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CANCER SUXS!!!!!!!
Yep, the monster looks like its back, and brought its kiddies too. I haven't even finished my radiation and 6 new lumps found, biopsies taken, results tomorrow afternoon. What a thing to find out on my birthday.... All you women get a mammogram! Breast exams are a waste of time!!! Wish me luck...
soniat-d (153 
) 3:32
pm, 18 Apr
2. oh sonia, i've followed your journey
but never posted before. I feel for you and wish you all the best for tomorrow.
3. it sure does.
I'm sorry to hear that, I'll send some good vibes your way. More and more people i know are getting cancer. Scary... Although on a good note, a good portion survive.
lostcorz (134 ) 3:33
pm, 18 Apr
4. well first of all Happy Birthday
and good luck with beating the monster!
michellee (167 ) 3:33
pm, 18 Apr
5. Sending you good vibes sonia
And a very happy birthday to you. Sorry to hear about your results,..
solitaire3 (186 ) 3:33
pm, 18 Apr
6. I wish you heaps of luck.
Do finish your birthday and celebrate that, sending lovley birthday wishes, and positive thoughts.
starflower (82 
) 3:33
pm, 18 Apr
7. aw shite good luck
thoughts are with you
8. absolutely all the best
take care of you!
traintracks28 (23 
) 3:34
pm, 18 Apr
9. Im sorry
:o( Keep us posted. Thinking of you. xx
brenda2002 (301 
) 3:34
pm, 18 Apr
10. sorry to hear that #1...it sure does suck
my mum has lost her mum and some brothers and sisters to it and another one is on the way out as well...(((HUGS))) and good vibes coming your way..
superbitsh (408 ) 3:34
pm, 18 Apr
11. arrgh you must be beside yourself
you will fight it with all you've got no doubt!!
12. 
aww sonia
I'm really sorry to hear that. I have read your threads and admired your courage and I truly hope you can overcome this new hurdle. Wishing you all the luck in the world and hard as it seems right now, try and stay positive. We'll all be here pumping for you.
13. all the best
to u and good luck
giggles69 (351 ) 3:35
pm, 18 Apr
14. Goshdarnit...
what a nerve, keep fighting and remain positive and Have a Happy Birthday! Kick that thing to the curb!
scooby614 (368 ) 3:36
pm, 18 Apr
15. i to have followed your journey as well sonia,
i wish all the very best for your results tomorrow!{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}happy birthday hun and im thinking of you.xx
gillespie2 (155 ) 3:36
pm, 18 Apr
16. 
Awww crap!!! That does suck!!
All the best - I hope you will overcome in the end, and see your kids grow up. Blessings.
alimick (107 ) 3:38
pm, 18 Apr
17. Bugger!
Damn dirty thing! Well Gurl Stay Positive! Sending you BIG *snogs* and Birthday Wishes!
scottyc3 (163 ) 3:38
pm, 18 Apr
18. 
Thanks Guys :o)
Balling my eyes out but hey, it aint over till the fat lady sings (keeps my mouth shut LOL). What is it with birthdays??? Found my original lump on my husbands birthday!
soniat-d (153 ) 3:40
pm, 18 Apr
19. I'm not exactly sure why I put a smiley (above)
Looks a bit incongruous. Just meaning to send encouraging thoughts.
alimick (107 ) 3:41
pm, 18 Apr
20. awww Sonia I dont know what to say
not a lot I can say ...except happy birthday..and even that is not the right thing to say right now.xxxxx chrissi
21. Positive vibes....
coming your way... have just had a look at your profile, what a gorgeous couple of kiddies you have. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2004, and last year a good friend also! I do hope with all my heart for a positive outcome for you. (((hugs))).
darkraven1 (115 ) 3:44
pm, 18 Apr
22.
oh geez I've just posted in your birthday thread
now I read this and it really does stink .. I had no idea your nasties were back.I feel so disappointed and tearful for you Sonia.
winnie15 (107 ) 3:47
pm, 18 Apr
23.
Thanks everyone - I keep reading
So lovely to get all your kind thoughts - My girls are being dropped back here soon - will spend quality time with them when they do. Just want them here NOW so I can hug them to pieces ;o)
soniat-d (153 ) 3:47
pm, 18 Apr
24. Hey sonia.... Big Hugs coming to you
from this part of the shore... Sucks the bananas big time... But Happy Birthday, hope your girls and hubby make it a bit of a better one for you..
25. Sitting here having a wee cry for you,
hoping hubby doesn't notice. "What's wrong with you?" "Err *choke* someone I don't even know *sob* has got cancer, and ......." *can't carry on cos of sobbing*... Lol, eek the ads just came on... good he went to the kitchen instead of looking over here. Lol!!
alimick (107 ) 3:47
pm, 18 Apr
26. Well that just sucks
for you Sonia.... will keep my fingers crossed for you. on a brighter had my last chemo round today. I feel like I've been let out of prison and can start planning life again. Big hugs to you Aries buddy
sunbeamnz (72 ) 4:18
pm, 18 Apr
27. Aww Hun rough going
so sorry to hear that,hang in there Sweetie and keep giving it a darn good fight.All the very best to you and your gorgeous family.
heavensentangel (1553 
) 4:20
pm, 18 Apr
28. hope things
go ok for you. My mum had breast cancer last year and had chemo, her hair is starting to grow back now though. She has regular checks to see if it's still at bay and that is avery tense time for all of us. Good Luck to you and keep fighting!!!
tragicnic (155 ) 4:21
pm, 18 Apr
29. ohh Sonia
sooo sorry to hear the news - not impossible to beat though - we are all with you here too. ((HUGS))
manukarose1 (135 ) 4:22
pm, 18 Apr
30. Ok heres a thought
what about if we ban birthdays from now on. Seriously tho, Happy Birthday and Good luck on fighting the monsters.
31. Yup it sux alright......
Really sorry to hear your news Sonia- I'm really sorry your birthday has been tarnished with this news too- I've been following your threads, and thank you for sharing your journey with us. I wish you well. (By the way, you and your cherubs look stunning in your profile photo). Kia kaha
32. oh sonia
that really sux. Keeping my ingers crossed for you. :o(
33.
That monster!!!
Dont give up for nothing my friend!! i wish you all the very best !! I have a daughter that got Large B_Cell lymphoma Aggressive and was not operable I think they caught it just in the nick of time before it got into the bone marrow. I know what you must be feeling and I will pray for a swift recovery for you.
dondonsplace (48 ) 4:40
pm, 18 Apr
34. I really feel for you
I lost my only sister at age 46 to bowel cancer, she was a single mother of six children, one disabled. It's a bastard of a disease. God bless you.
robin23 (642 
) 4:42
pm, 18 Apr
35. Take care #1
and all the best for the road ahead.
