye? I was tucked up in front of the fire. My turn to wait for results now...how I hate it!!They said to ring my GP on Friday. Otherwise I see my surgeon next Wed. I'm off to enjoy the day. Have a good day ladies.

maewest (75 )    10:06 am, 8 Jun


 2329.         Hi maewest cold in the Buller today

          The Buller Gorge is still closed so can't get to CH CH . Good luck for your tests and have a nice day.

boop2 (106 )    10:32 am, 8 Jun


 2330.         Hi Paula so tired fell asleep last night

          Good luck for tomorrow with the Doc.How did you get on about your radiation do you still have to wait for the final one? Try to have a nice day and a rest my thoughts are with you.

boop2 (106 )    10:35 am, 8 Jun


 2331.         Hi Joystick

          How are you coping. Thinking of you hugs from me. Hi bogey and Ryan we have a wee spotted boy now. Hope they clear up soon. Hang in there twinkies hugs to you.Someone at the door.

boop2 (106 )    10:42 am, 8 Jun


 2332.         Hey all.

          Having a bit of a down day today. Briyanna looked quite ill this morning. This is the first morning that I've gone in and felt the realness of the situation if you get what I mean. It's heartbreaking. It was only a few months back that she was roaring around the backyard enjoying life. She was happy to see her dad this morning. I left them to it so I could come home and spit out a few poems. Sometimes it just seems that theres no light at the end of this tunnel.

twinkies_pn (0)    11:00 am, 8 Jun


 2333.         Ohhh twinkies there will be light at the end of

          the tunnel, its just that sometimes there is so much else happening that we cant see it. I have days like that too. Hugs to you all and especially wee Briyanna...shes so brave....and cute too...

joystik (281 )    1:27 pm, 8 Jun


 2334.         Hi Paula andJoshi.....

          just sending you lots of love and hugs, just incase you are able to get on here and read this. Have been thinking about you all during the week while you are away having all the tests and assessment. Hugs to you all....

joystik (281 )    1:28 pm, 8 Jun


 2335.         Gee boop, not able to get to CHCH?? Where ....

          exactly is that slip? Thanks for the pic you sent...its huge. Is it in he bit between Inangahua and Murchison?? Its a stunning day here, so lovely and warm and sunny. Might get in the garden for a while....I love my garden, and although is nothing fabulous, its a place I love to be. Hugs to you boop....

joystik (281 )    1:31 pm, 8 Jun


 2336.         Hi maewest, waiting is the pits....but you will .

          be just fine. The idea is to keep busy isnt it. How was your lunch out yesterday?? Hope you had a nice time. Sad for your friend who has to undergo a mastectomy. Is she coping ok?? Love and hugs to you and your friend too...

joystik (281 )    1:32 pm, 8 Jun


 2337.         WOW!!! Lucky Ryan...how fabulous wandering

          round the zoo at night. I really love zoo's but night would be even better. Just wait til I tell Lauren, she is a real animal person and would think that was so kool. You obviously get very close up to the animals. Have your spots gone now? Hugs to you and your lovely mummy....Have a great day.

joystik (281 )    1:35 pm, 8 Jun


 2338.         Hi sonia... I went to the neighbours for a coffee

          last night, for her birthday, and didn't get home til 11pm. Bit late for me but had a nice time too. Kevin came too which was nice, cos he's not a very social person like me, and doesn't find it so easy to talk to people, no like me!! The people here in this wee town are so lovely and friendly, and have been so good to us since I got this CANCER. They just care so much and want to help. The appointment with the surgeon is now next wednesday, the day before chemo starts, so I wont have my port in for the first dose. I phoned the wig lady, and she is sick, so thought it best I stay away until she is much better, so I may see her on wednesday too. I have been on the web site and printed off pics of the ones I like. She give you some to try on and take home and if you dont like what she has, there is a catalogue and she can get them from Auckland overnight. Thanks so much for your comments about wigs. I had decided to go for a short style and I can definately see lots of merit in that choice now. Funn

joystik (281 )    1:43 pm, 8 Jun


 2339.         cont....Funny how all the ones I chose....

          from the web site are all shorter styles of what I have now really, and when I got Lauren and Kevin to chose 6 styles each, they chose the same ones as me!! As for the paying, I just have to sign a paper and the lady claims the money back, so nothing actually changes hands on the day. Hope you are having a super day Sonia. I see on TV about the Radio therapists strike last night and they are sending some patients to Aussie for treatment!! And in todays paper, about taking people off the waiting lists that are waiting for reconstruction, saying that they will probably have to fund their own operations privately!! CANCER SUXS!!!!

joystik (281 )    1:47 pm, 8 Jun


 2340.      Hi Boop2

          Its Sonia here not Paula LOL ;o) Yep I have to wit for my last of 45 treatment sessions until probably next Wednesday (or Thursday if they determine others are more urgent). Yep oncology meeting almost here - yikes! Better polish up my question sheet, make sure they're all down. I'm a lot calmer than I was a few weeks ago - lucky for them!

soniat-d (153 )    3:46 pm, 8 Jun


 2341.         Sounds like you're on the right track with the wig

          search - thats great, glad I could help ;o) Yep all these strikes are a pain, if there was a private option for radiation treatments, believe me I would have taken it!!! I'm just relieved I have just one to go _ I'd be freaking out if I was only halfway through, or near the beginning etc. Surely the women can wait till later for the reconstructions? I was told by surgeon there is no benefit of getting it done at time of mastectomy, but there were benefits of holding off till after treatments - was certainly the wise choice in my situation! I soooo don't care about the prosthesis now, stuff it, maybe more women with go for mammograms after seeing me wandering around with only one boob LOL. I hope so! Glad you have such a great support network. Thats awesome :o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:52 pm, 8 Jun


 2342.         Have been thinking about Paula and Joshi alot

          Hope things are going well guys ;o) xxxx (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    3:53 pm, 8 Jun


 2343.      Hi all yes a busy day today

          Had a list of shopping errands to complete, then had to tidy house as some strangers coming to look at the glass wall in our new bathroom as they're planning to do something similar - apparently we're the first to have this type of glass done like this in Auckland! Anyway they stuffed us around, finally saying they'd be here at 2pm and didn't show till 2.30pm so I had to get my M-I-L to collect Lydia from school for me. Was a pain but I was happy to help, as when we were booking it all in, there were no examples for us to see! Their tardy arrival meant I missed out on seeing Lydia's part in her class show at assembly today - very bummed about that (although I know exactly what she did as she rehearsed it with me heaps!), hopefully there will be a next time soon ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:59 pm, 8 Jun


 2344.         You have been busy Sonia...don't wear yourself ...

          out will you. I've just been for a walk up to the shops to post some mail. It is so lovely out side today and all the washing is nice and dry, just waiting to be folded and put away. Got another Mary Kay make up party tomorrow night so I will have to go to bed early tonight or have a Nana nap tomorrow afternoon. Hope all goes well with your oncology meeting Sonia....I certainly will be thinking of you, like I do every single day. Then I have a look at your picture to give me more inspiration, and it works every time!! You are gorgeous.

joystik (281 )    4:11 pm, 8 Jun


2345.         hi sonia,joystick,landylass,sonia,boop

          twinkies and everyone else.Twinkies hope Bryianna is feeling better, sonia what a shame they held you up.I have had a whole day at home feels weird, didnt do much few house chores but nice to be home.Had a txt from my very good friend and she has paid for me to have a cut and highlights next week, shes naughty but i love her.