36. Sonia
It aint over till its over. Just keep on fighting and fighting. I know you get tired, and worn down with treatment but there are survivors out there who have beaten the odds. My son is one and I am sure that with your guts and determination to carry on that you can be one too. Good Luck and God Bless. Lyndsey
anselmiavaries (148 ) 4:50
pm, 18 Apr
37. It really does sux.
Girl from work came intoday to tell us she has a very rapid growing type of bowel cancer and they think it may be in her lungs as well.
chookpan (22 ) 4:52
pm, 18 Apr
38.
orrrrrrrrrrr soniat darl
you have me in tears for you, i am so sorry to hear that hugs hugs hugs i havent a clue what else to say to you but please except more hugs
39. oh sonia i don't know what to say
just sending you hugs and will be thinking of you - booky xx
40. HUGS
wish I knew what to say :-( thinking of you
keenkiwi (531 ) 5:11
pm, 18 Apr
41. so sorry
to hear your news sonia i have followed your threads and always admired your positive attitude try and stay strong, easier said than done i know, and go and have big cuddles with your little girls and hubby
42. ditto with all above
look after yourself and the very best of luck and best wish's to you and your family. Have a fantastic birthdayxxxxxxxxxxx
linda75 (501 ) 5:18
pm, 18 Apr
43. I am so sorry Sonia
Hope you beat the bastard!
44. Thanks all
Groceries, flowers and meal been dropped off. Girls playing happily :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 5:53
pm, 18 Apr
45. Words fail me Soniat-d....
What a terrible blow to such a positive and courageous person as you. I can only wish you well and hope that you are able to get past this awful time. Blessings and love coming your way from me. In Life, Light & Love....Marie xx
angel9991 (41 ) 6:04
pm, 18 Apr
46. Sonia
hugs & love to you and your family, my thoughts are with you, keep being as strong and cheerful as you have been up to now xx
47. Sonia i am so sorry
This has happened to my Auntie as well first one lump and she had it removed. Then years later another two lumps one in each breast so she told the surgeon to take them both, this was earlier this year and she is hopeful that will be the end of it. My Mum has mammagrams and is of course worried about getting breast cancer. She said if that happens she will demand both of them be removed. Good luck and i hope and pray its not all bad news for you.
48.
Sonia..Sorry to hear your news.
You keep fighting it girl and dont give up. You've been a helluva trooper & an Inspiration all the way and your Family must be so proud of your strength and determination in what has probably been the Biggest fight of your life.! Keep it up and I hope you BEAT the Bugga! Good Luck xxxxxx
jnmal03 (629 ) 7:02
pm, 18 Apr
49. Sonia
My thought are with you. great big hugs to you and your family xxxxx
kewlkiwi (42 ) 7:11
pm, 18 Apr
50. Awww Sonia
((big hugs)) to you and your family, keep fighting the monster. We are fighting it at the moment too, sucks big time. Best of luck with your results, will be thinking of you.
stormbaby (2250 
) 7:16
pm, 18 Apr
51. Best wishes to you too Stormbaby
I've decided I'll just deal with it as it comes, one step at a time. We have our neighbours daughter sleeping over here tonight in Lydia's room - its a nice distraction.
soniat-d (153 ) 8:34
pm, 18 Apr
52. hiya sonia
big hugs to you and your family, hope all goes well with the results.
53.
((( hugs )))
so sorry to hear this sonia.
joybells63 (1095 
) 8:47
pm, 18 Apr
54. what a setback sonia, but one I believe you can
overcome. Take care and I hope your results are good and this is just a blip along the way in a long and healthy life
55. heaps of luck sonia
was reading article about Belinda Emmett today in Ozzie Womans Day, inspiring story. Keep fighting and dont let the bugger win. Cancer does suck - big time.
56. My mother has just gone
through the same thing. Found out last year she had breast cancer and a month ago finished surgery and reconstruction. Luckly got to it early, but not early enough to save them. us girls, 3 of us, have all been checked and will now go religously(sp). Scared the hell outta me! Good luck to you, don't let it keep you down EVER! Fight to the end, my thoughts are with you :)
57. Oh Sonia, that has
really choked me up. You are such an inspiration in your fight to overcome this and if anyone deserves to get through it, you do. I bought a t-shirt for you and others, and who knows, maybe me, yesterday after at last finding one that would fit. We need a lot more research into this beast. Please know that you have a lot of support here.
58. big hugs........
thinking of you Sonia...
59. It's not easy to think of all the positives
at a time like this. I was reading your posting in LindaT's thread, and I felt for you then. I live in fear of my bowel cancer coming back, so I can imagine your thoughts. Sometimes it's hard not to feel sorry for ourselves, but that's just a waste of our emotions. All I can say is get positive, and don't shut out those around you. They may find it difficult to talk about your cancer with you, so you will need to do it for them. I wish you all the best, and will offer prayers for you. May God give you the strength in the fight to regain your health. God Bless.
deekayem (314 ) 9:19
pm, 18 Apr
60. You don't me from Adam
but please believe me when I say that my thoughts are with you. All the best for the fight ahead!!!!
mctshirt (152 ) 9:28
pm, 18 Apr
61. Thanks again to all
I can't sleep, so have got up again. Should've taken that sleeping pill I considered after all! This MB is awesome - as they say, "A problem shared is a problem halved" ;o) It's wonderful to have so many distant aqaintances and strangers take the time to send such lovely messages :o) And to first time message senders a special helloo! ;o) My dh just said he's shocked "but at least its all in the same area"... yes that's something! Maybe I'll be getting that tummy tuck I always wanted after all LOL (ie for skin/muscle reconstruction if they cut the affected area all away which I'll be wanting them to do). Hey, I have no breast left they anyway, so I say hack away guys! Just realised I'm not sure if I'm still supposed to be having my next radiation tomorrow morning - think so...
soniat-d (153 ) 1:28
am, 19 Apr
62. Sorry to hear that
Sending you many warm vibes and a very happy birthday fight this with all you've got gurl!!! Good luck and best wishes to you and your family.!!
63. Awww Sonia
I have been following your progress through your posts and, like everyone else, I had hoped that you were cured and the light was at the end of the tunnel. You are a fighter, you have a lovely young family who are worth fighting for. I hope you managed to get some sleep and I am sending positive thoughts your way.
kiwibunz (342 ) 9:26
am, 19 Apr
64. sonia
your attitude is fantastic. I am so disappointed for you and your family. I do hope that your next op is successful and that you get better and better each day after that. You really put a "face" to cancer for me, and I think you are doing all the women on here a favour by posting your experiences on the TM message board. Hugs to you!
65. Oh Sonia I was just wondering how things
were going for you. My brother and his wee boy are both off having their respective chemo this morning and once again the unfairness of it all seems overwhelming. Keep your chin up girl - you really are an inspiration!
wasala (750 ) 10:52
am, 19 Apr
66. Sonia,
What a bugger, hon. Have been following your story on here. My Mum had this darstadly disease 10 years ago, and has managed to win her battle so far. I know you will, too!!! I know that the hardest part is looking at your babies and thinking what the future holds. I had Melanoma diagnosed at Chrissy and all I could think about was my children. I am so p*ssed off with this disease!! The big C seems to be everywhere at the moment. What is causing it all, I wonder? I wish they'd just find a damn cure already, and something thats not painful to endure like chemo. I know with your spirit and your loving family and all of us sending our love and prayers your way, this thing will go away!! Keep us posted. You will beat it. Love Charlotte.
67. gentle bumps for
sonia.
bogeyi (482 ) 11:12
am, 19 Apr
68.
Hey Sonia
Don't forget...you ARE a survivor. Its in your profile quote, in every word you post and every fiber of your being. We who have never even met you can see it, so don't you go forgetting that it is there! Kia Kaha.
sonja2 (303 ) 11:17
am, 19 Apr
69.
Thanks so much everyone
Yes its devastating at the moment - didn't sleep too well (will take a slepping pill tonight I think!). Like last time, I know what it is before they tell me, so dealing with that already. Meeting Thursday afternoon to get the low-down. Not looking forward to that really, but I do know that this stage is the worst - imagining all sorts. Here I am thinking, thinking... and feeling twinges in my neck and other armpit (mind plays bad games at times like this). My current plan is to request another op to cut them all out again (use tummy for "parts" if need be), whether than be after radiation I don't know. As chemo clearly didn't work I don't imagine I'll be in for that again (unless there's something stronger they haven't told me about). Glad now I have health insurance, even if they wouldn't pay the chemo. Guess its just wait and see what is said tomorrow... Thanks again everyone :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 11:44
am, 19 Apr
70. sonia, don't know how to express myself
my heart goes out to you. Be strong and enjoy each moment you feel well. Hope to see you posting for a long time to come :)
omahanna (116 ) 11:47
am, 19 Apr
71. Oh Sonia
Just came across this thread, you sound amazingly together considering. I honour you for that. Wouldn't it be great if they could use your tummy tho?? Helluva way to get a tummy tuck though, lol. My prayers and best wishes are yours today girlie. I don't even know you, but I care!! (( hugs to you and yours ))
ruthies (28 ) 11:49
am, 19 Apr
72. Sorry to hear the sad news........
I remember the day my sister told me her cancer was back, it hit you even harder than the first time. I believe you will beat this to the end with your attuide & your lovely family. Big hug to you & your family.
qvr43t_mad (666 ) 11:50
am, 19 Apr
73. stink,bum, bugga, bathtub
hugs and thinking of you, stay strong
princess52 (343 ) 11:54
am, 19 Apr
74.
thinking of you today
(( hugs ))
brenda2002 (301 ) 1:09
pm, 19 Apr
75. hey sonia...we are all thinking of you today
hope things go the right way for a change..
superbitsh (408 ) 1:13
pm, 19 Apr
Happy Birthday Sonia
I have read your threads from time to time and was wondering how old you are? I hope you dont think im rude for asking.
ratpack4 (15 ) 1:20
pm, 19 Apr
77. All the best
...good luck!
fruitbat (346 ) 1:29
pm, 19 Apr
78. My thoughts are with you Sonia
I hope you have positive news tomorrow, I have 2 friends battling Breast Cancer at the moment, both, like yourself, are mothers of young children, it stinks big time. I hope you have lots of positive, loving, supportive people around you. {{{HUGS}}} to you & your family, looked at your profile pic, you & your daughters are all gorgeous !
dutchygal (40 ) 1:30
pm, 19 Apr
79. Hugs.......
Hugs aplenty Sonia, will be thinking of you..
80. Your courage and bravery
is wonderful. You always seem to send a smile through your messages no matter how bad you are feeling. Keep fighting the good fight girl. We are all here for you.
kiwitrish (130 ) 1:55
pm, 19 Apr
81. I have seen you post over the years and
loved your positive attitude. Keep it going, it not only gets you through but attracts others who offer support and provide distractions. All the very best for you.
chakendrick (173 ) 2:01
pm, 19 Apr
82. I am just a lurker here,
but as a young mother myself my heart goes out to you. I prayed for you last night and will continue too. You have raised my awareness of breast cancer and have prompted me to book in for a mamogram (even though I am only in my late 30s). I wish you the very best outcome.
ruralmum (80 ) 2:12
pm, 19 Apr
83. #76.
I think she in her thirty
qvr43t_mad (666 ) 2:17
pm, 19 Apr
84. What can I say but keep strong
thinking of you as you face this next hurdle..MrsM
85. My prayers are with you
All the best for tomorrow sonia.
86. just checking in
To see how things are going with you Sonia and wishing the best...Mrs mike.
87. Oh Sonia.... What can I say
When my little brother was about 4 (many years ago)he suddenly came out with this expression one day when he was wild about something "beast, bugger, bitch". Somehow it was the first thing that popped into my mind when I read your postings. My thoughts are with you, especially now, because I know that horrible feeling while you wait for confirmation. While I trust your feelings about this, I am hanging on to the possibility that it may turn out to be nothing too serious. Give your girls a huge hug and try to stay as positive as possible. And take that sleeping pill tonight. This is not the time for heroics, my girl. Lol.
88. Thanks so much all :o)
Its great to hear from you all! I just turned 38 yesterday - had no family history of cancer at all, was fit, healthy, breastfed both my girls each to over 9 mths so this whole situation I'm in is very perplexing. Please get mammograms, my whole story is full of "what ifs" thanks to being talked out of mammograms (and, two months back an ultrasound). Don't let your docs talk you out of a mammogram - I did... my odds would have been sooo much better if first lump had been found earlier :o/ !!!
soniat-d (153 ) 5:14
pm, 19 Apr
89.
I'm fine thanks by the way
Did lose it at my radiation session this morning, however. So the big meeting is tomorrow afternoon to get results etc. Wish me luck for that! Lydia took a bad fall at lunchtime(banged head then passed out and banged it again!)she then later vomited so we just back from docs after an hour+ long wait!!! She's fine thank goodness, but gave me such a scare! Back to my gorgeous girls now. Thanks again all :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 5:18
pm, 19 Apr
90.
what a great attitude sonia
that you're able to be positive even in the most trying circumstances shows your determination and strength .. you go girl .. go kick butt!- Sending you healing thoughts and big big hugs.
winnie15 (107 ) 5:20
pm, 19 Apr
91. dont know you sonia-d
but admire your positivity,your humour and so right its not over till the fat lady sings...Go shake shake, your booty sonia-d...best of luck...