bogeyi (482 )    4:32 pm, 8 Jun


 2346.         Evening all

          Sorry to be the bearer of bad news (again) (tears) My best friend and buddy in Rotorua, where the caravan was stolen from phd me last night and is not sure about our relationship anymore - broke my heart but he did say he could easy change his mind. He's had a lot going on in his life lately so heres hoping he changes his mind!! What more can I take? Never mind, I am a pretty strong person so I'll just get on with life. Have physio 2moro then the surgeon Monday. I really dont want any more bad luck. (Just venting my disappointments) Regards to all

cburton1 (60 )    6:13 pm, 8 Jun


 2347.         cancer sux

          I am spitting mad. Have just heard on the TV news that this wonderful compassionate government has just made more cuts to the health budget. Woman waiting for breast reconstruction after surgery for cancer, have been totally bumped off the waiting lists in most big hospitals. The waits for radiation are longer, because of the strikes. Why can't they pay these awesome workers what they deserve? I bet if Helen Clark got breast cancer, the situation would change over night. No, cancel that, she would just go to the top of the queue and everyone else would be bumped down a place. They interviewed a woman on the news who was distressed because she had waited nearly 11 weeks for radiotherapy and still had no date. I had to wait for over 11 weeks last year for my radiotherapy and the wait was unbearable, and your whole life was on hold until you knew. It sux.

dize5 (452 )    6:31 pm, 8 Jun


 2348.      yes

          me too, and u should of heard the mr he was livid about it

pomegal (91 )    6:34 pm, 8 Jun


 2349.         Fully agree

          Specially the Helen Clark part.

cburton1 (60 )    6:37 pm, 8 Jun


 2350.         Hi Soniat-d

          gosh I haven't visited here for ages.Just wondering how you're doing and where you're at and has that specialist of yours found some PR yet??!! Love Winnie

winnie15 (107 )    6:37 pm, 8 Jun


2351.     was on page 3 not good enough

          bumping up............

bogeyi (482 )    9:24 pm, 8 Jun


 2352.     I just found it too bogeyi

          cburton you have been going through hell as well a big hug for you. Men just seem so different dealing with sickness.Chin up

boop2 (106 )    9:29 pm, 8 Jun


 2353.     sorry sonia I just took one look at that post

          I think it was that person knocking on the door I lost my concentration. You have been a busy girl again please take time out to rest. I thuink of paula

boop2 (106 )    9:32 pm, 8 Jun


 2354.     It is not my day just had a big spider shoot out

          from under my keyboard and I pushed the wrong thing. Meant to be I think of Paula and joshi too when are they coming back?

boop2 (106 )    9:34 pm, 8 Jun


 2355.     Hi joystick

          That was a massive slip the road has just opened it was between Hawkes Crag and Fern Arch. Very quiet in Granity as the coal trucks couldn't go either.How are you doing? I am so tired all this cleaning, tomorrow painting.Hugs to you.

boop2 (106 )    9:38 pm, 8 Jun


 2356.   Hi guys

          Wow - I missed the news - what was all that? Sounds bad - more cuts?! Sounds like I may have to kiss that last treatment goodbye?! *Runs off to TVNZ website*

soniat-d (153 )    9:42 pm, 8 Jun


 2357.     Hi Winnie

          Got the Radiologist sussed - worked out the best approach was to get demanding, ask lots of questions - seemed to gain his respect that way and the doors started opening ;o) Healing up beautifully, technicians were in awe today saying WOW what an improvement so I'm happy :o) All my latest is here http://www.tyler-davies.co.nz/CancerDiary.asp or trawl back through my last few days posts ;o) Thanks for popping in again - nice to hear from you ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:45 pm, 8 Jun


 2358.   Hi cburton

          Man you're having a rough time, they say bad things happen in 3's so its all up from here ;o) Best wishes to you, hope things improve ASAP xxx

soniat-d (153 )    9:47 pm, 8 Jun


 2359.   No worries boop2 LOL

          I think Paual and Josh are away all this week, back weekend maybe. Hope things are going OK - I think of them often too :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:48 pm, 8 Jun


 2360.   Hi Bogeyi

          How are the spots today? Glad you're getting treated next week - you certainly deserve it - lap it up! I sooooo enjoyed my facial - mmmmmmmm how soon can I go back?! LOL :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:50 pm, 8 Jun


 2361.     OK I'm off for a lie down soon ;o)

          Boop2's orders! LOL xxx

soniat-d (153 )    9:51 pm, 8 Jun


 2362.     Hi sonia, and everyone else...

          just barging in to say "Hi" and let you know I had a gorgeous little boy two weeks ago (25/5). We haven't quite settled on his name yet. Been calling him Lucas (my grandma's maiden name) to test the name on him but the other finalists are: Hudson, Finn and Jared. If I wasn't so technologically challenged I could post a link to a photo but I'm useless at stuff like that! Glad to hear your wound is healing nicely sonia. Sorry to interrupt your topic - I hope everyone else is doing well. I haven't had much free time lately so I haven't been able to read all your posts. Take care :o)

tishie (60 )    10:01 pm, 8 Jun


 2363.     spots seem ok

          we are back at hospital for the usual tomorrow, ryans asked for a trim tomorrow he said i dont like the curls at the back mum, so will post pics tomorrow.

bogeyi (482 )    10:04 pm, 8 Jun


 2364.     boop2 &sonia

          Thank u both. Boop2, we were getting the c/van ready 2 come down 2 SI West Coast, have mining licences down there on beach at Barrytown. Ooh MG I do hope that he comes right. Feel a little bit better spilling my feelings on MB. Thanks for your support. Sonia, good 2 hear youve susd out the radiologist. Sometimes the medical prof's forget what a mental/physical effect things have on us cancer patients, but dont get me wrong, they do a hell of a good job. LOLxxxx

cburton1 (60 )    10:04 pm, 8 Jun


 2365.     Yay Tishie you're back!

          I posted a few "Helloooo Tishie" threads in last week but you must have missed them - they fell like stones LOL. Great to hear all is OK ;o) I'm well too - big meeting tomorrow though (oncologist) - bit nervous!

soniat-d (153 )    10:06 pm, 8 Jun


 2366.     Thats for sure cburton ;o)

          Where are you at now, medically? Healing well?

soniat-d (153 )    10:08 pm, 8 Jun


 2367.     good luck tomorrow sonia will be leaving

          early so wont be able to say it in the morning....Paula and Josh thinking of you guys..

bogeyi (482 )    10:09 pm, 8 Jun


 2368.     soniat

          Keep your chin up, We'll all be thinking of u. LOL

cburton1 (60 )    10:10 pm, 8 Jun


 2369.     Yea Soniat

          Healing really well thanks. I'm off to surgeon on Monday afternoon to see what next, if anything, they're going to do. Cheers!!

cburton1 (60 )    10:13 pm, 8 Jun


 2370.     awww, shame I missed "my" threads!!

          Good luck for tomorrow sonia, I'm another one who'll be thinking of you too :o) I thought of all you lovely ladies tonight when I saw on the news about the strike - GRRRRR!!! Makes me mad that you get dicked around by the health system. Can't they sort their politics out without jeopardising people's treatment plans?! What are you doing up at this hour sonia if you've a big day ahead of you??!! Get to bed, missy! ;o) and on that note, I'm about to take my own advice....I'll be up in a few hours so I need my beauty sleep!

tishie (60 )    10:18 pm, 8 Jun


 2371.     Yep I'm off too

          Thanks everyone :o) Feels lovely knowing you're all thinking of me - and taking the time to say so ;o) Thinking of all you lovely people too ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    10:26 pm, 8 Jun


 2372.     Goodnight sonia get to bed at once.

          cburton we are quite away from Barrytown but will be a wee bit closer when we get to westport. I have said it before and I mean it all you ladies who are recovering are welcome to a few days at my house it is such a beautiful part of Nz and I would gladly put you up. There is only my husband and me we have 3 bedrooms in our soon to be house.

boop2 (106 )    10:33 pm, 8 Jun


 2373.     Morning Boop2 and everyone

          Yes it does sound lovely there - thats very nice of you ;o) Off soon, bye now

soniat-d (153 )    9:03 am, 9 Jun


 2374.     Hi sonia, good luck for today luv....I'll be

          thinking of you and just wish for all the best possible outcomes for you. You are one of lifes real little treasures, and have done such a lot for so many people, especially on here. Love and big hugs to you.....

joystik (281 )    9:12 am, 9 Jun


 2375.     ...

          You guys deserve to be higher than the second page! So I'm just doing a quick bump, and thinking of all of you. You're all truly amazing people! Jen

antmannz (26 )    11:34 am, 9 Jun


 2376.     Hi people

          Here I am back after a couple of busy days you know household chores boring. Went to dinner for grand daughter's 20th birthday Wednesday night. Good night out but I still get tired. Best wishes Sonia with your Dr's etc. Damn shame about the Radiologists strike. We have enough to cope with. I know of one woman going to Australia for treatment. Well keep smiling. Cheers.

icarus1989 (468 )    12:51 pm, 9 Jun


 2377.     I hate cancer

          hate it! took my mothers life at the age of 32 yrs and took my best friend at the age of 25! hate it!

lillucy (44 )    12:53 pm, 9 Jun


 2378.     My mom has cancer

          We thought she was cleared she had bowl cancer and two weeks after they found a lump in her breast - she has had two major ops-I just found out that she had severe headaches for two days and blood tests have revealed cancer in her blood-don't know what this means....the worst thing is she lives in another country!I am so sad I cannot be with her at this time.....

xcapie (46 )    12:59 pm, 9 Jun


 2379.     Hi ladies, sorry about your Mum xcapie.....

          and lillucy. I also lost my Mum to cancer 22 years ago at age 48. Sometimes lifes just not fair is is. And now I have cancer too, the same Breast Cancer that took my my. However it wont be taking me!! I am going to fight and beat this monster. Things have changed so much in the last 20 years and things are more advanced in medical fields. Woman are far more aware now days and have mammograms and things done much earlier, and still the success rate for cure is good, so at least we have that on our side as we fight on. Hugs to you both and your Mum too.....

joystik (281 )    1:20 pm, 9 Jun


 2380.     Good on you joystik

          for being so optimistic. I am dying inside because I am so far away from her , I lost a friend to cancer three weeks ago......you fight this girl!!!!!I will be praying for you!!!!

xcapie (46 )    1:25 pm, 9 Jun


 2381.   Ohhhh tishie, a wee baby boy...CONGRATULATIONS.

          Thanks for letting us know. I love all those names on your list. Have you settled on one yet?? Hope he's being a good little fella and letting you have enough sleep at night. Love to you all...

joystik (281 )    1:25 pm, 9 Jun


 2382.     Oh thanks so much xcapie....I have to start

          my chemo next thursday, so I still have a long way to go yet, but I am very optimistic, and have a positive attitude to the whole thing. It just comes as such a bolt from the blue when you are diagnosed. There are so many people out there with the horrible disaese, hopefully one day real soon we will be able take a preventative so this heartache can stop for ever. I think in NZ the odds are about 1 in 3 which is very high. Must be very difficult being so far from your Mum while she's sick. Is there any chance of you being able to go and see her at all?? Just to let her know you are out there and thinking of her would cheer her up no end. I know it does with me. I don't have any family where I live apart from my husband and 15 year old daughter. Keep smiling.....

joystik (281 )    1:33 pm, 9 Jun


 2383.     Thanks so much...

          She lives in South Africa so needless to say it will be a really long flight over there , she gets her results next Wednesday and I will decide based on the outcome.....you are so brave and I admire that about you, I am at work and every minute is sheer agony as all I feel like doing is going somewhere quiet and just bawling.....Big hugs to you and thanks for the encouraging words...I should be encouraging you.......

xcapie (46 )    1:39 pm, 9 Jun


 2384.     No problem....encouragement is good allround....

          She really is a long way away isnt she. Is she on email?? Does she have family over with her?? Waiting for results is a bit of a difficult time too. But we are all here for you to pop in and have a chat too. We're a friendly bunch in here all fighting a common cause, and we will all win in the end. Sometimes there are mountains to climb in the middle though before you get through the real tough stuff. I'll be thinking of you...

joystik (281 )    1:47 pm, 9 Jun


 2385.     Sonia, I hope all is going well with you?? I have

          not stopped thinking about you today....just cant get you out of my head. Hugs to you....I'm off out to dead head my lavender garden and then mow up all the leaves off the lawn....they do my head in!! Come inside on everyones shoes...yuk!! Talk again soon.. Love to you...

joystik (281 )    1:49 pm, 9 Jun


 2386.     YOU WILL BEAT THIS MONSTER

          Hello you sound very much like a older friend of mine who is fighting the monster at present. She has fought off four lots of cancer in her lifetime and is buggered if she is not going to win this round now too. It is her state of attitude and mind that have kept her alive and going and when she got diagnosed with it again she was so p--d off and said to herself and us all this bloody thing is not going to get. I lost lost some very loved people in my life to this incedious disease but none had the determination such as my older friend to beat it and I see it in you you have my friends determination and spirit.

clt (771 )    1:51 pm, 9 Jun


 2387.     She has all her family there

          so she will have heaps of support, just feeling it though as I am her only daughter and I have two younger brothers - both married , just not the same with men.Thanks once again for the support it means a lot! Will let you know the outcome....

xcapie (46 )    1:52 pm, 9 Jun


 2388.     Yes clt, thats one thing you do have to be......

          determined, and NO in your heart and mind that you can and will beat the thing. It is just that, incideous, and changes the lives of so many people every day. I am certain that I will be a much stronger and better person at the end of all this because of what you have to ge through to get well. It is a monsterous thing!! Thanks for posting,,,,hugs to you,...

joystik (281 )    1:56 pm, 9 Jun


 2389.     Will be good to see you again ......Just pop in

          for a chat anytime, we're always here. Keep your chin up luv and hope for the very best outcome like I will be for you too. Hugs to you.. Must go and mow my lawn now, so see you later.

joystik (281 )    1:58 pm, 9 Jun


 2390.     Hi all

          Well, had the big Oncology meeting this morning - what can I say, oncology meetings are rarely good! In some ways there was no-so-good news, in other ways hope, so overall I'm about the same coming out as going in, except a lot wiser about my options, so that's a good thing ;o) So, in a nutshell, some out-takes are: * The fact the cancer came back so soon (usually it happens a few years down track, not months as in my case!) is not good, means its a "pretty aggressive bugger" (his words). * I used the best chemo's they have and they didn't work as well as we'd have liked them to (understatement LOL). That said, there are some different types of chemo that work in different ways, and there are new drugs which taken together with them could work some magic by cutting off blood supply to the tumors or something. Its early days in research but indications are promising. I'd be a guinea pig it seems. * He felt my whole problem area and said "there's still some stuff there, but hard to tell whether swelling/scar

soniat-d (153 )    2:24 pm, 9 Jun


 2391.   Cont'd...

          ... tissue or remains of the lumps". Scans needed to ascertain what remains. Given a lot of other areas discussed, it makes sense to now wait the 4 weeks till the CT scan. [I will push Dr Benjamin on Monday that that be four weeks from today]. The lumps are definitely much smaller these days, for him to have said that by the way... Before the big radiation blasts, docs would just point straight at where the lumps are - they were so big, but not now! Also its only 3 weeks since mega blasts finished, so more improvements can still be hoped for. * Reason for caution with radiation blasts is that the body can only take so much, and the area "remembers it" for a long time afterwards. Doing a mega blast on a big area can mean the body never recovers (just falls apart or something), so that's why they do smaller areas as they did with me. Best thing to do from now is to wait until CT scan of whole area (and rest of body) to see what's what. I'm happy with that now that I understand that better. * Surgery is NOT a

soniat-d (153 )    2:25 pm, 9 Jun


 2392.     Cont'd...

          ... a good option, could make things worse, cancer may get into wound and it never heals etc. CT will determine feasibility. * We discussed Vitamin C injections and supplements etc. After much discussion, his final position was "they wont make the cancer worse, but they may help" so its OK (neither encouraged nor discouraged) to start trying the alternatives, best to take one supplement at a time for a while and see how I feel. So that's what I'll do. Here's the bible website on the topic (recommended to me by the Cancer Society), which I'll have another look at ASAP with the leads I have. * Finishing this radiation is the current plan, rest depends on next CT scan results, so I'll see him again in one month (i.e. shortly after the CT). All fingers and toes crossed please :o) It's not easy facing your own mortality, and this has been one of those days... Here's hoping for a better one tomorrow!