92. ahh master 10 did that in rugby practice
minus the vomitting .. tis scarey indeed. Hope your night goes beeter.
winnie15 (107 ) 5:22
pm, 19 Apr
93. Awwww crap, sonia!!!!!
that is such sucky news!!! Mind you you don't need me to tell you that. Focus on November when U2 reschedule and I'll look out for you at the concert! To quote Bono: don't let the bastards grind you down. Cancer sure is a bastard! My FIL is in remission, but you still feel like you're holding your breath it doesn't come back. {BIIIIIG gentle bear hugs!!!!}
94. Sonia,
I am so sorry about this. I feel for you. Cancer is a bugga. I don't know what to say.
chrystalgail (53 ) 5:59
pm, 19 Apr
95. sux big time sonia :(
big hugs and big luck to you :)
michelle147 (188 ) 6:26
pm, 19 Apr
96. bump for u
:)
michelle147 (188 ) 6:44
pm, 19 Apr
97. My thought are with you too.
You always seem to have such a positive outlook and I am sure that must help you, best wishes for tomorrow, there will be many from the MB thinking of you.
98. Sonia-- YOU GO GIRL !!!
& kick this thing in the butt!! Your website is so cool - you have done an amazing job with it. Have been following your story & posted before about your builder- nod,nod,wink,wink- cuzzie. I have my fingers & toes crossed for tomorrow. You are one amazing lady. Take care.
persioux (192 ) 8:49
pm, 19 Apr
99. Hi Sonia
I like a lot of people, have been a lurker on your threads, and just want to add to the tremendous support you have here. I really wish you well in this awful venture and am sending you huge hugs and prayers for positive news tomorrow. AND how lucky are those precious girls to have such an inspirational and devoted mum?? LOVE and xxxx ~~~Jaynie
jaynie7 (171 ) 8:50
pm, 19 Apr
100. thinking of you
princess52 (343 ) 8:51
pm, 19 Apr
101.
Thanks guys - you're really making my day :o)
It's funny I sent an email out to all my friends and family (about 70 odd people) the same time as I started this thread, saying almost exactly the same thing, and to date only 9 have replied?! And they wonder why I addicted to this MB LOL! Thanks so much everyone, you really are helping!
soniat-d (153 ) 8:59
pm, 19 Apr
102. OMG
Sonia I am gutted by your news and admire you greatly for your attitude. I am on the Shore and would be very happy to help with housework etc. Please check my auctions to get in touch. Lisa. All the very best to you and yours!
ringgirl (82 ) 9:00
pm, 19 Apr
103.
BTW I've just got back from putting the girls
to sleep, lay down with them both for a while. Lydia went out in seconds! I love to watch them sleep :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 9:01
pm, 19 Apr
104.
Hya persioux!
Say hi to John for me LOL! Glad you like the website - I'm quite proud of it!!
soniat-d (153 ) 9:03
pm, 19 Apr
105.
Thanks Lisa I appreciate that :o)
Thankfully I still get a free housekeeper 2 hours a week which is a big help, as for the kiddie mess, I've decided its high time the girls learn to clean up after themselves :p !!!! You're more than welcome to drop by with your son etc - I love company and meeting new people! Thanks for the offer :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 9:12
pm, 19 Apr
106. Hiya soniat-d
How's little Lydia's head? Is she okay now? My son once knocked himself out, scary stuff. He was okay though too. I hope you've had a better evening than your day... big day by the sounds of things. (still thinking and praying for you.)
107. Hi Ruthies
She seems OK thanks - she came right before the doc saw her LOL but kinda went downhill a bit this evening but I'm thinking she was just overtired (both my girls still have day rests/sleeps which they missed out on today because of the drama). So will keep an eye on her before I go down, and get Brent to check in on her too during the night - I'll be sleeping pill-ing tonight - have to I got very little sleep last night! Yep its been a mad day!
soniat-d (153 ) 9:16
pm, 19 Apr
108. Good for you
Make sure you get sleep. It's so hard to stay smiley when you're tired out. You have enough to deal with. How old are your girls?
109. Awwwwww
I just looked at your profile. They're gorgeous!!!! So are you. (waves hello at you)
110. Thanks Ruthies :o)
Lydia just started school a few weeks ago (ie just turned 5) and Emily turned 3 just two weeks before that. They've coped very well with all of this (ie the op, chemo etc), but have become more clingy towards me. The other day Emily asked my M-I-L if she has one or two boobies? MIL said 2. Lydia said "Mummy just has one!" Emily asked Lydia "Why does mummy only have one?" Lydia said "You remember Emily, Mummy had something bad in her boobie so they cut it off" "Oh thats right" said Emily. How sweet is that ?! :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 9:26
pm, 19 Apr
111. Awwwww, too cute
It's funny what kids will accept as normal eh? My mother was ill all my life... she had chronic asthma and complications from the meds. She was often in hospital. I remember when I started school being asked to go to a new friends house, and I asked her if her mum would be there or in the hospital? tee hee. One of my neighbours was a nurse, and another was a nurse aide, so together with my mum... well I just thought it was normal for mums to be there...
112.
To everyone I haven't responded to personally
A very special THANK YOU also for the support - I'd love to reply personally to all but think I'd look a bit silly doing that! LOL But you have all said wonderful things that feel like warm arms around me - very very cool! Thank's everyone! I do re-read the entire thread occasionally from beginning to end, and savour each reply ;o) I'm off now to take that sleeping pill! Nite all ;o)
soniat-d (153 ) 9:38
pm, 19 Apr
113. Sleep sweet
114. soniat-d
if you need someone to come and play with the kids so you can rest just shout. I could just look after them at your place so they wouldn't feel lost, but you could have a wee rest. Let me know
princess52 (343 ) 9:39
pm, 19 Apr
115. oh soniat.......
Im gutted for you :-(.... dunno what to say really cept I care! Keep eating that elephants sweets, one bite at a time (((hugs))))
roseyposey2 (70 ) 9:41
pm, 19 Apr
116.
Soniat-d
YOU WILL BEAT IT! You will make it through! We are all behind you, and we're all thinking of you. Read the book by Lance Armstrong - inspirational stuff. Make us all proud!
nadnailer (15 ) 9:45
pm, 19 Apr
117. Night Sonia....
my love, thoughts and prayers are with you. Be strong my friend and kepe thinking those positive thoughts. God bless xx
salie77 (741 ) 9:52
pm, 19 Apr
118. I hope your baby is ok :)
It's scary when they hurt themselves eh?? Miss 7 fell off my bed head first onto a wooden floor when she was 8 months old. I still shudder thinking about it. I hope your appointments go ok. Remember the squeaky wheel gets the oil, so if you want another op, squeak and squeal!! Kia kaha....
119. What do I say
except that I have been following your threads and you are one brave amazing woman.My middle daughter turnt 14 today and I have a almost 20yr and an almost 3yr.Reading about your battle ,struggle really puts life into perspective for me.I will turn 38 in aug and a lot of the time stress out about silly things.Your a fighter I can feel it though your words,stay strong girl and know lots of people care..maree
jonmar1 (63 ) 10:30
pm, 19 Apr
120. Hi Sonia
My warmest wishes to you and your lovely family. I havent posted before but have read your threads, I wish you all the best I have a friend who is having her second round battle with lukaemia in a year so I can understand some of whats happening to you she just thought it was gone one day and next day back to hospital jusrt when she was going to move away start a great job and the rug was pulled. Take care and keep up the fight your girls are lovely just as you seen to be. Patra CHCH
patra (2136 ) 10:39
pm, 19 Apr
121. Sonia
just wanted to pass on this address to you. There are a group of wonderfully supportive women there, and lots of useful information.Wishing all the best for you. http://www.bcmets.org/
acurran33 (38 ) 10:40
pm, 19 Apr
122. SORRY TO HEAR
the dreaded C is showing its face again,I am off to Auck Hosp tommorrow with my brother who has kidney, spine, lung , cancer he was told he had 3 months almost 4 years ago , he has only had radiation treatment,he has a new problem now ,he is having trouble keeping food down so I am worried sick as to the outcome.I wish you all the best,and will b thinking of you tommorrow.Keep us posted.
pinky6 (243 ) 10:40
pm, 19 Apr
123. morning sonia
gentle hugs for you today, i am praying extra hard for us and you today as we to are waiting news on ryan hopefully it comes today i hate the waiting but on the other hand i dont want to know. So sending good vibes your way.
124. Wishing you all the best
for your meeting today Sonia, you too bogeyi, sorry to hear that Ryan is back in hospital too. Stay strong people :)
scooby614 (368 ) 7:37
am, 20 Apr
125. (((hugs))) for today Sonia
Just know that a lot of people are thinking of you
shoppyshoppy (62 ) 7:50
am, 20 Apr
126. Hi Sonia
I have tears in my eyes from reading this, you are a strong lady and I hope everything goes well for you. When I was 7 my mum was hit dwon with the dreaded C leaving me and my 5 yr old sister. It wasn't until I had kids that I realised how hard it must have been for her. My girls are the same age as yours shan was three in Feb and Tori is 5 in a week or so. Be strong, and my thoughts are with you!!!
jacqui248 (111 ) 7:59
am, 20 Apr
127. Oh Sonia
I can only imagine how you must be feeling. Having just finished the op/chemo/radio thing myself I know that your body will be tired. I will be thinking of you today and hoping for a positive outcome for you and your beautiful family. Many people have taken inspiration from your words, including me. Stay strong...Sue
128. morning sonia
thinking of you today best wishes sweetie is your husband or someone going to be with you
129. Goodluck for
today. Best of wishes to you. Hugs to you and your family.
kathrynf1976 (30 ) 8:38
am, 20 Apr
130. Sonia -
Thinking of you today, along with many others who are all wishing you well.
131.
Hi Sonia
You can fight those monsters. I am sorry they have come back. Anytime you need a pick me up just come on here, we'll all be here! My husband thinks I'm mad talking to people I don't know, but its great to be able to share things and help each other isn't it? Have a great day, hope its as beautiful weather as it is here!
treenie3 (201 ) 8:40
am, 20 Apr
132. Hi Guys :o)
Thanks so much - yes Lydia is fine and dandy thank goodness! Got my usual radiation this morning at 10am then 2.45 this afternoon is meeting with spcialists. Brent will of course come with me ;o) Sorry its madness here - morning rush (Emily's crawling over my shoulders as I try to type LOL) - will respond to all your lovely messages later. Thanks so much all!
soniat-d (153 ) 8:53
am, 20 Apr
133. All the very best of luck!
I will be thinking of you!
134. G'Morning Sonia
Been thinking of you this morning and praying for a positive outcome today.You'll be in my thoughts thoroughout the day.Hugs Winnie
winnie15 (107 ) 9:33
am, 20 Apr
135. goodluck sonia
sorry to hear, hope everything works out :) keep smiling
136. All the best
Strange to think how someone you don't even know can touch your life. Will be thinking of you this afternoon. I pray all goes well.
angela74 (103 ) 9:36
am, 20 Apr
137. Thinking of you for this morning
and this afternoon especially. I hope you get time today to do something to bless yourself. Best wishes to you and your family
ruthies (28 ) 10:51
am, 20 Apr
138. Thinking of you
and good luck for this arvo..
jonmar1 (63 ) 12:23
pm, 20 Apr
139. OMG Sonia....
I haven't been on here for over a week and couldn't believe it when I found this thread, not after everything you have been thru already. I have sat here and cried as I read it. Good luck for this afternoon, just you stay positive whatever the news is. This fight ain't over yet! You might be battle worn at the moment and feeling down but you will find the guts to dig deep and keep fighting. If not, I might have to go kidnap Joystik from her hospital bed in a couple of weeks and come to Auckland so we can kick start you fighting again! All the best and thinking of you this afternoon.
landylass (47 ) 1:17
pm, 20 Apr
140. Hi all, the girls are sleeping at Nanna's now
The fact that there's no call from the specialist is not good news, lets face it, they have the results and leaving to discuss it in person. I'm alone in the house now and can't stop crying - better out than in... This sux man, it really really sux...
soniat-d (153 ) 1:53
pm, 20 Apr
141.
oh sonia!
really don't know what to say... :o(
142.
soniat darling
hugs more hugs and more hugs
143. Hi Sonia
I don't normally post, but I wish to say my thoughts are with you, and as my darling Nana would say I am praying for you..
144. so so sorry sonia...
i looked at ur pic and ur wee girls.. they are too gorgeous :) i have tears in my eyes just thinking about you crying :(
michelle147 (188 ) 2:02
pm, 20 Apr
145. Sonia...keep writing
get it all out, write everything you are feeling right now so you can go into the meeting with a clear head. You are right, this does suck, it sucks big time, but you fight is not finished. You can get back on track, just have a bloody good cry, you don't have to be strong for us here. Get writing....
scooby614 (368 ) 2:05
pm, 20 Apr
146. cry Sonia....