soniat-d (153 )    2:26 pm, 9 Jun


 2393.     Thanks everyone :o)

          You're so sweet Joystik ;o) Thanks! Feeling better with each hour, always a shock to the system these meetings. I'm bummed that surgery is less an option than I thought, but glad there is another chemo option. Happy to be a guinea pig!

soniat-d (153 )    2:28 pm, 9 Jun


 2394.     Thoughts with you Sonia

          You will win Sweetpea.

solarouge (46 )    2:28 pm, 9 Jun


 2395.   OK, must go collect the girls

          Lydia and neighbours daughter at a different nearby school, so collecting Lydia early. New thing for Fridays to help out neighbour whos started new job. I volunteered as it means free babysitting essentially this afternoon - Alicia is awesome with our two girls. She's 9, so I keep an ear on what they're doing, but can get chores done :o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:30 pm, 9 Jun


 2396.     Oh bible website I referred to in 2392 is

          http://www.mskcc.org/mskcc/html/11570.cfm Thanks Solarouge ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:33 pm, 9 Jun


 2397.     hey sonia big hugs to you.......its ok you can

          jump on our roller coaster ride and ride with us, i like to think of it this way as i love roller coaster rides...i know im weird.Ryans appointment went the same counts ok Neutraphils up a wee bit but will need platelets on Monday.Sonia, Ryans FA is the same they have to be so precise with chemo/radiation as there bodies crumble if it is to strong (medical term) as FA have a breakage in a chromosone and it can be fatal.

bogeyi (482 )    3:08 pm, 9 Jun


 2398.     hugs for sonia

          x

miked10 (227 )    3:21 pm, 9 Jun


 2399.     x...

          x

miked10 (227 )    3:22 pm, 9 Jun


 2400.          x...

          x

miked10 (227 )    3:22 pm, 9 Jun


2401.         Just jumped in here to see if twinkies has been

          about. Obviously not today. But go caught reading some posts. Hats off to ALL of you in here. And best of luck sonia. You're all very strong people. Twinkies...if you see this I'm looking for you!!!!! Email me.

luke_83au (2 )    3:35 pm, 9 Jun


 2402.         Oh sonia what a day for you...my heart is really

          out there for you. What a lot to have to take in and go through yet. But there is good news and better news there isn't there. Sometimes surgery is not the very best option but we have to let the people the know best make those decisions. Just know for sure that we are all out here for you every step of the way as you continue on this roller coaster ride. Mine is only just beginning too, so I will always be here with you.

joystik (281 )    3:53 pm, 9 Jun


 2403.         I thought while I was happily mowing my lawn....

          at how ridiculous it was to be so pissed off, by wet leaves on the kitchen floor!! But some days it takes a lot less than that, and I'm happy now its all done and the section looks real tidy again. I think the main thing was wanting to prove to myself mainly that I can still do all the things I used to do, like mow the lawns, and I even had a wee dig in the garden.....

joystik (281 )    3:56 pm, 9 Jun


 2404.         hi joystik you to can jump on my

          roller coaster ride the more the merrier.

bogeyi (482 )    3:56 pm, 9 Jun


 2405.         Thanks bogeyi....think I'm on it already......

          waiting for my first chemo next thursday....slightly aprehensive I guess, and not really looing forward to what comes next but I know you have to take the good with the bad to get better. Looking forward to the day this is all behind me. Lauren said this morning on her was out to college, you wont get too sick with chemo mum cos I been saying my prayers and god will help you. Glad I've got that extra help!! Hugs to you and Ryan....

joystik (281 )    4:05 pm, 9 Jun


 2406.      Thanks everyone :o)

          Yep its a rocking rollercoaster alright! Yep count me in! Thanks all fine now, but wishing I'd asked about my aching joints - my left ankle is really sore now, being left ankle I'm thinking thats too far away to be cancer this soon, even by my cancer's rate LOL I have sore neck, left thumb, and left ankle - wierd! Anyway the 3 girls are having a ball so I'm off soon to potter around, get a few things done so I can relax this evening - that's the plan!

soniat-d (153 )    4:11 pm, 9 Jun


 2407.      Lauren sounds like a real sweetie Joystik ;o)

          I know how you're feeling about the impending chemo - been there! Try not to worry, it will be over pretty soon - seemed to go quickly for me, even with the awful second stuff. Remember you don't feel nautious the whole time, and the anti-nausia meds these days are brilliant. Just take note of what you feel in first few days, and what you're taking, you'll find you'll tweak things a bit each time until you get the optimum mix for you ;o) Oh, and remember to stock up on ginger things (ginger ale/beer, gingernuts... they work a treat!)

soniat-d (153 )    4:16 pm, 9 Jun


 2408.         Thanks Luke and Mike ;o)

          Man this thread is doing well! (((((Hugs to you all))))) You really are a huge suppport base to me, as I hope I am to you. Cheers :o)

soniat-d (153 )    4:18 pm, 9 Jun


 2409.      Yikes bogeyi

          Bodies crumbling and the chromosome thing sounds scary - I'm understanding the doctor's approaches all the more as I learn more going through all this. It fascinating and depressing at the same time! LOL

soniat-d (153 )    4:31 pm, 9 Jun


 2410.         The oncologist has prescribed zofran, maxilon and

          another drug called Dexamethasone which is I think, a steroid?? I have to ake it all with me on thursday and they will tell me how to take what when, just until I get into the swing of things. Thats shouldnt take long...after all there is only 6 doses, so I am lucky really. Got to count your blessings every day I think, and if you think you are hard done by, have a think about a few other paople you know....it helps to put things into perspective, well for me anyway..

joystik (281 )    5:26 pm, 9 Jun


 2411.      They're all the same ones I took Joystik ;o)

          Worked a treat :o) Just check with the steroid, that they give you a programme where you cut down gradually in last couple of days, down to one then half a tablet - otherwise you fall down with an almighty crash! Well I did anyway (and I'm usually not a crashing sort ;o) and I think I remember Landylass having the same experience!They seem to have a "lets see how they respond" attitude with the steroids like we're lab mice LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    5:46 pm, 9 Jun