I did all the way home from Dunedin the day they told me about the heart damage. It didn't make me feel any better, but I couldn't stop. The waiting is the awful bit, once you know the facts you will know what you are dealing with. Just big [[[[hugs]]]]] and hang on to the hope it might not all be bad news! You will get thru this.
landylass (47 ) 2:06
pm, 20 Apr
147. oops....
didn't mean to swear, sorry!
scooby614 (368 ) 2:06
pm, 20 Apr
148. BIG THANKS !!!!
to you and your family. Thanks for sharing your life with us. My Mum has just had a mamogram and they found a lump. She is seeing the specialist next week - they will let her know what kind of treatment she will be having. They are suggesting that they will have to remove her breast. She say she is feeling kinda of numb at the moment. She is taking one day at time.
dingbat (356 ) 2:07
pm, 20 Apr
149. 2.10 pm - thinking of you Sonia
hope the appt goes well, I have butterflies in my stomach for you.
winnie15 (107 ) 2:10
pm, 20 Apr
150.
Its OK guys, as some of you know
I am a strong person ;o) Sometimes though, you've gotta let it out. Even though I am only 38, I've had a fantastic life, I've travelled the world, lived abroad, have a great husband and gorgeous girls who tell me dozens of times a day that they love me. I don't really worry about this for me, I just weep at the thought of them seeing me go and having to grow up without me. The plans I had for them... Lydia keeps hugging me and telling me I'me "the best mummy is the whole world!" and I do try to be. I'm not giving up, I'm just being realistic. I was hoping for 10 years, guess I'll still try like hell to try for that.
soniat-d (153 ) 2:10
pm, 20 Apr
151. you are AMAZING
:)
michelle147 (188 ) 2:12
pm, 20 Apr
152. Yes i think you are too..
Praying for you today
153. You have been thru
a hell of a ride the last few months.... its all gotta give somewhere... let it out. Wait for the facts and options, its ok being realistic but don't you DARE let those dreams go!!!!!
landylass (47 ) 2:14
pm, 20 Apr
154. I haven't posted in your threads before
but, heart & soul, I'm thinking of you and wishing that life wasn't so blimmin unfair. I grew up on the Shore and wish I was back there now to make you some meals. Not much I can say except wishing you all the best
155. Yeah I'm thinking all thoughts Landylass
Like back when my doc told me there was no need for a mammogram, and how different things were be if I'd stood up then like I finally do now. Then, if I'd also pushed my gut feel that we should've done radiation first, and a few months back when I was sure it wasn't right in there and wanting an ultrasound. Every single specialist I've had has let me down it would seem...
soniat-d (153 ) 2:19
pm, 20 Apr
156. sonia
quite a few of my friends have had breast cancer. One had bilateral mastectomies 9 years ago. At the time she said she only wanted 5 years. (As you do). She now has a grandchild and is at 9 years and said the other day she only wants to live to 75! Keep your chin up girl, you are the best mummy
princess52 (343 ) 2:22
pm, 20 Apr
157. Yeah I know landylass ;o)
At least this time I know the rollercoaster I'm getting back onto. I cried a heck of a lot more the first time, after I found the lump for a day, and after the biopsy for a day and a half, but then after the op I was all smiles, the results I felt on top of the world thinking I was cancer free, well as you know, I found the strength and stayed happy. I will again, absolutely. Just gotta get out whatever we can, treat whichever way we can, and just enjoy every day we have.
soniat-d (153 ) 2:24
pm, 20 Apr
158. Yeah we would
all do things different if we could turn back the clock. Thats the hard bit, accepting the things we can't change. You can only put your faith in the system and as we both know sometimes it just doesn't work. You are going to have to put your faith in these guys that they are going to pull you thru this. It suxs big time, but you are a lot wiser now to questioning decisions and options. Hang in there, shortly you will know exactly what you are dealing with and we both know its easier once you know the facts. This is just a set back. Good luck.
landylass (47 ) 2:25
pm, 20 Apr
159. Thats true Landylass ;o)
Thanks everyove :o) Sh#t! Loook at the time LOL time to go! Back later!!!
soniat-d (153 ) 2:27
pm, 20 Apr
160. thinking of you heaps sonia
ya been on my mind all day. I am 33 and have bewbies that are too big to examine myself (lol) how much is a routine mamogram? Hmm ignore that just worry about yaself. Hang in there. (( hugs ))
brenda2002 (301 ) 2:29
pm, 20 Apr
161. Thinking of you Sonia
Not long now until your appointment. I am keeping fingers & toes crossed for you- wish,wish,wishing for good news XXX
persioux (192 ) 2:35
pm, 20 Apr
162. I have had to pay
for mammagrams brenda and they are around $120-$130 but thats Dunedin. Some clinics also suggest you have a ultrasound as well. Sometimes breast density is an issue in reading the mammagrams with pre-menapausal woman and this may be one reason they also suggest the ultrasound.
landylass (47 ) 2:35
pm, 20 Apr
163. *Off to centre my thoughts around you Sonia*
.
winnie15 (107 ) 2:55
pm, 20 Apr
164. Oh great my watch is slow..
"throws hands up in the air"
winnie15 (107 ) 2:56
pm, 20 Apr
165. Thinking...
of you as always Sonia. Stay strong! x
salie77 (741 ) 3:02
pm, 20 Apr
166. Can stand the thought
that I am just sittiing here typing away when you are there getting your results. Parallel worlds
angela74 (103 ) 3:16
pm, 20 Apr
167. im thinking of you to, i sooo hope its not a bad
result..hugs to you.
leyland1 (448 ) 3:16
pm, 20 Apr
168. You're in my thoughts too sonia :o)
I wish there was something I could do for you from the Hutt Valley. I hope your appointment went OK. **more hugs for you and one for Brent (if you don't mind!)** it must be so hard on him to watch you go through this.
169. Don't suppose....
anyone has the link to Sonia's website do they? I've read it a few times but can't find the link now :( Otherwise, I will wait for Sonia to reply, thanks :)
salie77 (741 ) 3:29
pm, 20 Apr
170. Sonia
Probably too late now, you'll be at your appointment, but I got the dreaded test results by phone. The surgeon rang me and said "the news is as bad as it can possibly be", and I didn't hear any more. Rang him back after spending a couple of hours crouched on the floor feeling sorry for myself, and found out he'd organised for me to be operated on 3 days later. Now 10 years, and so far so good. (Fingers crossed behind back.) Just hoping your surgeon is going to be more positive than you're feeling. We have a prayer circle going for you. God Bless you, my dear.
deekayem (314 ) 3:36
pm, 20 Apr
171. sending love and support
and lots of positive vibes.
starflower (82 ) 3:40
pm, 20 Apr
172. Congratulations deekayem,
that's a good report
173. Sonia- Have a good day
My thoughts are with you. Be Brave!
174.
my thoughts are with you too..
especially this afternoon..I dont know you but have been thinking about you all day and so much wishing your appointment will go well..best wishes to you and your family, you are such an inspiration :)
175. I really hope you are OK
Sonia, What a hell of a thing to be going through!!
jacqui248 (111 ) 4:37
pm, 20 Apr
176. hi sonia
just read your thread, my heart goes out to you, I know you have probably had heaps of suggestions and ideas, but here goes anyway, my friend was diagnosed with lymphatic luekemia ( think thats how you spell it) by the time they found out what was wrong they said it was too late and sent him home to die, he got into touch with the gawler foundation and 10 years on is still in good health, maybe they are worth looking into, you can google them and read their website he also has a book I believe its called "you can beat cancer"it may not be for everyone but it did help him
177. # 169 Salie77
Here's the link to the site. I'm sure Sonia won't mind as she gave it out before. http://sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/ Understandably it hasn't been updated for a while but it is inspiring and touching.
178 All the best for you tomorrow Sonia
and that really does suck... and when you are ready i do think a lot of alternative options are more successful than we ever know... i know it worked for me and i was fortunate enough to have mine go.. anyways.. big hugs to you sweet girl.. and your family
missbehave (30 ) 4:44
pm, 20 Apr
179. hay my bouncy ball sonia
only came back on to see if you were back but hopefully you are out celebrating that it isnt as bad as you thought, loves and hugs darling xxx lesley
180. Sonia , tears are falling for you and yours
We are praying so hard for you.Hugs from us all here.
181. Can't get you outta
my mind at moment, just hope like pomegal that it isn't as bad as you have prepared yourself for! Hugs to all.
landylass (47 ) 4:53
pm, 20 Apr
182. Sonia
I have read all the tread & looked at your web page.........(((hugs))) for you....
183. Been thinking about you
all afternoon. Have had a knot in my stomach. Big hugs
184. I took the time this afternoon to
read some of your website. It's awesome. I've come away wishing I lived near you, you strike me as the sort of person I'd like to say "can I be your friend?" to!! Yeah, yeah I know I sound like a big sap! I promise I'm not a stalker though and I don't think I'm a weirdo....although you'll have to ask others opinions on that!! LOL!! It's funny you say during your chemo friends have become strangers and strangers have become friends....that's exactly what a friend of mine said when she went through a rough patch with her health. It must be coz some people don't know what to say or do so they say & do nothing. It's a shame though, isn't it?
185. im with u tishie :)
the website is just awesome and sonia seems like she'd be an awesome gilfriend, mum and wife... im not a stalker either lol
michelle147 (188 ) 5:06
pm, 20 Apr
186. could someone
please give me sonia's website- how are you sonia thinking of you and your family
187. Sonia i too have a knot in my stomach
and can not get you out of my mind...your website and postings on here have made us all think of you as a real person not just someone we cyerchat to....we have exchanged e-mails in the past..they also portray you as a wonderful strong young woman....I can not say more except that you have had a huge impact on me and the tears are flowing for you and your man and your little girls Chrissi
188. aggy...its at #177 i think
:)
michelle147 (188 ) 5:35
pm, 20 Apr
189. Wow thank you everyone :o)
Yep, I'm finally back! Well, so far, the news is, yep, its cancer again, at least 6 lumps, and looks like the same strain as last time, though they're going to do some further analysis on the samples to ascertain whether it has mutated slightly, in which case other pills etc can be taken to fight it. Tomorrow I'm having a CT scan to check it hasn't spread further (results late tomorrow), then on Monday afternoon a bone scan. So far they've also ultrasounded my healthy boob and that's still all clear - woohoo! The thing is, its wierd that its resurfaced DURING treatment, thats unusual :o/ Current plan is to continue, but step up and expand, the radiation, to shrink the tumors, then a few weeks after that is finished, cut out the whole affected area (leaving a monstrous scar apparently). A good thing is the extra 10kgs I've put on with chemo is a help here with that op :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 5:49
pm, 20 Apr
190. I have more to say ;o)
but have to go now be with the girls who've hardly seen me all day, get dinner going, etc! Back later - thanks so much all, I really can feel the cyberhugs - and PS I'm smiling again ;o)
soniat-d (153 ) 5:51
pm, 20 Apr
191. great to hear sonia :)
rest well tonite :) big squeezes to u and ur awesome family :)
michelle147 (188 ) 5:55
pm, 20 Apr
192. Big Hugs Sonia
My prayers are with you alond with everyone elses.... What a day you have had, And thank you soo much for taking the time to let us all here knw what is going on..... Be Strong
jacqui248 (111 ) 5:57
pm, 20 Apr
193. Hey sonia
never posted in your thread before but always lurk, have not posted because i don't quite know how to put into words what i want to say to you. I think you are one of the bravest people i have ever heard of. May not post much but i am here and just want to wish you all the best.
194. thoughts have been with you all day
you keep smiling ,your an awesome person..keep up the battle.
195. Hi sonia
just wanted to let you know you are in my thouhts. Good luck girl! (((((hugs)))))
solitaire3 (186 ) 6:09
pm, 20 Apr
196. Good for you Sonia. You are an inspiration to
all of us, with your attitude. Keep up that fight.
alimick (107 ) 6:09
pm, 20 Apr
197. thx for keeping us updated
(((BIG BIG HUGS)))
winnie15 (107 ) 6:10
pm, 20 Apr
198. Oh dear Sonia
You are an inspiration to me, how you smile in the face of adversity. I haven't had you out of my head all day, just wondering how you're going. Just wondered, would you mind if I asked my prayer chain at church to pray for you and your family?
199. thanks for the update sonia...
ask your doctor if they need a donor for fat? I have loads you can have!! LOL! I remember seeing a famous 1970's model on Oprah a month or two back (can't remember her name though!) She had breast cancer and had these amazing photos taken of her scarred body after a double mastectomy. She said that they were her favourite photos of herself - even though there are thousands of glamorous photos from her modelllng heyday.
200. hugs
xox
smileygirl (159 ) 6:29
pm, 20 Apr
201. Just caught up with this thread
(((((hugs)))) Sonia - that definitely sucks big time. You are so very brave. Fingers crossed for the CT and bone scan.
202. Sonia
My sister is going through the same thing as you are, stay strong and know your journey is not a solo one and that there a alot of people on this board who will give you possitive support. Special thoughts for you sonia.
203.
sonia
so sorry to hear the outcome of today..................agian ((((hugs))))) for all of you
204. Thanks for posting
Sonia.... sorry to hear it is the big c again, was so hoping it was otherwise. Let the next battle commence!
landylass (47 ) 7:00
pm, 20 Apr
205. take care...
You have my heartfelt hugs and positive vibes ... You rock Sonia :)
206. Hi Sonia
I haven't posted much but have been following your threads. My sister went through pretty much the same as you.So I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers
tinkerbelle4 (44) 7:41 pm, 20 Apr
207.