 2412.         Hi sonia

          I found it really interesting about the new chemo drugs, that cut off the blood supply, I read about these drugs and they sound most promising, great they are putting you in a research trial.When you go to see Benji on Monday, tell him everything that was said at your Oncology meeting, another opinion is a good thing. Thanks for the Cancer site also, it's great, first thing I looked up was colloidal silver and it does turn you grey LOL....hugs Di

kelsall (222 )    5:51 pm, 9 Jun


 2413.      Thanks Kelsall :o)

          Yes will definately check with Benji on Monday ;o) I'm glad I decided to type it all down as soon as I got home - so I'll remember it all! Guess I should be glad that they're trying other options before surgery, I'm not scared of surgery, but have come to like the way I look now, wasn't quite adjusted to losing another big chunk of me so soon! It's funny haw the surgeon told me it'll be radiation then surgery, and the oncologist is saying it'll be radiation then chemo LOL. Will definaetly ask Dr Benjamin - he'll no doubt say its radiation then more radiation LOL

soniat-d (153 )    5:59 pm, 9 Jun


 2414.         soniat-d

          and to you all as well. I feel like I know you all. I have been thinking of you today and telling my friends about your journeys. If your stories save one more life then thank goodness. I wish there was something I could do to help you all... My thoughts are with you all...you brave wonderful woman. Love christine. xx

gregp3 (5 )    6:19 pm, 9 Jun


 2415.         Hi...

          It will be really interesting to hear what he has to say. I just have a lot of faith in him, seen him cure some people that did not have a good prognosis. I finally plucked up enough courage to ring for my mammogram and appointment, it's on the 23rd, I was forced to, a friend gave me an ultimatum, "Either ring the clinic in the next two days, or I am going to ring your Daughter and tell her". LOL.

kelsall (222 )    6:26 pm, 9 Jun


 2416.         Sonia-d

          and to everyone else here fighting the same battle.. I am a mere male, but want to offer my support and best wishes to you all ... even hugs to you as well.. I am speaking as one who has been there and done that ( about three years ago). Not breast cancer for me but I have a strong empathy for the fight you are involved with ... Most evenings I find myself seeking out this thread and willing you all to beat this bug !!

farmerlloyd (23 )    8:35 pm, 9 Jun


2417.         I am afraid I am very teary tonight

          after reading this. Sonia my brave little friend you will beat it I have no doubt about that. It is going to be along wait for you this next month I just hope we can all help you. ((((((((hugs and more of them)))))))))))Bet

boop2 (106 )    9:03 pm, 9 Jun


 2418.         Hi joystick

          I understand what you mean about needing to do the things you have always done . You are so positive and wise. That was lovely from Lauren I bet it bought a tear to the eye.Hugs

boop2 (106 )    9:09 pm, 9 Jun


 2419.         cancer sux

          Love and hugs to you Sonia. My beast is now dead, and I know yours will be too. Your beast just needed bigger heavier weapons, but it will die in the end. All our loving vibes to you, from our network on Cancer Sux, will help. Love to joystik too, we are all with you, every day. P.S. I bet when you started this thread, Sonia, you had no idea how it would take off. I read it every night.

dize5 (452 )    9:09 pm, 9 Jun


 2420.         Hi lillucy and xcapie

          you must be feeling terrible it is such a bl##dy awful thing. I hope the outcome on your mum is good you probably feel it more being so far away. hugs to you both.

boop2 (106 )    9:12 pm, 9 Jun


 2421.         Hi bogeyi and ryan

          That roller coaster will slow down soon and I am sure you can hop off. How you doing Ryan? Did you get those curls cut off ?They looked neat.

boop2 (106 )    9:14 pm, 9 Jun


 2422.      Wow thanks Farmerlloyd and Dize5

          Thanks for your lovely posts :o) So true about starting this thread LOL, I was sure it would die a death like my previous threads have LOL. Must be the heading - its a shame that so many can identify with it :o/ !!! But lovely to receive such support! I was just saying to a very good friend of mine who is about the only one that keeps calling, emailing etc how now that I have my regular diary on my webpage, none of my friends/family call anymore, they just check the webpage (guess this is kind of old news now). Whereas you guys - WOW, you're so awesome! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! xxxxxxx

soniat-d (153 )    9:25 pm, 9 Jun


 2423.         sonja

          if you still want some kombucha starter let me know. There is a lady in Murrays bay that has some for you

cinnar (284 )    9:26 pm, 9 Jun


 2424.      Whoops LOL! Sorry Gregp3

          Thank you to you too ;o) Yep I'm hoping this will save someone from all this - glad you've finally made a booking Kelsall!

soniat-d (153 )    9:27 pm, 9 Jun


 2425.      Hi cinnar

          Hey, my brain is mush tonight - whats kombucha starter again???

soniat-d (153 )    9:28 pm, 9 Jun


 2426.         lol

          thats ok, its the mushroom. You started it on another thread. Just when you are ready if you still want some

cinnar (284 )    9:30 pm, 9 Jun


 2427.         Kombucha tea

          starter

cinnar (284 )    9:30 pm, 9 Jun


 2428.      Hey Kelsall

          Do you recall the names of those chemo drugs - he didn't tell me that name. Would be interesting to find out a little more about it!?!

soniat-d (153 )    9:32 pm, 9 Jun


 2429.      Was that me????

          LOL not ringing any bells! Is that to fight cancer then?

soniat-d (153 )    9:33 pm, 9 Jun


 2430.         yeah

          heres the thread http://www.trademe.co.nz/Community/MessageBoard/Messages.aspx?id=10173343&threadid=10173343

cinnar (284 )    9:37 pm, 9 Jun


 2431.      Hi Joystik :o)

          Sorry its been a busy day and a busy thread! Thanks so much sweetie - hey were you going to try those wigs today? Or was that postponed? I'm making the big trip to the hairdresser tomorrow afternoon to get my "hair" (LOL) trimmed and dyed, to see if that makes it a bit more presentable! Should be fun ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:38 pm, 9 Jun


 2432.      Thats no me! LOL

          Thats sonja1 - I'm soniat-d ;o) Whew! Was really wondering about the state of my brain!

soniat-d (153 )    9:39 pm, 9 Jun


 2433.         ok...

          had me going then too! Sorry to hear your day wasnt great. Keep fighting, i think youre awesome!

cinnar (284 )    9:48 pm, 9 Jun


 2434.         Hee hee :o)

          Thanks cinnar ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    10:04 pm, 9 Jun


 2435.      Hi everyone

          We're back. I felt so tired when we got home and now I've caught up on the last 5 days on here I feel for you all. I dont know where to start. Iguess first I just want to say Sonia - you are such a darling! What a day you've had. I have been thinking of you so much. We are going to catch up in July no matter what!! Joystik - we are in awe of you too. With the upcoming treatment we are going to cross paths sooner or later and if not at the hospital we are going to come and find you. Landylass - what a lovely person you are. made our day meeting you. Joshi was rapt, seeing you had a port too. It was so great chatting face to face. Thanks for having us. Bogeyi - I have a ticket for the roller coaster, we want on too.Couldnt believe reading your posts, you too have had a week of it. Also today I have found Joshi's got red spots on his neck??? What the ???? Am watching carefully. Boop2 - Hi, havent opened your special message to Joshi yet. Will do that tomorrow. :o)

paulaxx (75 )    10:11 pm, 9 Jun


 2436.      Cont...

          I do hope I havent missed anyone - you are all so special to me/us. I thought about you all so much. Going back to the Childs Cancer Ward SUCKED!!! It all came flooding back, so many children in there! Its not right!!! They were so pleased to see us back. It was moving. Not really a place you want to feel welcomed! Anyway he got his chemo wednesday and with the orals he gets that made it three lots. That night was hideous he looked terrible and of course that bought it all back too. Thought we may have ended up back in the hosp. Then he was crying in pain for over an hour. Finally I got him off to sleep.Poor lamb. Tuesdays assessment went well, the lady was a psychologist and was öne of those beautiful people". She was great. Said he was a very bright boy and that was too his advantage after suffering the major brain hemmorhage. He is definately showing signs of struggling in certain areas. Another wake up for me/us. Poor kid as if having cancer isnt bad enough. Still the day on Thurs went well, he was exhau

paulaxx (75 )    10:18 pm, 9 Jun


 2437.      Cont...

          he was exhausted of course and found it hard but still did well. So it was well worth it. Still one day at a time. I hope you are all snuggled up in bed and tomorrow is a better day. Load of love and hugs to you all - my friends xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxoxoxxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxx oxoxoxox

paulaxx (75 )    10:20 pm, 9 Jun


 2438.         Hi paula glad to see you back here

          http://images.trademe.co.nz/photoserver/83/22698283_full.jpg Ryans shorter hair dosent look like much off but heaps on the floor much lighter for him

bogeyi (482 )    10:25 pm, 9 Jun


 2439.      bogeyi

          Your boys are so gorgeous. Has Ryans hair come back wavy then? Joshi's seems to be taking a while this time to grow - maybe too cold down here lol. It is a lot darker though.