Hi again just popping in quickly b4 the girls'
bathtime, I want to respond to many of you, will do once girls asleep. Thanks everyone, I'm so amazed and thrilled by the generosity of responses, you're all sweethearts :o) Will post heaps more later! LOL
soniat-d (153 ) 7:55
pm, 20 Apr
208. Hi Sonia
your website is fantastic the house is looking great and your little girls are just beautiful
209. Hi Sonia, I hope your Bone Scan etc...goes well
Lots n Lots of prayers for you. My Beloved Mum whom I spent the last few months of her Life Caring for had Cancer & its also taken 6 Members of her Family as well including my 12yr old Cousin..2 Of her brothers have been Battling Bowel Cancer for around 2yrs as well. Im so tired of the destruction,misery & sadness Cancer causes in People and their lives and the lives of their families. I so hope you beat this bi$ch! Fight,Fight,Fight with ALL your strength and dont let it win Sonia. Best Wishes to you all again.
jnmal03 (629 ) 8:17
pm, 20 Apr
210. sonia , all I can say is hang
in there .
211. hiya sonia just wanted to pop in and say
hello and I am thinking of you an your family.
212. good luck for your CT scan tomorrow
will be thinking of you, I hope you get good news from that.
213. TM went down just as I went to do all my postings!
#sigh# So, to continue… so far it looks like just a local recurrance, while that's not what we wanted, its not the end of the world! I must say, now that I feel the lumps (I have for a few weeks of course, but put it down to effects of radiation on the scar tissue, swelling from chemo etc etc), the biggest tumor is already 2cm! I'm frustrated the lumps have to stay in me till after radiotherapy, I grilled my specialist on this (don't trust the docs so much now!) but because radio is already underway, they can't operate now (scar won't heal cos of effect of radiation on healing). They assured me that radio ALWAYS shrinks the tumors, but its a delayed effect. Just wish I couldn't feel them... :o/ After three docs all missed these lumps even though I kept querying why the area felt so wierd, I requested that, in future, I'd rather be ultrasounded at my checkups as opposed to just the finger prodding they've been doing till now. She agreed that was a fair enough request. After all, if a tumor grows to 2cm befor
soniat-d (153 ) 11:25
pm, 20 Apr
214.
cont'd
... before I feel it (!) in an area with only about that much distance from skin to bone anyway, I have to say my faith in breast checks on their own is completly blown to pieces! Take note everyone! Recurrances suck, but apparently they just keep cutting them out and you just keep on, and so I guess that's my lot now. #shrugs# Could be worse I guess (touch wood). Well its late, I'm sipping on the yucky milky concoction I have to drink before the CT scan, then a sleeping pill and to bed. 'Nite all and thanks for relaying your thoughts and concern - it means a lot to me ;o) I appreciate all the thoughts and support as I enter another rollercoaster ahead of us - just when we thought it was almost over!!! Yay for the MB community - thanks so much - you all rock :o)
soniat-d (153 ) 11:25
pm, 20 Apr
215.
So many to respond to - can't do all tonight!
To all those who have commented on my website (see #177 for link ;o) thanks, yes I'm proud of it! I will be updating in next few weeks, I usually do one every 3 months but lots has happened so yes time for an update! I started it to save me writing so many letters to all my overseas rellies and friends, and it kind of took off from there! It's funny looking back at the older entries now, seeing pics of myself before this nightmare all started smiling innocently - I want to yell at my pic "Get a mammogram!!!" LOL
soniat-d (153 ) 11:31
pm, 20 Apr
216.
goodnight Sonia
I'm sending you healing vibes...hope you sleep well. I'm off up north 2moro for a few days, but will check in on Monday. Stay strong Sonia. We're with you all the way..
treenie3 (201 ) 11:34
pm, 20 Apr
217.
Thanks Treenie ;o)
I really want to respond personally to others on here, but it may take a few days. Its hectic all right! Will pop in when I can! Thanks again and goodnight all ;o)
soniat-d (153 ) 11:41
pm, 20 Apr
218. morning Sonia
Hope today is a good day for you!
jacqui248 (111 ) 7:19
am, 21 Apr
219. Loved the photos....
you have lots of love in your life sonia.. lovely to see.. thanks for sharing xxxx
missbehave (30 ) 7:33
am, 21 Apr
220. Morning Sonia...
hope you managed to sleep last night. Good luck this morning.
landylass (47 ) 7:50
am, 21 Apr
221.
Hi all, can't type now, wish I could!
Thanks again - more later!
soniat-d (153 ) 8:56
am, 21 Apr
222. Morning all - had a great nights sleep :o)
Radio at 10.30 (normal blast I just found out, and bit bummed about - they'll change things on Monday. Grrr). Anyway, CT is at 3.30, and calling my specialist at 6pm for the results, assuming they are in. Will update whenever I can ;o) And hopefully respond to you lovelies when I can - its a hectic day today!
soniat-d (153 ) 9:05
am, 21 Apr
223. Sonia, don't feel the
need to be on here any more than you can cope with. We'll all be thinking of you today - that's enough of a busy day to send the healthiest person into a spin, and we understnad that you have your lovely daughters and husband to care for too. Try and put yourself first whenever you can. Thought are with you again.
224. Good luck today Sonia
Try and fit in a cappuccino (or whatever takes your fancy). It's good for the soul. Will be thinking about you and your family :)
225.
Good idea maewest LOL
Well I got all demanding at the radiology this morning, made them check whether all of new tumors are within the existing treatment area for remaining treatments until the changes are made, made sure specialist saw me before next one on Monday (10.40). Just hate feeling those tumors in me, hate it... Oh well, off for an early lunch before the fasting must start, countdown till 3.30 - results after 6pm tonight. Fingers and toes xxxx'd !!!!
soniat-d (153 ) 11:47
am, 21 Apr
226.
*Inserts a heap of swear words*
Crikey Sonia, what a letdown for you. You of all people do not deserve this. You are strong, and this has only made you stronger. Good luck mate...
spellcheck (1 
) 12:06
pm, 21 Apr
227. Sonia...
thinking of you as usual, all the luck in the world for your CT scan today. I will be praying for you. None of us are going anywhere so you just post on here when you can. Lots of love and blessings xx
salie77 (741 ) 1:47
pm, 21 Apr
228.
Hi Sonia *waves*
how ya doing today? Been thinking of you. Hey we don't expect you to respond to us all personally, just keep us in the picture is all we ask, so we can keep you in our thoughts.Hugs Wendy
winnie15 (107 ) 2:07
pm, 21 Apr
229. Hope is all well
My thoughts are with you.
kathrynf1976 (30 ) 2:14
pm, 21 Apr
230. Sonia I have been watching this thread
and have just been into your website. You are such a beautiful person and your family is beautiful too. The love in his eyes