paulaxx (75 )    10:35 pm, 9 Jun


 2440.         He had thick straight hair and now he has

          thick culy hair, when its wet its those tiny tight curls.

bogeyi (482 )    10:37 pm, 9 Jun


 2441.         Thats

          incredible. How is he? And you too? What are these red spots?? Did the hosp say anything. Josh's blood were all pretty good so I know its not that p starting word that describes those wee red spots??? Looks a bit like them tho?

paulaxx (75 )    10:50 pm, 9 Jun


 2442.         I FEEL SO MUCH FOR YOU ALL

          I have been reading some of these posts on this thread tonight and it made me cry. God it is not bloody fair what some of you are facing at present. My girlfriend lost her husband late last year to this wicked disease and I am without friends and family to this disease also. 10 close people in 3 years to be precise so there is a load of anger and hatred for this disease inside of me. I think you are all so brave and wondeful and as I said in a earlier post you are going to fight this monster like my dear friend is doing now. My heart goes out to all of you on this thread battling to fight cancer and the lady with her ill child I feel gutted for you as I many years ago spent a deal of time in a cancer ward with young children and it still haunts me now. I had nothing but admiration and love for the nurses and staff who cared for the children. I am going to keep a regular watch on this thread to see how you are all going. A close friend who won over this disease says that chemo is not as bad after a few

clt (771 )    11:00 pm, 9 Jun


 2443.         he doing ok, eating heaps weight is piling on

          these spots look like them but they arent, thank goodness.Hows josh feeling today.

bogeyi (482 )    11:00 pm, 9 Jun


 2444.         Paula, so good to see you back.....I've missed you

          and Josh. Glad things went well for you up there. Yes, I get a sudden burst of 'I feel great' when I look at some other poor people that are suffering with this. Look forward to chatting tomorrow. I've been to another make up party tonight and now I must got to bed. Mowed the lawns too, so I'm tired as, and will sleep well. Big warm Southland hugs to you all in your house......Did I say I missed you???

joystik (281 )    11:03 pm, 9 Jun


 2445.         Sonia, the wig lady was sick so didn't want to

          see me til next week. Good thinking I guess. So now its wednesday. Good night....sleep tight....Hugs to you too....

joystik (281 )    11:04 pm, 9 Jun


 2446.         Sonia

          Keep your chin up!! (Easier to say than do, I know) and to all others on this thread. Nice to see new people coming in and wishing their good luck to all. Lots of hugs xxxoooxxxooo

cburton1 (60 )    11:29 pm, 9 Jun


 2447.      Nanite Joystik

          I truly missed you too. Nanite everyone sleep well xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    11:31 pm, 9 Jun


 2448.         Hi Paula :o)

          Yay! You're back! Wish it wsn't such a yucky week for you, I was thinking of you and Josh soooooo often, and just quietly, I now know now for sure that we are going to meet in Auckland (wink wink ;o) Can't wait! Words escape me for the week you've had, I'm truly lost for words... So glad you got to meet Landylass - I'm jealous! (Hows it going Landylass?). ((((((((((Hugs)))))))))) to Joshi - hope he had a better night last night xxxxxxoxoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    8:46 am, 10 Jun


 2449.      Hi clt ;o)

          Thanks for popping in and posting and saying all that you did :o) Really appreciate it! (((((((Group hug everyone)))))))) ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:49 am, 10 Jun


 2450.         Hugs to you too cburton :o)

          I'm hoping things improve for you soon ;o) xoxo

soniat-d (153 )    8:50 am, 10 Jun


2451.         Good morning Bogeyi and Joystik and others ;o)

          We all had a big sleep-in this morning, had better get everyone moving or the whole morning will be lost! Getting my hair cut and coloured this afternoon - see what miracles that can accomplish! Getting girls hair trimmed too. Visiting friends this morning... Have a nice day all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:52 am, 10 Jun


 2452.         You'll feel great after getting your hair done

          just getting out and about will be good and it's such a lovely day too.I've just been catching up on your diary/webpage and wow you've been through a lot of stress these last few months.Good to see your specialist is approachable and you're getting answers.Anyhow.. thinking of you today.Hugs Winnie

winnie15 (107 )    9:24 am, 10 Jun


 2453.      Good Morning Everyone

          We too had a bit of a sleep in. Sonia - cant wait either.Hope you have a lovely day with the girls getting your hair done. Bogeyi - Josh is on those steroids - Dexamethasone. So weight is piling on him too. These make him so grumpy - he can hear himself saying awful things and just doesnt want to be like that. Its horrible. We dont get a gradual weaning off them either its 7 a day for 5 days then stop. Boop - We just opened your message together and Joshi and I held each other crying. Thanks so much it meant so much to us. Probably going to be like that - bit emotional - always worse when your tired! YOU ALL ARE SO SPECIAL TO US. YOUR THOUGHTS AND LOVING MESSAGES WHILE WE WERE AWAY MEAN THE WORLD. Hi to everyone else too thinking of you all as always xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    9:40 am, 10 Jun


 2454.         Hi ladies, another beautiful day here in paradise

          We had the big sleep in too...didnt get up til nearly 9am. Flat out now getting all the washing out while its sunny and breezy. Paula they are the same steroids that I will be on too. Ohhh weight gain...dont need that since I have lost 6kg already. (mind you some of that is in 2 boobs that I no longer have!!) Hope you have a lovely day today. Sonia, hope the hair session goes well. I always feel great after I have been to the hair dressers, and you will too I'm sure. You've had so much to put up with. Hi Bogeyi and Ryan, hope your spots have gone and you have a fun day. Morning Boop...got anice day on the coast today?? Bet you have, its usually nice there. Hugs to you all and see you soon....

joystik (281 )    9:46 am, 10 Jun


 2455.      Joystik

          I'm not too sure whether those steroids will affect you in the way it does Joshi. It just stimulates his appetite something chronic. He cant fill up. I try to watch what we gets into him but when he doesnt normally like most things, when he finds something he does enjoy, well for a week we buy it in bulk. Tee Hee You have a lovely day too. Lots a love

paulaxx (75 )    10:23 am, 10 Jun


 2456.         morning all.....well i had a crappy sleep woke

          at 2am with a migraine (i get really sick with these)i have only got rid of it about half an hour ago but still feel yuk.Paula the fuuny thing is Ryans not on steroids hes just being piggy, he has always been little and peite part of FA when he went to transplant last Nov he was 7 weighing 17kg, nearly 7 months later he weighed in yesterday at 25.20kg.....lol

bogeyi (482 )    12:54 pm, 10 Jun


 2457.         sonia darling

          hope you are feeling better after your day at the hairdresser always does wonders for me, chin up darling you will beat this terrible thing, you are so strong and courages and my thoughts are with you hugs to you xx

pomegal (91 )    1:36 pm, 10 Jun


 2458.      Thanks Pomegal :o)

          I'm off soon to interview an elderly uncle-in-law for Family Tree - finish his story which we started just before this whole nightmare began (my he has some fabulous stories ;o) then straight to hairdressers. Have more to say on threads above, but will have to leave it till later ;o) Must go... Hope everyones having a nice day ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:46 pm, 10 Jun


 2459.      Hi all

          Oh Bogeyi, I hope you are feeling better. Yuck migraines are so not good!!! Hope someone can help you out today so you dont have to do everything! Josh still has those red spots no more no less?? Its a mystery. Sonia how interesting, I love talking to older people they all have so much to tell. Hope you are feeling ok today. love to you all

paulaxx (75 )    3:58 pm, 10 Jun


 2460.         paula do feel a bit better but really zonked

          as i hardly slept, made some yummy pumpkin soup for dinner with fresh rolls......yummmmmmmmmmmm

bogeyi (482 )    4:21 pm, 10 Jun


 2461.      OH YUM

          I can smell the roast ram a lam a ding dong cooking from here and I cant wait. Been feeling a bit piggy myself lately. Glad your feeling a bit better.

paulaxx (75 )    4:28 pm, 10 Jun


 2462.         Good to have you back Paula and Joshi

          as you can see we all missed you so much. You have had a horrible week by the sounds of it one bright thing was meeting landylass.Have a good rest and a nice roast dinner ( lucky things) This shifting house is keeping me so busy I only pop in and out again/.

boop2 (106 )    7:26 pm, 10 Jun


 463.         hi sonia

          If you are anything like me you will fall asleep getting your hair done I think it is so relaxing. Thinking of you a lot sonia take care. Hugs to you and the girls

boop2 (106 )    7:28 pm, 10 Jun


 2464.         Hi joystick

          we have had rain and sun today ,not a bad day really. You are working hard too I guess work helps keep your mind off your chemo next week. Love to you and Lauren take care.

boop2 (106 )    7:32 pm, 10 Jun


 2465.         Hi bogeyi

          Your boys are gorgeous just like mine used to be. I had 14 months between my two. How much between your boys? Love to you all. Take care bogey it is a helluva ride.xx

boop2 (106 )    7:35 pm, 10 Jun


 2466.         Hi ladies

          Sorry I havent posted for so long. I have read through the postings, laughing and crying What a journey we are all going through, whether it be suffering fromthe monster or watching our loved ones go through this.We have been very busy here.We went away for the long weekend to the coromandel and it was great. Hubby bought a new kite fishing contiki so he can do it by himself. he cannot go out fishing by himself as if he has a seizure no one is there. The boys were excited to be aty the beach too. Sonia how is your brother in law? I am thinking of you all and pray for all cancer sufferers every night. Take care. PS Our next appointment is June 29th with the neurosurgeon and from here we go on the waiting list.

churpy (131 )    8:24 pm, 10 Jun


 2467.         Hi Boop, we had the most fabulous day here.....

          it was ovely and warm just like spring. So I did washing for Africa. Sheets, duvet covers, even put the feathers out to have a flap in the breeze. It all smells so nice after a day in the fresh air. It is supposed to rain tomorrow though so maybe the calm before the storm. Sherri told me you are busy cleaning your new house. Is it right in Westport?? Sherri and Ray will miss having you next door. Have a great evening boop and enjoy the rugby later. Hugs to you.

joystik (281 )    8:26 pm, 10 Jun


 2468.      snap bogeyi

          i made pumpkin soup too lol and a fresh loaf of bread yummmmy

pomegal (91 )    8:29 pm, 10 Jun


 2469.      Finally back - Hi all ;o)

          Have to type up all our great uncle said tonight and go back and continue with him tomorrow - he has soooo much to say ;o) It was actually his birthday today! 92 :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:31 pm, 10 Jun


 2470.      Hi Churpy :o)

          Wishing you all the best for the 29th, I've been thinking of you. Still haven't managed to call Marshall yet, you've just reminded me I must do. Its been hectic here - so much for taking it easy! LOL

soniat-d (153 )    8:33 pm, 10 Jun


 2471.         Hi bogeyi, migraines are no fun at all....

          Lauren got them for a whle when she was very young, about 3 or 4 and it was discovered she had a terrible urine infection!! She had it 4 months with no symptoms except the migraines which were happening every 28 days for 2 or 3 days. She ended up being admitted to hospital to see what was wrong, and that was what they found. She also had a hole in her heart when she was born but it was very minor and has repaired its self now. Hope you and yours are having a good day and the spots have retreated to somewhere else. Did you get your hair done too?? Hugs to you all ......

joystik (281 )    8:33 pm, 10 Jun


 2472.         Hi Joystik :o)

          I just wanted to say, from earlier posts by others, that the steroids did NOT increase my weight, it was the second lot of chemo. I took steroids through both types of chemo, put only started packing it on after I started the Taxotere chemo. So I gues everyone's different ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:35 pm, 10 Jun


 2473.         boop there is 3yrs 6mths between them

          but both are about the same height, ryan is more chunkier.Joystik your right no fun at all still feel sick will go to bed after ryan has his last meds at 9pm.

bogeyi (482 )    8:36 pm, 10 Jun


 2474.         Hello sonia...you are such a busy wee thing......

          Old people are so fascinating arent they. Just a shame we only work all that out when the old people have almost all died. Kevin has an elderly Auntie and Uncle in Pakuranga who are both well into their 90's and we keep saying we should visit them, but don't make enough effort. We were talking tonight over dinner and have dcided that after my treatment, things are going to change and we are going to be doing all the things we have put off. And will do all the overdue visits. Gee sonia, you might see us yet!!

joystik (281 )    8:37 pm, 10 Jun


 2475.         Damn, have to go already, girls scrieching (sp?)

          Have my new own hair - amazing what some colour does, looks like I have so much more! Its very short, but looks cool ;o) It IS very cool too! Brrrrr either I have to buy some warm caps, or will still be wearing wig outside! ;o) Bye for now xx

soniat-d (153 )    8:38 pm, 10 Jun


 2476.      P.S Sonia

          I loved the party photos!!! Your outfit was fantastic!! Looked like a great night.

churpy (131 )    8:40 pm, 10 Jun


 2477.         Funny how you change your attitude to lots of

          everyday things when you are confronted by this beast. You just have to make the most of everyday things and not wait for a few more years for anything. We will probably sell a house and just do what we have always wanted to do rather than wait any longer. We think we will do a Ship cruise early next year. Cant wait!!

joystik (281 )    8:41 pm, 10 Jun


 2478.         So sonia, is your hair about like Kylie minogues..

          now?? About that length?? She looks fabulous I reckon. How long has it taken for yours to get back to that from when you finished your chemo?? Did you have it styled and coloured today? Would you go without your wig now?? I'm not wantingto seem nosey,but I am very interested, if you know what I mean...

joystik (281 )    8:44 pm, 10 Jun


 2479.      HI all

          Ive been having a bit of a day today - emotional. Its so hard some days knowing the one thing you wanted so badly is sick!I just cant put a plaster on it. I am so lucky he is doing so well, yet feel so sad. Was just talking to my mum and she works with people who have brain damage etc and her husband suffered a brain hemmorhage so she was a great listener.Hearing from the psychologist that Josh is struggling with some stuff has really hit home and I just want to scoop him up and make him better. (It would be a big scoop and you'd all fit too). But we are in it for the long haul. I have had to come to terms with the fact that Josh has changed, I am so grateful I have him. I am so sorry I just needed to get it out. Bogeyi I hope you get a better nights sleep and feel so much better tomorrow. Take care of you!! xo

paulaxx (75 )    8:44 pm, 10 Jun


 2480.         Hi Joystik

          I agree with yu 100%. We now treat evryday as a gift and if we want to do something we do it! A cruise sounds fab!! Go do it! :)

churpy (131 )    8:46 pm, 10 Jun


 2481.      Joystik

          Sounds so neat planning for all the things you can do when you are finished treatment. Good on you guys!! You all deserve the best. Enjoy the planning.

paulaxx (75 )    8:47 pm, 10 Jun


 2482.         paula big hugs to you

          i so know how you feel, i have asked myself lots lately why us what did we do, to get through a transplant and then facing a second is all to much somedays.I do love how i can come on here and vent and some pressure is releived.

bogeyi (482 )    8:52 pm, 10 Jun


 2483.      Thanks Boges

          I know IT TRUELY SUX!! Thanks everyone you are all amazing. Bogey its nearly 9pm. Then you can put your head down for the day. xo

paulaxx (75 )    8:54 pm, 10 Jun


 2484.         Paula, I just feel so much for you...it is just

          terrible for any parent to have to see their own child so ill and so bravely fighting on. You just seem so helpless, but at tleast there is hope for him to get better which is just great. You just never expect it at any stage - it always seems to be other people, then suddenly you are the other person. For me it was like being wacked in the forehead with a 4 x 2, several times. Now, even before I begin my Chemo, I can see light at the end of the tunnel, and it doesnt seem so bad. I know I have a lot to go thru yet and I know losing my hair will be awful when it does happen, but I also know that I WILL get better and so have to put up with these other things meantime. I just love my friends on here so much for the support they have been to me, and I know I can rely on people that know what its like climbing this mountain.. Special hugs to you all Paula....xxxxx

joystik (281 )    8:58 pm, 10 Jun


 2485.         I have a date with Kev now to watch the rugby...

          he doesnt really want to but I do, so he is going to. Think we might have 1 drink together!! Aint love grand??? Love and hugs to you all. Have a good sleep and wake up feeling alive and happy in the morning.....Bye...

joystik (281 )    9:03 pm, 10 Jun


 2486.      Joystik

          Thanks so much. Your right its so weird when its all of a sudden happening to you! Sometimes I still feel like I'm in a bubble watching it all happen around me. We are positive and I am sure it all helps with Joshi's recovery so far. He would be devastated to think I felt sad for him. That makes it harder. We are not religious people, we have our beliefs though. Tonight I found a note Cassie had written in a 5 year old writing and I could read it so clear... tonight i am gowing to pray to god that Josh gets better. Isnt that so cool! You are all so special to me. Thanks for being there for us xxx

paulaxx (75 )    9:03 pm, 10 Jun


 2487.      I just

          wanted to add that now my husband Chris comes on here and check up on you all. He is getting something out of this too. The psychologist asked me how we were doing and if we had seen anybody for us. To help with what we are going through. We both said no, and she was so lovely and said that she needed to say to us that it would be in every bodies best interest to see someone just to help us as its been a rocky road. We think we will, can only do us good. We want and need to walk this path together. So thats a positive :O)

paulaxx (75 )    9:06 pm, 10 Jun


 2488.         Kids are so spontaneous sometimes....

          I said in an earlier post about Lauren looking at me across the breakfast table on Friday morning and said "Mum, you wont get too sick on your Chemo, cos I have been saying my prayers and have asked God not to let you get too sick, cos you are special" Kool aye. We are not religious either but I believe there is a higher power out there. But surprisingly, Lauren has really had nothing to do with religion as such, and suddenly comes out with stuff like this. I love her to bits.....

joystik (281 )    9:08 pm, 10 Jun


 2489.      Same for us

          But both our kids seem very connected with something very special. Oh Joystik thats beautiful, well she's yours that says it all. Yay - thanks I'm smiling again now xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    9:11 pm, 10 Jun


 2490.      Enjoy

          the special time with Kev. Cheers, happy times ahead xo

paulaxx (75 )    9:13 pm, 10 Jun


 2491.         Hi Paula :o)

          Awwww ((((((hugs)))))) my dear. I feel so much for you guys, even with what we're dealing with I can't quite fathom how you feel. I can relate to the bubble thing though - I so feel like that, quite often actually, and then I have a meeting with a specialist and BAM the bubbles gone. Think thats where you are at now after the yucky week (understatement)?! Its simply not fair!

soniat-d (153 )    9:32 pm, 10 Jun


 2492.         Hi Joystik ;o)

          You're sounding great! Yes I soooo want to do an OE ASAP, if only there was a break in these treatments. Still hoping for one later this year. Yes the hairs like Kylie M's now, slightly darker colour (reddish brown). He cut all the fuzzy ends off - it was longer. Looks quite funky ;o) Think my face needs longer hair, but can kind of pull it off! Yes went around the mall afterwards with my wig in a carrybag ;o) When I got outside though - brrrrrr! Need to buy me a couple of cool wooly caps to see me through. Kind of ready to ditch the wig ;o) for the mo anyway. May be needing it again in a few months! The hair grows at the normal rate once it gets started, and when its this short - its doesn't seem fast enough! I'm stoked today though ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:37 pm, 10 Jun


 2493.      Hugs to you too bogeyi

          And the migraine too! I get those, they're the pits, I end up in A&E every time. ((((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    9:39 pm, 10 Jun


 2494.         Sorry to everyone else - HELLO :o)

          Sorry, but I HAVE to go and type up this interview while fresh in my head - time is marching on! Night all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:40 pm, 10 Jun


 2495.      Thanks Sonia

          I bet you look absolutely gorgeous. Yes bubble burst thats it. A new day is nearly here. Nanite my friend - sweet dreams. Love to all.xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    9:59 pm, 10 Jun


 2496.         good morning all

          I had a good nights sleep and feel much better, hope all is well with you guys this morning.

bogeyi (482 )    9:05 am, 11 Jun


 2497.      Hi Paula and everyone :o)

          Yep took me ages to get through all the interview (which I recorded), to type up all the good outtakes from it (finished 11.40pm!?). My interview got cut short by the women in the next bed complaining that she wanted to sleep even though it was still 2 hours left of visiting hours?! Tom's a bit loud when he talks to me LOL his hearing is challenged and I have to shout questions in his ear for him to hear then he talks loudly back to me ;o) So I sympathised with the lady ;o) Anyway, I enjoy this stuff and its amazing how much life has changed in the last 90 years - unbelievable! Makes me realise how non-rediculous those future fantasy movies that Hollywood put on might actually be! Anyway, reason I'm gunning with it now is he lives waaaay up North which takes almost an hour to drive to, then back, and the talks take several hours (big time committment when you have young ones you're leaving behind) and now he's in local hospital just minutes away - expected to be discharged Monday. It's just an ankle injury fr

soniat-d (153 )    9:12 am, 11 Jun


 2498.      Hi bogeyi ;o)

          Glad you had a good sleep - think we're all three of us having down days at the mo, after all the typing last night my whole affected area got all stiff and hard and I freaked a bit and started crying and ran to bed. #sigh# Feels better this morning. Gotta take it easy eh?! (((((hugs))))) to you and Paula, and my other lovely friends on here :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:15 am, 11 Jun


 2499.         Morning Bogeyi and Sonia

          Glad you are feeling better Bogeyi and Sonia hope I didnt bring you down last night. Its full moon again tomorrow - wonder if thats why I feel so blucky! I am sure it affects me! Anyway that dear old man sounds wonderful Sonia and I once again am in awe of you, doing this. You are very committed! I hope your sore bits are better today. Its cold and rainy here.Josh has got a sore throat and a bit of a cough! No temperature yet but when on steroids they dont show.Not panicking yet... Think I might go and have a game of scrabble with Josh. Cass wants to use the computer. Think back 90 years - who would of thought 5 years olds would be doing that! Old people are so amazing, have a great day everyone. Love to you all xoxo

paulaxx (75 )    10:10 am, 11 Jun


 2500.      2497 contd...

          ....from slipping while clearing a drain - how impressive is that for 92?! Its funny how I started all this Family Tree thing years ago thinking it was such a great idea as I'd get so much further with it in my lifetime, and then last night I realised that this 92 year old man my be attending MY funeral?! That was a bubble-bursting moment!

soniat-d (153 )    10:17 am, 11 Jun